Poems By Me (PG 16)

[Nagoyaka Aikouka]

Well, this is just going to be my Poetry thread. I'll stick new poems in as they come. Any critiques and comments are welcomed and appreciated.

So you're all aware, these are poems I wrote to work through a tough time in my life. They aren't the best of poems, but they are pretty powerful.


The Stripping of Your Crown

You wanted to be the King
And I always played your maid
Yours in mind, yours in soul,
And gods, yours in body, too.

Well, your majesty, what’s it like?
You’re nothing more than a pauper.
A lowly beggar, looking for more.
Haven’t you found it yet?

You took advantage of me
Over and over I let you.
You were my wise master.
And I was your naïve slave.

You say you’re sorry
Crawling on bloody knees.
Go another thousand miles
My majesty needs to know the pain.

Well, your royalness, what’s it like?
You’re nothing more than a pauper.
A lowly beggar
And you’re looking for me.
You’ll never catch me now.



White Blood

A knife to my gut
A knife to my breast
Stab me once, twice, more
You never cared.

I was bleeding in your arms
But you kept right on
Stabbing and Cutting
I’m out of red blood
I’ll bleed white for you…

The blade was called “love”
Or so you told me
Jumped me once, twice, more
You never really cared.

I was bleeding in your arms
But you kept going
Slicing and knifing
Running out of white blood…
I would have done anything

Anything for you…


Paying the Price

This room’s as cold as a tomb
Maybe it should be mind.
I pushed him again
He deserves better.

The blade at my wrist gleams
Its touch icy cold
Nothing else for me
I’m not good for him.

I’ll pay the price in crimson
Drops of ruby red
Raining down all around me
It was too good to be true.

Dig it in deeper now
You’ll never end it that way
I’ve gotta keep pushing down
Or I’ll hurt him again.

I’ll pay my price in crimson
Drops of ruby red
Raining down from me now
It’s for my own good

I can’t keep hurting him.


When Wax Wings Become Real

Sitting in darkness
Waiting for answers
Waiting for hope
Dreaming of peace

You came for me and brought me
Higher than I knew possible
Love made our wings
And trust blew our wind.

Confused as we move on
Waiting for signals
Waiting for hurting
Dreaming of eternity.

You stopped me again and again
I’m fling too close to the sun
Wings of wax melt
Wind ceases to blow.

Tumbling down so fast
Waiting for impact
Waiting for rejection
Dreaming of your touch.

You held out your arms and caught me
Saving me from my sheer demise
Let love keep out wings strong
And trust keep the winds warm
Eternity has been realized.

The Arms of an Angel

There’s always been some reason
For me to not feel good enough
In this world full of lies and cheap thrills.
I need some distraction
Some beautiful relief
Memories leak from my veins.
Let me be empty, weightless
Maybe I’ll find my peace tonight.

It’s so cold in the wreckage
Of my silent reverie
Liquid hurt pools around me
Maybe I’ll finally find
Some comfort here
In the arms of my angel
Who pulls me up past the gloom
Crimson tear-stained eyes look for hope.

I’ve fallen too many times in this life
Been pushed down too many more.
I can’t make myself rise again.
Give me your hand
Help me up and out
My angel with shining white wings.
Take me away with you
Don’t leave me here like them

I’ve found my peace tonight.

[Cybex Mewtwo]

:shocked:
Incredible. Absolutely incredible. You (along with blue eyes white dragon) have a knack for drawing emotions from people via your words. You....I....I'm at a loss for words. Bravo. Simply brilliant.

[blue eyes white dragon]

great job me and you should be partner for poem? bravo!

[Nagoyaka Aikouka]

*giggles* Thanks, guys. In all honesty, they aren't my best work. But, thanks for your opinions! *throws confetti*

[Cybex Mewtwo]

Ask Blue eyes. I tell the truth with every post I place. And this is no different. I am admiring both you and blue eyes with all my heart beause you guys are an incredible couple of poets.

(as a side note, I wanted to PM you Phantom mew...but that's not an option...so I have two questions...
1-a person of your skill...would you mind looking at my stuff?
2- I wanted to be friends with you.)

[violentiago]

if that isen't your best work then your best work must be incredeble

[Nagoyaka Aikouka]

YAY! I love good reviews!! Well, this poem I wrote in memory of a friend. My horse, Swede, who passed away this last winter. Kind of nice, and yes, it was written for my horse.

My Friend

You, my dear, were a wonderful friend,
An amazing listener, true to the end.
I loved you so much, and I want you to know
You are my friend.

I could talk to you about anything at all.
You'd never laugh about my troubles so small.
And I wish you were here so I could say
You are my friend.

You came to us, bedraggled, rough, and thin,
But we saw the real you, champion within.
In my mind, you'll always be that soul.
You are my friend.

If you can hear me, my friend above,
Know that forever you shall hold my love.
No one can replace you, not in my heart.
No one shall tear my fond memories apart.

You are my friend.

[Cybex Mewtwo]

So very serene and sweet. You must have loved that horse dearly. Heck, I'd have done the same exact thing as you. That is to say, do something in memory. Don't think I'd do a poem but you get the idea hopefully.

[Nagoyaka Aikouka]

Thanks, Cybex Mewtwo. I wrote the poem just after he died. It's kinda nice, the poem's hanging up by a picture of us.

Here's a few more that I wrote last night. I was feeling pretty poetic, and fully insomniatic (if that's even a word). Ehehehe. Anyways, read and enjoy!

A Butterfly Behind a Mask

I was afraid to love
And so afraid to show
Scared to let them see
The side that only I know

You came along, broke me down
I willingly pulled away my mask
You smiled at me, the real me
In you loving glow I bask.

But to others I was still a worm
One just like all the rest
From them I hid behind the mask
Afraid they’d think of me less

You took my hands, held me
Enfolded me from their gaze
Cocooned from the spotlight
You said you’d love me all my days

Now I’ll unfold my wings
Show the world my colors true
Unafraid to show myself
All of it, thanks to you.

Thought my wings are poised for flight…
Remember and know that I’ll never leave you…


Plea from a Wind-Up Toy

A masquerade is what I am
Parading and paraded before a crowd
I can’t escape the spotlight, no place to run
I need someplace to hide
A refuge is what I need.

Curled up in my corner
The spotlight unmercifully searching
It finds me again, I cringe in fear
I wish they’d leave
Just let me be.

And they wind me up again
All I am is their cheap toy
Marching to their song, their pleasure
I need some help
I can’t do it alone…

A smile so fake, so very forced
You see the fear, hurt within
Take me with you, don’t leave me
I need you now
Gods I love you…

Pull me up past my gloom, angel
Your promises shine like gold
Softer than the harsh spotlight
Hide me from them
Keep me safe…


A Cry from the Heart

I need you tonight
I miss you so much
Can you feel the hurt in me?
You always could before
Do you know how much
I wish you were here?
I miss your arms around me
Miss your heat enfolding me
The taste of your lips haunts me
Memories wash around me
Like an ocean of desire.
I close y eyes
I can almost feel you
Almost see you
I open my eyes and all I see it air
Blank and empty
A cold and vacant bed
I curse the miles between us
You know I love you
More than life itself
I don’t mean to cry
But the tears come unbidden
I’ll try to be strong
Tell me you love me…
I miss you, I love you
My heart, my soul

[Cybex Mewtwo]

I cried....I actually shed a few tears and cried...if you can do that to me by your words alone...then you are destined for something great. You show me a level of skill unbeknownst to anyone I have ever seen. Once again...you have amazed me beyond no other notion.

[Nagoyaka Aikouka]

*hugs Cybex Mewtwo* Aww! Thanks! I really don't think you know how much I appreciate that.

[Cybex Mewtwo]

you know...your custom user title 'a true romantic'.....it tells all the truth...you really are...and it shows well.

[Nagoyaka Aikouka]

*giggles* Thanks a bundle! That's the first sappy poem I've written in quite some time.

[Cybex Mewtwo]

Well, I'd love to see some of your previous works. You can PM them to me or simply post em here. Can't wait to see what else you'll come up with next.

[Nagoyaka Aikouka]

The first poem I wrote last night, and the second I wrote quite a while back. I found it while I was flipping through my journal.


Thanks to You

So long ago we met,
So long ago we loved
Confusing feelings and mixed signals
Forgive me for leaving.

Thanks to you I left you
And thanks to you we knew
Thanks to you I never forgot

I never stopped loving you,
Even when it was forbidden
I loved you always
And you know I always will.

Thanks to you I cried,
And thanks to you I sighed
Thanks to you, we found again.

You found me in a right state
Bleeding, confused, and hurt
You pulled me up, stopped me
And here we are today

Thanks to you, I'm here
And thanks to you we're near
Thanks to you, I know love.

I owe you all I am
Thank you, Savior of my Soul


One Cut Deeper

One cut deeper, my blade goes deeper
It's your fault, my fault
I gave you my heart, you thrust it back
The water turns red.

I'm so confused and it's all your fault
But that's not true, my fault too
Just go away and leave me be
I just want it all to end.

My fingertips grip the edge
Music's so loud, my scream's unheard
A smile through the crimson pain
Soon enough, a burden no more.

I'm so confused and it's all your fault
But that's not true, my fault too.
Just go away and leave me be
I just want it all to end.

Did you ever think that I may love you
More than he could ever manage
I'm lying here, crying for you
As you wipe away his tears.

I'm so confused and it's all your fault
But that's not true, my fault too
Just go away and leave me be
I just want it all to end.

It's all going to end...

Crimson pain, teardrops of ruby
Falling from my loving skin.
One cut deeper, my blade goes deeper
And so it ends.


Yes, I wrote that one, yes it was meant to come from a girl. Not everyone will understand, if you don't... well... too bad, eh?

[Cybex Mewtwo]

1st poem-You got me to cry once again............lovely....simply lovely.....you have done it again and I bow to your skills.

2nd poem-If I'm seeing and reading this corectly, the poem is saying that you felt so rejected at one time you figured it was no longer time to be alive or something to that extent...if that be the case I've felt that many a ime...although it was all in an imaginated state.
but regardless it was there...this is quite a serious poem in my honest opinion. And it was very well written. Top notch performance.

[~Ozy~]

You know that I think well of your work, koi. And these poems that you've put up here are wonderful. Very personal, very touching. Very well-written too, at that.

[Nagoyaka Aikouka]

*smiles* Thanks guys. I appreciate the praise, I really do. I'll put up another couple of poems when my brain isn't fried on paint fumes anymore.

[Kurono]

Your poems show a true knowledge of human emotion. That's what makes them...so very vibrant..

[Nagoyaka Aikouka]

Thanks again! :)

Alright, this one I wrote on a "What if" basis. It's not true, so don't worry about it. It does, however, have a nice sense of pasison.

Because You're Gone

And now you're gone
How could you just leave me like this?
I lie on my bed
My tears soaking a blood-shaded blanket.
I told you I couldn't live
Not without you.

And now I'm numb
My body's cold, I'll never be warm.
What will I do?
How can I carry on without you?
I know that I can't,
My fate is clear.

And now I bleed
Steel is cold, but I don't feel it anyways
Life drains away
Good riddance, it was only holding me down.
A smile touches my lips
I'll be with you soon.

I love you...


The next two are straight from the heart.

A Place of Beauty

What is beauty?
A thing of imagination?
They say tis in the eyes
Eyes of the beholder.

Let me paint a picture
Let me tell a tale
I'll show you a world of beauty
A world that's all my own.

Waves lap softly against the shore
Sunshine falls to graze my cheek
A gentle breeze toys with my hair
This is a place of peace.

A baby bird squalls for mother
Fish leap from a watery home
Saplings sway in a rhythmic beat
This is a place of life.

Mighty oaks stand tall and firm
Shoots of grass reach for the sun
Whispy coulds skim the sky
This is a place of hope.

Sunsets burst in colors bright
Stars twinkle among their brethren
The moon shines with an eerie glow
This is a place of wonder.

So take my hand
I'll take you there
And show you majesty
Beyond your wildest dreams.

This is a place I call home.



Take Me Away

Lay my head down
Try and stop the tears,
Stem the bleeding,
Hide the shame.

Pull a plankey around me.
Try and stop the shivers,
Stem the cold,
Hide the fear.

Maybe I deserve all I get
But it doesn't make this easy.
I can't always be perfect
Who they want me to be.

So take me away
Pull me out of my cell
Inside this prison labeled "home".
Take me away
Don't leave me here
I can't take much more of this.

Look out my window
Try and see the light,
Find my hope,
Save my life.

Reach my arms out
Try and see a future,
Find my voice,
Save my soul.

Maybe I deserve all I get
But it doesn't make this easy
I can't always be perfect
Who they want me to be.

So take me away
Pull me into the night
Full of wonder and hope.
Take me away
Don't leave me here
A taste of freedom is all I need.


Well, there ya go!

[~Ozy~]

Again, love, nice work. My commendations on these. Can't really say much more at the moment.

[Cybex Mewtwo]

Wish there was a 'camera-chat' option here so you can see me woot and cheer. Superb yet again.