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♥~*Abby*~♥
February 7th, 2007, 01:42 PM
sniff... sniff... EVERYTHING in this story is true... and all happened 2 me in my past, 5th grade 2 b exact (school year of 2005/2006) i decided 2 share this 2 c what u thought, because i think a had a VERRRRY traumatic year in 5th grade, if u have comments, post below. and oh yeah, none of this applies 2 me nemore... but it happened...

the beginning of 5th grade wasnt THAT bad. i had friends, a nice teacher, it was as if everything was going 4 me... when suddenly, the "news" was told 2 me. id be moving. but THAT was only the beginning... well, i was still staying in pensilvania, but still... thered only no like, 2 people at my new school, and i didnt even no them that well. one of them was anthony. he is 2 grades older than me, and plays a BIG role in this story... the only good thing about my new school was that my teacher was better than my old one, but i put THAT in perspective... my mom made me take medications, and i didnt like how they made me feel... they landed me in anger management class, and made me depressed, an "enraged emo" 2 say the least. i was mad. i had a worst enemy named collin. we normally get in2 verbal fights, but it sometimes got phsyical. there was 2 people in my class that i wanted 2 murder... and my depressed side, well... i wanted 2 commit suiside, and i sent emails about how i hated my life 2 anthony... he told me not 2 commit suiside, but i didnt listen. i wasnt exactly sure HOW i wanted 2 commit suiside, but i did. i was considering using a knife, or maybe jumping off my deck... lets say this, i DIDNT no how 2 painlessly commit suiside... i was going 2 anger management class every schoolday exexpt 4 friday, and id b there 4 the summer camp 2, with my worst enemies... and then, in march, my dog died. i thought "y him, y NOT me..." i got in2 a bus accident on the way 2 anger management , but i didnt die, i thought "y couldnt i of died...." then one day in may, i decided 2 check my emails, of cource, i failed 2 click the lil' "X" button while leaving the room. little did i no what was going 2 happen because of that... one friday, i left earlyfrom school, 2 go 2 a doctors, or should i say "doctors" appiontment. my mom said if i was good 4 7 days, i could earn my privivledeg of my gamecube back (it was taken away becuase i was behaving bad) and this would b day 7... during the LOOOOOOONG appiontment, i decided 2 ask my mom when id b returning home, and she said, "unfortunatly, not 4 a long time..." that day, i was ammited in2 the devoreux hospital, 4 bing depressed and enraged. she checked my emails. i was enraged. i had 2 b in with a roommate name brianna. there was a girl named sabrina whod beat the little girls all the time. it was fear...4 my life... eventually i was taken out of the hospital, it was near the end of may... i said 2 my classmates i was in florida... few no 2 this day were i REALLY was 4 that week..and i thanked ant because w/o him i probably wouldnt b alive... that summer, i choked while eating alone. i gagged it back up. had my problem been left ignored, i probably would of left it in there, so i could died, but it was cured. i swear, every word of that story was true. so what did yall think?!

Careful With That Axe, Pichu!
February 7th, 2007, 02:29 PM
This is more fitting in Other Chat, since it's not a fan-fiction and asks for opinions about a situation rather than write reviews.

/moved

Chibi-chan
February 7th, 2007, 02:37 PM
At the age of eleven...there isn't really much that will make you want to kill others and commit suicide. If you look at the world around you, you can be considered as a pretty privilaged person. Don't underestimate the things that you have in life, and don't underestimate life itself. If you commit suicide, what will happen after that? You don't know. It's best if you just look forward and stay with what you can firmly grasp.Even though it may not be happening now, well, I'm not going to respond to this as 'wow omg!!1!' I don't know what reaction you want from this...

Drifblim
February 7th, 2007, 02:59 PM
Chibi, cut that first line.

Why exactly did she give you medication?

♥~*Abby*~♥
February 7th, 2007, 03:43 PM
becuase of my ADD... i have a lotta problems like that... ADD, ODD, assburgers, bipolor, u name it. and i dont want 2 commit suiside nemore, and as 4 reactions, im not, well, LOOKING 4 nething in particular.

Drifblim
February 7th, 2007, 07:13 PM
Wow....I have some of them too, I can see what you mean. I haven't been as sad a fish when I was eleven, though....I'm quite sadder now.

♥~*Abby*~♥
February 8th, 2007, 03:44 PM
sniff...sniff...thats so sad... its no fun being depressed, so thats y i feel bad 4ya.

Warheart
February 8th, 2007, 04:02 PM
I actually can relate to this...

I had my own issues at age 12, I was diagnosed with ODD, Bipolar disorder, severe depression, but the cause of alot of this seemed to come from an entirely different source; mostly because of my family.

My father was a verbally abusive drunk, and came from a family of people like him. Eventually he was removed from my house, but since then I picked up this sense of "No one likes me, I'm all alone," and other senseless, morbid thoughts, even though at this time I had a fair amount of friends.

Anyways, I picked up a minor drug addiction through all this, and started to fall into the wrong crowd.

As soon as my Mother had noticed a certain change in my moods, and acedemic declines, she addmitted me into a mental hospital (y'know, not like, a severe one, just with people who had similar problems as me at the moment). While I was there I made a few friends, but saw the outcome of what could possibly happen to me if I kept traveling down the path I was headed down, and somehow (meraculously) picked myself up.

Never actually tried to kill myself, but I had those thoughts for a while, and I was into "self-injury" for a while (never actualy figured out why, though)

Anyways, so, you're not alone in these thoughts, and your situation isn't the end of the world, especially when you're only 11 years old.

♥~*Abby*~♥
February 9th, 2007, 12:28 PM
sniff... sniff... how sad. well at least u didnt die.

PokeManiac Volkan
February 11th, 2007, 09:06 AM
nothing that wolud want to make yourself kill urself

Yami Rui
February 11th, 2007, 09:33 AM
but still... thered only no like, 2 people

The bolded part makes absoutly no sense to me.

my mom made me take medications and i didnt like how they made me feel

You say that they made you depressed but how did they land you in Anger Management Class.

there was 2 people in my class that i wanted 2 murder

If you are mad, then it does not lead you to wan't to murder somebody. Why did you wan't to murder them exactly.

she checked my emails

Who, your mother?

there was a girl named sabrina whod beat the little girls all the time.

If she would to that all of the time, then measures would be done to isolate her from the other girls so she couldn't injure them.

i had 2 b in with a roommate name brianna

And what was she like exactly. Considering you were fearing for your life, I'm gonna go with "She was bad"

PokeManiac Volkan
nothing that wolud want to make yourself kill urself

Except for the fact that she was depressed. But I wanna know what were the side-effects for the medication and how despressed she was.

Auron
February 12th, 2007, 11:00 AM
Oh dear, you are so young and you have suffered so much...

Don't worry. Think that somebody needs you and that person is glad of helping you !!

I'm that kind of person who prefers killing the others than suiciding. I won't give them the pleasure of seeing me dead because of them !! (I haven't killed anybody...YET.

BTW...I want to help you, so if you want, please PM me.

wakachamo
February 12th, 2007, 01:34 PM
At the age of eleven...there isn't really much that will make you want to kill others and commit suicide. If you look at the world around you, you can be considered as a pretty privilaged person. Don't underestimate the things that you have in life, and don't underestimate life itself. If you commit suicide, what will happen after that? You don't know. It's best if you just look forward and stay with what you can firmly grasp.Even though it may not be happening now, well, I'm not going to respond to this as 'wow omg!!1!' I don't know what reaction you want from this...

I couldn't've put things better. I'm 13, and I've personally been through a lot (you ever had your own grandmother die before you? I think not), but there's never ever been sometime or day in which I wanted to commit suicide. I just think you should reconsider things, and like Chibi said, just look forward and keep up.

♥~*Abby*~♥
February 15th, 2007, 02:50 PM
4one, it wassabrina who made me fear 4my life... not brianna. i might of typed that rong... brianna was a nice 10 year old girl. and oh yeah Auron ur pretty nice *adds 2 friends list* but the whole murderer part is kinda creepy... :(

Aether
February 15th, 2007, 05:08 PM
wow, i feel for you, i had quite a rough childhood as well *pats*

♥~*Abby*~♥
February 16th, 2007, 11:45 AM
u no what? i dont like u Wakachamo! (thinks about adding 2 ignore list) did UR parents get divorced when u were 7 w/o ur dad even saying goodbye, but just leaving b4 ur very eyes? i think not! but as 4 u Darkralts7, we have a lot in common (in my profile my nature is lonely 2!) hey, u R on my friends list! oh yeh, i added a poll. i suggest everyone who red this gives a rating.

Kylie-chan
February 16th, 2007, 05:36 PM
I'm sorry, but I have no sympathy, because I couldn't even read that wall of text without wanting to die in the name of grammar.

Either you're making this up or overreacting.

Dawson
February 17th, 2007, 02:57 AM
Unfortunately, I do have to agree with Kylie. Whilst I did actually eventually read the entire post, this entire topic screams "drama queen." I mean, posting a thread like this is one thing, whether you were exaggerating or over reacting is irrelevant to me, but actually wanting people to rate the topic, via poll, based on how sad they thought it was just seems like attention seeking.

And, please, don't go arguing with people just because you think you've had a harder life than they have when, in actuality, you haven't had it all that bad. Sure, your parents got divorced when you were young but, unfortunately, that is incredibly common now. There are kids out there that have never even met their dad. Hell, there are kids out there that haven't even seen their parents, spent their entire lives in an orphanage and will forever know nothing about where they came from.

So, do yourself a huge favour and stop wallowing in self pity. Stop focusing on how "bad" your life has been and just be grateful that it hasn't been as bad as millions of other kids.

Chikara
February 17th, 2007, 07:10 AM
I have to agree, sorry, chika. And the whole thing about being 'emo', well umm... If you want to be a man who hasnt yet come out of the closet and tries to act goth, be my guest. Im just warning you to not call yourself an emo because your a girl. If you want to know what an emo really is, then go here: http://audio.isg.si/audiox/?q=node/69

And yes, I didnt even finish it because there was a
wall of text
And some serious grammar problems tied in there. So either you were super upset while you were typing it, or making the whole thing up.

And furthermore, alot of people your age have problems like that. I've had WORSE problems than that, and I didnt make a thred saying how sad my life is. In fact I havnt told any body, and I plan to keep it that way.

Sorry, I just dont see why you made a thred about this in the first place...

Cloud_boy
February 17th, 2007, 08:51 AM
Stop. Grammar Time!

You must have a very good imagination, and I only hope you did make this up, because if you were actually a homocidel maniac, I really doubt you would be in a pokemon forum. I found this hard to believe (And read).

Akio123
February 17th, 2007, 09:14 AM
I agree wth Teresa, Kylie, and Dawson, I mean no offense it is not that bad. Growing up almost dieing like five times, I am not sympathetic to these kinds of things.

♥~*Abby*~♥
February 18th, 2007, 02:43 PM
at least now i no who hates me (gets sad) and i didnt even include the whole story... HA! didnt think the votes would b made public, eh? well, i dont have mew100 and Darkralts7 on muh friends list 4 nothin' i guess. and oh yeh, Kylie-chan, u REALLY didnt need 2 send me a PM saying my life has been easy. u havent even heard the WHOLE story... as i said... AND OH YEH, KYLIE-CHAN AND EVERY1 ELSE, IM NOT MAKING THIS UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIDNT I ALREADY ESTABLISH THIS? AND MY GRAMMER ISNT THAT BAD!!!!!

Rainfall
February 18th, 2007, 03:13 PM
Yes, your story is sad. I am glad that you actually didn't commit suicide, but always remember that it is always worse and you need to look at the bright side of things. Think positively, and never forget that there is someone out there that loves you. If you don't believe that it could be worse take me for example. I have attempted suicide because my life is terrible and still is, but I always look at the positive. I could tell you things about my past that would mentally scar you for life, but I hold my head high. Keep strong, my friend, for life is valuable, and your life is important. Remember that there are people out there that care for you, and you must keep yourself strong despite your problems. Be brave, and you will never fail or see a bad moment in your life. Never.

Chikara
February 18th, 2007, 03:28 PM
I voted for what I did because I do think its ridiculous that you whined to people you dont even know. Whine to people who you do know, please.

Oh and by the way, I knew completely that the votes were public. ~.-

Forest Grovyle
February 18th, 2007, 03:35 PM
raichuchika, I don't think this sort of thing belongs on a public forum. People are bound to get upset or annoyed about it, and as they don't know you it is very likely that people's feelings could get hurt on both sides. I think this thread needs to be closed before it gets out of control. If any mods disagree with me you can open it again, but I think it's for the best.

I am sorry to hear about your problems, but I don't think this is the sort of place to express them.

--FG