"My hair feels like a hat."

Last night I came home after doing something, and wrote my experience because I'm a loser. Here's what I wrote.

I just smoked for the first time ever.

My friend picked me up from work at 10:30. We drove around deciding where to go and I told him that I wanted to go to Wawa for a Caramel Cream, because I'm addicted to those. We went there and a hobo man sitting out front opened the door for me and my friend decided that he wanted to stay in the car and then I ordered my carmel cream and sat on the coffee thing where customers put milk in their coffee and things like that before leaving. Two girls dressed in skimpy bunny outfits came in to order and then mine was ready so I put my receipt on the counter thing and got my caramel cream and then I left.

And then I got in the car and he was smoking a cigarette and I told him that he can smoke it outside and then he laughed and told me to get in the car and then we drove to his house and then passed my best friend's boyfriend's house and then pulled up next to one of his friend's cars and then he rolled down the window and it was his friend's girlfriend who told him they were going to go to an apartment of their friends and then we went to 7 Eleven and he got some wrappers or whatever they're called. Then their friend's girlfriend pulled up and went in and I saw my friend laugh a little when she walked in and then he came to my door and realized it was the wrong side.

Then we drove to his house and talked about how he wasn't sure if his parents were home or not because they weren't home at 8 and if they weren't home then, they were going to stay out the whole night and I made a comment about how parents should be in their beds around this time.

Then we got to his house and pulled in his driveway and he said that it was the safest place to smoke. And then he put on some music. I forget what they were called, but I remember asking if I could put on my music and him saying no because he didn't like the one time I put on Lady Gaga in his car, but I told him that he'd like it, and he said that he probably wouldn't like any songs I have and then I told him that I doubted that.Then he rolled a blunt and smoked that. I told him I would probably try it tonight, but I wasn't ready. I asked him how many he had and he said that he had four and then I said that I would be ready by the fourth one in a joking way and then he said that he wasn't going to smoke them all tonight. He smoked the first one entirely on his own, but then he did the second one and I smoked that twice. I mean I did two individual inhales of it or whatever that's called.

I told him I wasn't going to do it unless he turned away, and he laughed. Then I put on my headphones and listened to Lady Gaga - Marry the Night to get me comfortable enough, because I thought that if I felt more comfortable I would be more okay with doing it. I really wanted to do it, but I couldn't motivate myself to do it enough to actually get over my fear of doing it. During the last part of it, because it was my favorite part, I decided I would do it. So I told him, and then he did something. While he did that, I rewound it a little to the part I like the most, since there was about 40 seconds left of the song left. And then he lit it again and handed it to me and I inhaled and I coughed. I got some in my lungs, though, because I could feel it in my pipe tube thing. He lit it again and it was closer to the edge this time and I took it and inhaled again and this one was a lot more stronger and it felt like there was a cloud going down my inhalation tube thing. My second blunt inhale Wild Nothing - Live In Dreams was playing.

Anyway, once that happened it was too close to the edge to where I felt comfortable and then he smoked the rest. And then I told him that I wanted to try it again, mainly because I didn't feel any different, and he took out a bowl thing and I smoked that four times. During the time I smoked that, Wild Nothing - Drifter was playing on repeat. He told me to pretend like I was blowing a trumpet and shape my lips like that, but the first two times I put my lips around it and then the third time I did it right. And the heat from the end filled my mouth. We kept checking to see if I saw anything blurry, because he told me that's what happens when you're high and I told him that I didn't know because I was looking at the car and then we looked at my hand and it wasn't blurry for me but it was for him.

We stayed in the car just sitting for a while and I felt really warm and my fingers felt really relaxed in particular. My head was all fuzzy, in particular my ears and my jaw. Before we left, I asked him if my breathe smelt like pot and he told me yeah, and mentioned how I smoked it directly from a bowl so it would. I asked him if I brushed my teeth if it would go away and he said it would so I said that I would do that when I got home.

When we left, I said something like and he said that friends don't pressure friends into doing something they might not be ready for and then I said "friends don't let friends not smoke." And then I pretty much talked the ENTIRE way back - and if I know me well enough, you'll know that I hardly ever talk unless I'm on the phone with you or something. On my way home some things happened to me that make me sure that I was high, and I talk about those soon. Anyway, I described everything it felt like in these texts I sent in realtime after coming home after brushing my teeth:

Texts to Sean:
"I just smoked for the first time ever."
"Hahaha and??"
"A lot of things."
"Did you get high?"
"I don't know. I've never gotten high before but my friend told me that i'll know if I got high. I felt really warm and I and my head was all fuzzy And I talked a lot and I kept saying I felt."
"Yeah you probably didn't. I didn't till after a while hahaha. You were probably a little high."
"And I didn't want to move a single muscle on my head. We sat there for a good half hour I smoked a blunt twice and a bowl four times."
"Hahaha damn you prob did get high."
"I suddenly started laughing and I couldn't spot Stop I got home about half an hour ago and I brushed my teeth and now my tongue feels like its not rwallym my tongue. I remember telling him that when I talked it didn't feel like it was me talking. And everything I said started with I feel. I still feel really fuzzy in my head and I remember thinking that my hair feels like a hat. It still feels like a hat and my jaw and ears feel like that too and my throat is really tingly and I feel really warm."
"Hahaha yeah ur high"
"And I'm just sitting here on the bed laying on my stomach swaying my leg and it doesn't even feel like in swinging it. It feels like it's moving on it's own and I don't want to move my head still and I'm smiling and my tongue feels like it isn't my tongue and my head feels tingly and y body feels warm. And I usually feel indifferent about every thought but I just feel happy. I'm even trying to feel sad but it isn't working."
"hahahahaha hahahha"
"I don't know of I'm high or not but I don't feel like I usually so and I feel kind of like another person. Like I'm tying everything I'm thinking the moment I think it to you and it feels like its not me."
"Haha omg don't become a pot head"
"And my mouth feels tingly and when I breathe it feels like its kind of dry"
"It'll go away soon lol one time I thought I was dying lol"
"I think I'm probably a little high at least. I brushed my teeth but I still taste how it tasted when I smoked the bowl. I remember when I got out of the car it felt like I was saying and I was too relaxed so I just stood there and it feels like my thoughts are really funny or something and important but they're really not. And I'm still smiling and feeling warm and fuzzy in the head and can't think of any negative thoughts It felt like my voice when I was talking wasn't really me."
"Hahaha that's how it is. Are your eyes red?"
"I talked the whole way back like seriously you know how much I talk normally? I talked the whole car ride home. And then suddenly everything was hilarious. So I couldn't stop laughing. But I stopped after a while. And then we got to my house and I got out of the car and felt like I was too relaxed to walk and so on. My eyes aren't red. I asked him when we were about to leave and he lit the lighter and told me they weren't. My left eye was really kind of watery though. I remember tear things coming down every now and then. But I really like this feeling and want to do it again. I don't like the smoking part though. It sounds like I got high though? I hope so because I wanted to get high. I still feel like the me talking now isn't the me that was smoking in the car. I can't really explain what it feels like. I even tried to hold in laughing but couldn't. I feel a little bit more normal now but even now it feels like that I was much more different than how I normally am and a lot more fun."
"Haha yeah it's not that bad just too expensive."
"I can't believe I'm one of those people who laugh when they're high. I always thought that was a myth stereotype."
"Hahaha nope"
"The first time I inhaled it I coughed but after I didn't. I got some in my mouth. One just flew on my screen."

Texts to Sam:
<gibber i already said up there>
"And then the feeling sunk in for good on the first bowl inhale. And then I started to feel warm. Especially in my arms and my head. A tingly feeling in those places."
"well i hope you're having a good time. you smoked a lot"
"And then he started driving me home and I started to talk and it felt like I wasn't really talking. And then suddenly I started to say I feel and was really relaxed and didn't want to move my head because it was so comfortable. I was thinking how my hair felt like it was a hat. And then my left eye got water and now my right eye is. And when we got into the glen I just started laughing like a little girl. I feel really good. I don't know if I got high but he said I got body high or something like that. Oh and I felt really good and even bad thoughts weren't in my mind. I talked all the way home and didn't move my head. And when I got out of the car I didn't feel real. I feel really successful though."
"yeah dude its cool tho right?"
"And wanted to tell you because I know you'd appreciate it.Yeah. It's cool. I still feel like my hair is a hat and my body feels warm and my head feels fuzzy. Mainly around my ears and jaw."
"dude i think you're high"
"Do people do those things when they're high? I wouldn't know. This is my first time doing this."
"llld use man you sound p high to me! congrats!"
"I feel so successful"
"you soked a bunch dude"
"Did I really? I feel happy. LIke even thinking of depressing thoughts and I feel happy. And I'm smiling right now and don't want to move a muscle in my face because I just feel so comfortable."
"that rules man :) I'm glad you're having a good time"

Hahaha. Reading that makes me think I sound like a 6 year old with how I text while I'm high. I'm typing this while still feeling some of the effects from being high.