Insomnia and Fear
I know that this is my second blog post today, but I really need to let some things out.
First of all, I'm so very, very tired. And yet, I can't sleep. Worse of all, this is the first night in about a week that DJ has slept all through the night without waking every hour or so. As it's almost 4 am now, any sleep I get (about 2-3 hours) will just make me feel worse. My husband is out working a night shift, so he won't be able to help me, even with a nap, because he needs his rest. I don't know what to do and I'm on the verge of tears.
Secondly, as I mentioned before, my husband is at work, so besides DJ, I'm home by myself. The neighbours keep making noise (being a Saturday night and all) but some of the noises are ultra creepy, I've had my heart racing more than once tonight, a little worried that it wasn't 'just the neighbours'. I hate to say this, because I'm generally a passive person, but I have a weapon (in fact, the entire knife block) within arms reach, just because I feel so unsafe right now, and omg there is a cat in my backyard and it just SCREAMED! Like, literally, I thought it was DJ, I ran into our bedroom, and she was sound asleep in her cot where I left her moments before. Then I heard the cat mewling and growling. That's what all that noise has been. A cat.
I'm officially a dog person now. At least they will always sound like a dog. I'm still almost about to cry, and the damned thing won't be quiet. I just got DJ back to sleep (yea, she woke up, but I was expecting it). I'm so stressed right now. :(