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Palamon theorizes: My Position on Death.
Been awhile since I've theorized about something.
Okay, death. I'm going to try not to ramble about this because I can...do that sometimes when I'm that into what I'm talking about.
Okay, so. I'll be honest here. Death doesn't scare me. It upright fascinates me. I'm fascinated by it: it seems pretty interesting to me. Death has fascinated me since I was 10. I honestly...don't know why. I just don't want to be scared of it. Living is kind of scary, though, that, I'll admit. Being alive is far scarier than being dead. This is just my opinion, so. That doesn't mean I want to be dead right now. I mean, yes, I'm a suicidal teenager, but no, I don't always want to die. That would be a problem.
When someone dies, I pretty much don't have any feeling towards it. I know, horrible to say this: everyone dies. And eventually, everyone meets their fate. I don't know if I'll react when someone in my family dies. But, I know how other people react when someone close to them dies. I know my mom was upset when her best friend died, but, to be honest, I'm not sure if I'll react the same way when people I know die. I'll be honest: hearing about deaths all the time. Well, it doesn't phase me. No, I'm not a sociopath. No, I'm not a sadist. I just think and know death is natural. "Sad" people say, but eh, I just don't see it.
As for how I want to die. I want to literally experience death. Feel it, I don't want to die in my sleep. I want to know what it feel like. I guess this comes from my sheer fascination of death. I don't know how yet. I just don't want to die, not knowing. I believe in heaven and hell, and I believe they exist. I know where I'm going anyway, ha ha ha. (Hell because I don't go to temple. I'm Jewish.) But, I want to be able to feel how I die, simple as that.
Also, you live more than once. I want to believe this too. Your soul never dies, your body dies, your soul does not. When I die, I know my soul will still be living. I really don't think that once you die, that's it. I think that it's a new beginning. And I guess the afterlife is just as fascinating. I'll save that for another time.
Posted September 23rd, 2013 at 8:08 PM by Kanzler