I hardly expect anybody to know who I am, or to care, but I've just experienced a rush of emotions that I hope might be at least interesting to some of you.
It's hard to believe that it's been almost 3 years since I was last active on PC. Reading over my VMs brought back all of the memories that had been pushed aside, not purposefully but just as a casualty of time. I can't overstate how much this place meant to me back then. I had a nice life, and good friends, but there was just something about this place. A sense of comraderie, maybe, or an inexplicable connection towards the people I met.
The feeling of nostalgia that came over me as I paged through my profile, re-read my private messages and wandered through dead threads that I used to frequent was unlike anything I've ever experienced. It all seemed so real to me at the time, my relationships with these people that I'd never meet; just as real as any relationship that I'd even experienced outside of the internet. I had forgotten before today how much I stressed over what my PC friends were doing, daydreamed about what I would say to them later that night, or sent them MSN messages gossiping about the newest events on the forums.
As I type this my head is still spinning, and I feel like I'm 13 years old again, anxious for Hiide or Dark to get back online and talk to me. I don't know how many of you can relate to this feeling, but to me it's almost relavatory in its power. I feel like I'm walking through a ghost town of memories, and every corner I turn unearths something powerful and forgotten. Cheesy, I know, but 5 years ago joining PC I never would have thought that it would become such an important part of my life for the following 2 years. I left in my own time, as most do, and I don't regret it, nor do I have any intention of coming back. But, for now at least, I'm going to stick around and keep wandering until this feeling goes away.
For those of you who read this, thank you.
Posted January 12th, 2013 at 5:16 PM by derozio
Posted January 13th, 2013 at 3:05 AM by Ivysaur
Posted January 13th, 2013 at 5:07 AM by Hikamaru