Maybe I'm not meant to do one thing (have a ~deep~ blog for once)
Posted January 30th, 2013 at 09:05 AM by Forever
I was just thinking about it all. As a child I grew up wanting to do everything - I wanted to sing, and often sang in choir, I wanted to draw Pokemon - and got to a point where I drew copies to get photocopied, I wanted to dance - although embarrassing I still wasn't afraid to show myself, I wanted to speak in front of people - I wanted to be the one that could speak when others couldn't.
As I got older I realised most of that wasn't really a way I could go, and while I continued to sing, I didn't try to dance or draw at all, and I still spoke in front of people when it was important, or when reading out stuff while everyone else couldn't. I wanted to make my voice heard, I wanted to show everything about me.
Once the years went by, I became more interested in photography - starting out from just taking photos of clouds initially, but expanding because I found photography so amazing, and I also got an interest in becoming a journalist in either written or broadcast. I wanted my voice heard - I wanted to know everything, and I wanted to capture every moment and make it shine like nobody else could.
I graduated uni for journalism/broadcasting almost two weeks ago. Up until Christmas Day I wasn't sure what I was going to do because it felt like that while I was graduating, something was missing, maybe that it wasn't directly what I was meant to do. But I did enjoy journalism related things, like when I volunteered for the thing in December 2011. However, while journalism is good and all, there's limited jobs around here, which isn't really a good thing (and the fact that while I graduated meant I was at industry standards I wasn't amazing or anything). But! While at university I noticed I was best at a certain class, which involved broadcasting. While I could do the written journalism-related stuff, I didn't feel amazing after it, it just felt like "okay, that's normal" but whereas that one class just made me feel amazing because I could show my voice, speak up when others didn't and just do as best I could. I think I got one of the better grades for that out of what I got. I was the one volunteering and picked to speak out for everything and I feel like... while I don't like the idea of going into radio, I want my voice to stand out somehow. Maybe that's something for the future, as apparently people on here seem to think I have a good voice despite it sounding seriously Australian and me being unable to pronounce a few things well. However, there was something else in university. Anything written I didn't really care to do and put off until the last minute but I put all my effort into the broadcasting part. Perhaps it was just my tutor at the time, but she was really nice and she was in the media and she felt confident in me. I didn't really practice stories or anything outside of university, but... when it comes to photography, I do take photos a lot and I try to put a lot of effort into them. I'm going back for a one-year photography course but within I feel like I can shine - I didn't do well when it related to filming stuff, but photography stuff I have always had more of an interest in. I feel like in the one year I will naturally be better at this than I did in the previous three years. I feel like I'll actually wanna do stuff outside of the class, and practice a lot (and even now I'm trying to). Maybe I was misguided, I dunno. But I enjoyed the reporting side of journalism too when it was immediate (like at that event), so...
For now I think when I'm done with this I want to work in photography somewhere - it doesn't matter where, I'll like it. I want to volunteer at more events like that one in 2011 because I like the immediate stuff. It's just... fun. In fact, I want to share something. When I was there in 2011, there were many points where I just wanted to stand around and take photos of everything instead of waiting around for something to report on. Also adding to that I want my voice to be used somehow important. I'm not sure how but I definitely want to in a way. I don't want the journalism/broadcasting degree to be a waste - because there are parts I certainly did enjoy. There's still ways to submit articles even if you're not working for a company as extra money on the side, too. So hey it can all be intertwined! But honestly I'm really looking forward to this course. I feel like while I've been up and down about everything over these last 2-ish years, this is the one thing I'm really confident in that I can do. There is only one issue, I need to enroll in the actual units (while I'm enrolled in the course I'm not enrolled in the units yet because the system stuffed up somehow and I'm concerned the units I want to take might be taken by the time the uni fixes that up, but if not I'll find a way around it). Oh and eventually I want to travel the world taking photographs and just embrace everything the world has to offer. This is something I really want.
Anyway,
I want to try everything, I want to become successful at everything I do. I feel like I have it within me to do anything, and even if people say I can't, I'll still try anyway. I feel like while I haven't quite realised what I should be doing, I'm on the way to getting there, and maybe I'm meant to be good at many things. I consider that if you're into something as a child, it might be an indication to what you could be good at when older.
What matters most to me is that I don't wanna be average. I wanna be amazing. I wanna go so far, I want to be better than all the rest. I wanna stand out so much more, and in my life that's how I live it pretty much. Sure it's a competitive way to want to be the best at everything I do, but someday I will become the best at something, and I will be remembered for it. I've just got to keep trying and believing that it's possible. I know I'm meant to go far in some way and I'm just going to keep going until then.
As I got older I realised most of that wasn't really a way I could go, and while I continued to sing, I didn't try to dance or draw at all, and I still spoke in front of people when it was important, or when reading out stuff while everyone else couldn't. I wanted to make my voice heard, I wanted to show everything about me.
Once the years went by, I became more interested in photography - starting out from just taking photos of clouds initially, but expanding because I found photography so amazing, and I also got an interest in becoming a journalist in either written or broadcast. I wanted my voice heard - I wanted to know everything, and I wanted to capture every moment and make it shine like nobody else could.
I graduated uni for journalism/broadcasting almost two weeks ago. Up until Christmas Day I wasn't sure what I was going to do because it felt like that while I was graduating, something was missing, maybe that it wasn't directly what I was meant to do. But I did enjoy journalism related things, like when I volunteered for the thing in December 2011. However, while journalism is good and all, there's limited jobs around here, which isn't really a good thing (and the fact that while I graduated meant I was at industry standards I wasn't amazing or anything). But! While at university I noticed I was best at a certain class, which involved broadcasting. While I could do the written journalism-related stuff, I didn't feel amazing after it, it just felt like "okay, that's normal" but whereas that one class just made me feel amazing because I could show my voice, speak up when others didn't and just do as best I could. I think I got one of the better grades for that out of what I got. I was the one volunteering and picked to speak out for everything and I feel like... while I don't like the idea of going into radio, I want my voice to stand out somehow. Maybe that's something for the future, as apparently people on here seem to think I have a good voice despite it sounding seriously Australian and me being unable to pronounce a few things well. However, there was something else in university. Anything written I didn't really care to do and put off until the last minute but I put all my effort into the broadcasting part. Perhaps it was just my tutor at the time, but she was really nice and she was in the media and she felt confident in me. I didn't really practice stories or anything outside of university, but... when it comes to photography, I do take photos a lot and I try to put a lot of effort into them. I'm going back for a one-year photography course but within I feel like I can shine - I didn't do well when it related to filming stuff, but photography stuff I have always had more of an interest in. I feel like in the one year I will naturally be better at this than I did in the previous three years. I feel like I'll actually wanna do stuff outside of the class, and practice a lot (and even now I'm trying to). Maybe I was misguided, I dunno. But I enjoyed the reporting side of journalism too when it was immediate (like at that event), so...
For now I think when I'm done with this I want to work in photography somewhere - it doesn't matter where, I'll like it. I want to volunteer at more events like that one in 2011 because I like the immediate stuff. It's just... fun. In fact, I want to share something. When I was there in 2011, there were many points where I just wanted to stand around and take photos of everything instead of waiting around for something to report on. Also adding to that I want my voice to be used somehow important. I'm not sure how but I definitely want to in a way. I don't want the journalism/broadcasting degree to be a waste - because there are parts I certainly did enjoy. There's still ways to submit articles even if you're not working for a company as extra money on the side, too. So hey it can all be intertwined! But honestly I'm really looking forward to this course. I feel like while I've been up and down about everything over these last 2-ish years, this is the one thing I'm really confident in that I can do. There is only one issue, I need to enroll in the actual units (while I'm enrolled in the course I'm not enrolled in the units yet because the system stuffed up somehow and I'm concerned the units I want to take might be taken by the time the uni fixes that up, but if not I'll find a way around it). Oh and eventually I want to travel the world taking photographs and just embrace everything the world has to offer. This is something I really want.
Anyway,
I want to try everything, I want to become successful at everything I do. I feel like I have it within me to do anything, and even if people say I can't, I'll still try anyway. I feel like while I haven't quite realised what I should be doing, I'm on the way to getting there, and maybe I'm meant to be good at many things. I consider that if you're into something as a child, it might be an indication to what you could be good at when older.
What matters most to me is that I don't wanna be average. I wanna be amazing. I wanna go so far, I want to be better than all the rest. I wanna stand out so much more, and in my life that's how I live it pretty much. Sure it's a competitive way to want to be the best at everything I do, but someday I will become the best at something, and I will be remembered for it. I've just got to keep trying and believing that it's possible. I know I'm meant to go far in some way and I'm just going to keep going until then.
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What matters most to me is that I don't wanna be average. I wanna be amazing. I wanna go so far, I want to be better than all the rest.
Like no one ever was
To catch them is my real test
To train them is my cause
I will travel across the land
Searching far and wide
Each Pokemon to understand
The power that's inside
Pokemon, its you and me
I know it’s my destiny
Pokemon, oh, you're my best friend
In a world we must defend
Pokemon, a heart so true
Our courage will pull us through
You teach me and I'll teach you
Pokemon, gotta catch 'em all
GOTTA CATCH 'EM ALL, POKEMON!Posted January 30th, 2013 at 09:24 AM by Drakow 
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Stand out of the crowd, and just be awesome Nica, cause I know you can. Good luck with the Photography course. :3Posted January 30th, 2013 at 11:13 AM by Urugamosu
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I think the goal for most people is to wake up and love going to work. You can still do other things as hobbies, but if you spread yourself too thin, you just become good at a lot of things, instead of GREAT or a master at one.
I'm sorry that this might sound blunt, but I don't think you're ready to become a photographer right now. You have a lot of work ahead of you; and you can't just pick up a fancy camera and shoot. You need a lot of artistic training, you need a portfolio, you need a trained eye, and you need to be able to book clients with your shots alone. Sometimes it is bad for an artist to compare, but sometimes it is also necessary to learn. Sometimes putting an effort in just isn't enough. So while yes, you can decide that it's what you really want to do, deciding is only the first step down a very rough path- especially as someone in the arts. I am saying this because photography is not a very stable career so you need to be the best of the best to do well in the industry. You worry that there are not enough jobs in journalism? There are 90% less jobs in Photography.
So strive for being the best of the best. You like photographic animals, right? Strive to photograph them like this:
instead of like this
Good luck!Posted January 30th, 2013 at 01:29 PM by Kura
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gl with photography nica i just skipped to the photography parts tbh :PPosted January 30th, 2013 at 01:34 PM by MidnightShine
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Coming from someone who has looked into photography as a career, it is VERY difficult to find a solid job. A lot of the time, you would be doing freelance with no guarantee of a job or income. :/
If it is what you really want to do, then go for it, but I just wanted to say and for you to take into consideration, there are less jobs in Photography than journalism. :(Posted January 30th, 2013 at 01:48 PM by Captain Fabio
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I also wanted to add something, even though I know you will probably brush it off, but never sacrifice quality for versatility. If you want to be the best at something, you DO need to be able to do everything that it encompasses well, but you also need to have focus on that specific thing to do it well above industry standard. Only then will you get the recognition you desire.
I read this entry, and IMO, you still seem lost to me and only sure of one thing: and that is the fact that you want people to listen to what you have to say in your way of saying it. There are many ways to do that, and I genuinely hope you find out the way you feel you can do that best and be happy with that. Coasting through life will only give you mediocrity, so I admire that you want to be the best, but you need to be realistic about things first and then give it your 100% throughout- and this is where constructive criticism is vital if you want to survive in a competitive industry.
Everyone here wants you to find happiness, so we wish you the best.Posted January 30th, 2013 at 07:14 PM by Kura
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This is pretty inspiring stuff!
Being the best to me was never so appealing because it just seemed too risky putting all of my effort into it and then maybe not getting there and ending up crushed.
This has at least made reconsider.
Is there really any sense in doing anything without trying to be the best at whatever it is your doing?
It's good that you know what you want to do and you have a goal to aim at.
I've made a decision too, but it was rather a matter of joining the flow.
But maybe I can actually lead?
Thanks for the inspiring post.
I really hope you'll reach your goals!
Posted January 31st, 2013 at 05:54 PM by molamaxi
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trying is good
Posted February 1st, 2013 at 09:13 PM by Fire Flyy
