I have to admit, I've never posted any blogs in my life. I think I can start here. There isn't really much to say, because lately what I feel is emptiness, some kind of insufficiency. I don't know anything anymore and I just feel that sometimes there is too much heavy weight to handle.
I am a simple man, I got my job just after ending school, I had to mature up very quickly and I don't know if it is really good to me... Being independent person has it's pros and cons and those cons have a bad influence on me. Sometimes I just feel I am not truly ready for all this. I told myself that job and quick maturity won't change me at all, but sadly it did. I still have some warm in my heart, I support my family and mother as much as I can, but I've become really cold outside. Of course my job forced me to break contacts with those I called "friends", I still have one friend that I consider as my e-brother and I am happy with that. I am a lone person, it's very comfortable to me to live this way... At least I think it is... Sometimes I want to just go to some silent place, lit up a cigarette and forget about those weights. It's one of the main reasons, why I save my money to buy a car...
I don't really know If I should consider it as a blog, it was just an easy way to write my troubles, I am an open person and I am not afraid to show my emotions. However some people think I'm emotionless.