A perfect world.

But I've been turned around, I was upside down
I thought love would always find a way
But I know better now, got it figured out
It's a perfect world, all the same

This is a giant update. Like gigundo, because so much shit has happened!

I survived one month here in Houston. I managed to settle in, make awesome new friends, and got a job that's totally related to the career field I'm in right now, and that'll totally boost my chances of getting an even better job once I'm out of uni next year. However, I'm still keeping the supervisor job I'm currently in. So…2 jobs? CHALLENGE ACCEPTED.

Reason why? I'm gonna be working 3 days a week at the tech support job. Three 6.5 hour shifts totaling about 20 hours. It's part time, but once three months have passed and I'm doing fine in my job, I could get promoted to full time. Meanwhile in my supervisory/key holder job I'm in, I'm still getting decent hours there too. However, I'm still in the middle of a hectic week since one of the managers is out for two weeks and Store Manager does not have anyone to cover his shifts. So, it was me and another key holder person to cover half and half. I was mostly placed in the mornings to supervise the stock team, and other times I was in the front of the store. I already told my manager that my availability will be limited, but because of the flexible scheduling, I decided to keep the job, and only work on days that I don't have work at the tech support job. No worries, both jobs won't affect my nightly uni classes either, but the fact that it'll prooooobably affect my free time (having 1-2 days off). We'll see how this goes.

Because pretty much EVERYTHING in my life is located in the wonderful neighborhood of Westchase, I've decided that I'm going to move there, so I can be closer. I live in a decent neighborhood with access to pretty much everything (even downtown), but Westchase is prettier. By the end of the summer when my income is a bit more stable and such, I'll hope to get an apartment there, or another loft, or move in with someone. Cheap rent in that neighborhood, so yay!

I'd like to let everyone know about my current stance between myself and Buoysel. We're currently okay now, finally able to obtain closure and left everything behind. Right now, we're giving each other space, which is fine, because in our friendship we always rebound no matter what happens. He's still my pair of 4 years and he's still my best friend. Unfortunately, he left PC. Even though I tried to convince him to return, I understand his reasoning, and I respect him for that. He is having a hectic life as well, due to his current job, so there's that. Stay strong, buddy. ❤

So, in the end, I'm doing okay! I feel as stronger as ever, and thanks to my trip to Kansas City, I was able to actually "grow up" not only as an adult, but as a whole human being. I got to see life in a whole new perspective. I no longer feel shy, or anxious about the decisions I'm making. Anything that's a loss, or that result in a bad decision, becomes a lesson to me, and trust me…I learned a lot this month. The biggest one (and the most flawed for me), getting emotionally close to a person…when the person doesn't feel the same way. I mean, you'll never know if the person you're emotionally close with is feeling the same way, and you become unaware of when the person will leave your life in an instant. You just…simply don't want to let go of them at all. That is how I felt towards Buoysie. I've had this happen in the past with my first BF, as well as other friends back in high school, and I could never EVER overcome the pain and sadness after losing them. This became a huge gain for me, because it took me a week and a half to overcome these emotional thunderstorms…and right now I feel super amazing that I'm finally able to control my emotions now.

The one thing I will miss about Kansas City? The BBQ. IT'S NOT THE SAME ANYMORE. :(

I look at the month of May as a month of opportunity and gain, because of course I'm starting that new job soon, but I'm also expanding my social circle a whole lot more now. This was something I haven't been able to do when I was living in Cali. I used to isolate myself from people, especially my own friends because I always wanted to be on my own. And, now that I'm on my own, I crave the social-ness. Which is good, right? I've been hanging out with one of my friends from the Brony group a lot more now, as well as a couple others. So, I see this as another gain. Also, I forget that I have an anxiety disorder, which is even BETTER!

It blows my mind that my first quarter at uni will end in a month. I've done so much shit that my brain is going to get fried. But it's well worth it, really. Because on all four classes I'm currently in, I'm running at least a B. I might get on the dean's list if my GPA reflects it. After this first quarter, I have six weeks off for Summer. On one of those weeks, I'm planning to visit my family in California. Because you know, it's kinda obligatory for me. I haven't seen them since I dropped them off at the airport back in March. They do like to punch my buns, but they're still my family. I miss them so much. Ugh and I need to fix all of their technology shit including the desktop because omfg it has a virus ughughughughugh

I don't go back until July 20th, I think I have uhh… 4 more quarters left? Maybe less if I save up and take the 5 week Winter course, and the 5 week Summer Course so I can be finished QUICKLY. xD

Going to end the month on a really good note. Despite not feeling well the past couple of days. Lately I've been eating a lot more than I should, as well as feeling dizzy and nauseous, and I have random headaches and fatigue. Which is…really really weird. Hope this is just a phase and I'll get out of it quickly, because I was feeling okay a week ago. :x

I'm totally looking forward to May. More changes in life, more shit to do, first quarter ending, COMICPALOOZA :D, and loads more. BRING IT.