droomph
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well that's taking everything literally
I said I just don't want to feel any pain anymore, which doesn't necessarily…oh well.
and I…just…
i'm not just leaving this alone. I'm just hiding this from everyone. nobody has to see me like this, and this is the least conspicuous place on the internet. nobody needs to read this. Maybe if there were more blogs things might be drowned out (which I want to happen), but right now it's treated as a "public" situation where in fact it's not. Again, ignoring is a talent and I can understand if you can't do that, but I'm always trying my best to keep it away from the actually public places, like the main forums.
And if you're wondering what I'm doing to help myself, I am trying. I am most definitely trying. I've been in a psychiatric hospital against my will, and I'm not allowed to own firearms until I'm 19. It's not that bad, but it's trained me. No amount of "calling the cops" will make me relent from anything I feel that really helps, because I know that this is better than telling everyone about my feelings all at once and having them misinterpret them again like that aforementioned time where I ended up in the looney bin.
It's just that right now, no progress I have made is anything that would make you guys care, it's mostly just day-to-day things like going to the gym, taking steps to reduce stress, etc. But no major breakthroughs other than the ones you see in my personality, which even then is probably not enough.
But rest assured, I'm doing stuff for helping me stay up. This is one of them - telling everyone what I feel to no specific person so that I don't have to keep it in my face and then directing it towards one person who didn't want to be near me in the first place.
And I try not to put it all in a row. I've tried to make myself look less depressed by blogging about different things and trying to be light-hearted. I try very hard to not have two in a row just be all about death and gloominess.
So no amount of "calling the cops" will deter me from doing this. As I said, I don't want to go through pain anymore. That's the only thing I will say as my statement from now on if you so wish, the cops can take me all they want, they can't charge me for having a wish, even if the wish is different from what normal wishes are.
I will definitely try to make it less conspicuous (as I always have), but these sorts of blogs will still float around from time to time.
I said I just don't want to feel any pain anymore, which doesn't necessarily…oh well.
and I…just…
i'm not just leaving this alone. I'm just hiding this from everyone. nobody has to see me like this, and this is the least conspicuous place on the internet. nobody needs to read this. Maybe if there were more blogs things might be drowned out (which I want to happen), but right now it's treated as a "public" situation where in fact it's not. Again, ignoring is a talent and I can understand if you can't do that, but I'm always trying my best to keep it away from the actually public places, like the main forums.
And if you're wondering what I'm doing to help myself, I am trying. I am most definitely trying. I've been in a psychiatric hospital against my will, and I'm not allowed to own firearms until I'm 19. It's not that bad, but it's trained me. No amount of "calling the cops" will make me relent from anything I feel that really helps, because I know that this is better than telling everyone about my feelings all at once and having them misinterpret them again like that aforementioned time where I ended up in the looney bin.
It's just that right now, no progress I have made is anything that would make you guys care, it's mostly just day-to-day things like going to the gym, taking steps to reduce stress, etc. But no major breakthroughs other than the ones you see in my personality, which even then is probably not enough.
But rest assured, I'm doing stuff for helping me stay up. This is one of them - telling everyone what I feel to no specific person so that I don't have to keep it in my face and then directing it towards one person who didn't want to be near me in the first place.
And I try not to put it all in a row. I've tried to make myself look less depressed by blogging about different things and trying to be light-hearted. I try very hard to not have two in a row just be all about death and gloominess.
So no amount of "calling the cops" will deter me from doing this. As I said, I don't want to go through pain anymore. That's the only thing I will say as my statement from now on if you so wish, the cops can take me all they want, they can't charge me for having a wish, even if the wish is different from what normal wishes are.
I will definitely try to make it less conspicuous (as I always have), but these sorts of blogs will still float around from time to time.