Hey Scarfy, I recently returned from a family holiday in Sri Lanka. We did shopping and we went to a tailor place to get some suits. I decided to do the unconventional and create a suit which is all black except for the collar part (I don't know if it has a proper name or not) which is red! I took a bit of a gamble but I think it came out quite nice haha.
I'm going to a wedding beginning of September and plan to wear it for the first time there. Do you think that's a good idea? This is also my first wedding I'll be going to so I'm quite excited but a bit nervous also. How are things with you?
Well, I don't really feel like it did anything, but I can't remember exactly now. I got a mind like a wet sieve.
And I mostly eat nuts, peanut butter, tofu, and eggs. I don't mind eggs. Sometimes I'll try for the squash/beans/rice combo that's meant to give you complete proteins, but I don't do it so often since I'm a lazy, lousy cook.
Okay, well, I have some time so I think I'll give this a try right now and see what happens. A few minutes will be okay, yeah? I don't know what "focus on the moment" really means but I'll just focus on my body and breathing and that stuff, I guess.
Meditation is the simple act of focussing on the present moment. You can just sit down in a room and slowly scan your eyes, taking in every single bit of detail that you see. There is such a thing as walking meditation as well where you just walk around in a garden or something and again observe everything that you see. At any rate, baby steps Scarfy, baby steps.
I don't even understand what meditating is. Sitting still and doing nothing or what.
I've been doing the cooking thing lately. I've cut down a lot of the bad stuff. Actually, now that I think about it I'm not even craving some of the crap I used to eat a lot of. (Some of it I still do, which is difficult.)
But like, I'm just having some bad moments lately. I'm getting help though. This is just the a rough patch on my (hopeful, eventual) road to a Good Place. So, like, don't be too concerned.
I am fine but some of your recent posts have caused me concern for your welfare. You mention that you have a lack of motivation or drive or focus to get stuff done. I'd like to suggest trying meditation out if you don't already. It can be for just 5 minutes a day but I really think it will help you. Other than that, you should try eating healthy food as much as possible and cook from scratch as much as you can also.