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Conversation Between Altairis and Forever
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  1. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 11:18 PM
    if i push away all aspects i'll be good. :3
  2. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 11:18 PM
    and now they are dead.

    it's like,--yeah, it's like changing my usertitle. i need to just let go.
  3. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 11:17 PM
    the fish tank was... where the fish lived. coincidentally.
  4. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 11:17 PM
    nooooooooo they're replacing the fish tank. :(
  5. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 11:16 PM
    hmmm a longer usertitle idk. sky full of lighters, nahhh. i need to start all over again. let go, stop holding onto what doesn't matter as much anymore. no use being the only oneeeeee.
  6. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 11:14 PM
  7. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 11:13 PM
    you're a firework
    come on show 'em what you're worth
    make 'em go oh oh oh as you shoot across the skyyy
  8. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 11:12 PM
    better i dont blog it

    what the blog wouldve been is

    I get too attached to people. I can't just... not. If I talk to someone long enough I won't want to live without them. As a result, this tends to affect me. Prolonged time without those tends to get to me and make me think I'll never see them again and that it's all over and never mattered. Yes, this is me. It's not crazy it's... more paranoia. As a result I'm way too attached to certain people and it's starting to get to me. I don't know what I can do. Because if my thoughts are true, like everything else seems to be, I'll be dealing with this for a while. It affects me to the extent that if I see them around but they're not talking to me I get sad. Yes, I'm dumb. Yes, I shouldn't do this. No, I don't talk to people first most of the time. I barely make the step. Two of said people tried to get me to overcome this but lolno I couldn't really and it's still really hard. But it's not that. It's that I feel like I annoy those I haven't spoken to for a while. Even those who I'm most confident in how they feel, I just keep thinking I annoy them. Everything I do... yeah, I tend to go overboard with how I am. That also includes caring. I hate that this does affect me but I just don't think I can. I care about people way too easily and I hate letting go of things. I try so hard to distract me with things to get me through but no, that just ends up failing. Or it makes me think of another sad thing. When I'm on top of the world I'm on top of the world but when I don't feel like everything is perfect everything seems to affect me more, and as a result I must constantly have a goal or something to aim for short term that will keep me distracted from this. Also, with me, one sad thing leads to another. p sure facing old friend in ladder battle will end up with me being sad over pets animals past a whole lot of things. idk, I'm starting to think that I'm just too emotionally needy lmao. Unless... I know and I'm reassured that's never the case. :( But I'm not, never assured. It's only temporary belief. Everything those have said up until now just doesn't matter but I can't do anything for this. I wish I could do the whole "lolno I don't care at all" type thing but I can't. I can't even fake it!
  9. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 10:58 PM
    i need to rant more somewhere else.. idk.
  10. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 10:58 PM
    and the fun fact is

    rn i have four things to be sad about

    instead of the usual two lol

    and by things i always mean people. life otherwise is good...

    i need to get to overly sad point but i wont make it there. i wont... ill just keep trying to hide it until it CONSUMES ME.
  11. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 10:57 PM
    i ned something to do today before i,,, idk. and im, only listening to forever because i cant lisen to anything else..
  12. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 10:56 PM

    so useless. ugh. ow. ow.

    i need to just... grab ahold of something. somehow. idk how.
  13. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 10:54 PM
    sorry if my vms make no sense whatsoever i just want to rant anx twitter doesn't need to know my crazy. :(
  14. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 10:53 PM
    okay okay okayt okat self.

    i got through 2008. i did that. yes. how did i get over 2008. 2010 came along. i can't get over 2011/2012 til 2013/2014. THIS IS TOO HARD. ughhhh. dumb nica.
  15. Forever
    September 27th, 2012 10:52 PM
    kay imma keep complaining because this is honestly the only way i can get through today or til someone who i can just phaze out with is on. hmmmmm. what can i do...

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