Originally Posted by Vrai

I vaguely remember Toph from my excursions of watching the show at random intervals with my younger siblings. AND I'm pretty excited for Korra, too, since I've heard nothing but great things about that show. I don't think I've played Link's Awakening yet, though...

Originally Posted by Vrai

Those were the best days, I'd have to say even if I didn't know what to say.

Originally Posted by Vrai

Do you ever wonder what would happen if our minds worked differently, rather than a second-by-second basis? Like, what if we say everything the way a tree would and our lifespans were thousands of years long? Do you ever wonder if every animal/living being sees and understands the same things we do, yet don't care enough to do the things we have done or aren't physically advanced enough to do the same? Do we all interpret time differently, and thus think "faster" or "slower"? Does time truly exist or is it simply an 'exchange rate' for the speed of thought and intellect? MAN you got me all philosophically thinking again about the nature of thought and time and life and I don't even know how you did it. :(

Originally Posted by Vrai

Nope, I won't be, unless I'm playing like intramural football or something like that. I'm still going to be living at home for the first year, though, since it's nearby and much much much cheaper for me to stay at home to begin with.

Originally Posted by colcolstyles

Remember the days when I would write massive walls of text and you would always say that you didn't know what to say? I remember those days.

Originally Posted by colcolstyles

I guess these things just tend to happen. As much I resist change, I can't stay stagnant forever. After coming back home from school this year, I noticed how so many little things had changed. The kind of changes that you don't notice from day to day. It's only when you step back and look at things in the grand scale that you really see how different you used to be. I don't know what point I'm trying to make, other than that change is inevitable and that we can't stay here forever.

Originally Posted by colcolstyles

If you say so. But I'm paying. I owe you that much. :)
I guess it might be a litter easier now that you're all grown up and in college. Although it will be tricky if you'll be playing a sport... will you?

Originally Posted by colcolstyles

Yeah... oh, and speaking of milestones I have something for your birthday but it's not quite ready yet. Just give me a little more time.

Originally Posted by colcolstyles

Oh, what operating system is your computer running?

Originally Posted by Vrai

There's another movie that I haven't seen yet. I DID watch the whole season 1 of Avatar though!! :D AND YES maybe that's where I got "by the by" from. Which game was that? :o

Originally Posted by Vrai

I've been sitting here thinking about this for a little while, and I really wish I knew what to say in return. I really don't.

Originally Posted by Vrai

I mean, ever since you've been gone I've felt myself pulling away from here really too, maybe just because I don't really like the atmosphere or the fact that a lot of the people I enjoyed being around have left (there are still a lot here! but...). I've basically been as gone as you have, although I do come in from time to time to check up on things. Don't hold silly things like not being here against yourself, especially when I've been doing it too... you really haven't let me down at all, ever. I understand it when you need some time away from this sort of stuff and get things sorted out in your life, which is far more important than being online. :(

Originally Posted by Vrai

Buut I just wanted to say that I'm going to try to follow through, too. I've been remarkably absent to most of my friends as of late (you included), for little reason. I'm going to try to work on that myself, too, and hopefully things will change for the better! And if we do end up meeting somewhere, I'm pretty sure it'd be better over in Cali, since there's literally nothing to do here (unless you like eating at restaurants since apparently Omaha is the place to go if you're an upstart restaurant business!). XD

Originally Posted by Vrai

Thank you, though. This also sounds cliché but you have no idea how much this brightened my day already. :D

Originally Posted by Vrai

ALSO: Thank you, and congrats to yourself too! Man, four years flies by really fast...

Originally Posted by colcolstyles

What type of music?

Originally Posted by colcolstyles

Right back atcha. ;)
Now we can be blues brothers! (great movie, by the by (which, by the by, I realized is an actual, legitimate saying :O))

Originally Posted by colcolstyles

The sad thing is that you have told me how much I mean to you before. But what's even more sad is that I don't think I've ever reciprocated. I meant to respond to this a while back and it's been sitting in my Reminders list for a long time but I only got around to it today after seeing some motivational post on 4chan about how "the time is now" and all that kind of stuff. I feel like I take your friendship for granted. I just assume you'll be there when I need you but I'm not there when you need me. I mean, I've been gone for four and a half months. That's a really long time. True, I had a lot of **** going on that I needed to take care of. But it kills me that you probably had even more problems, it being your senior year and all, and I wasn't even here. I'm really ashamed of that. And that's why when you say "it's really important for me to be able to believe in someone" I feel a real, tangible pain in my chest. I feel like I've let you down. Part of me tells me that I haven't because if I had, you would have left me long ago. But the other part of me just can't get past my selfish behavior.

I came back here to respond to your messages and I envisioned it would be a happy thing. But I guess, in coming back, I realized that I don't have much to be happy about here. So with the motivation that that stupid post gave me, I'm going to make a promise. I promise that I'm going to be a good friend from here on out. I keep telling myself, "tomorrow's the day that I'll change everything and become the person that I want to be". But I've realized that tomorrow's not a good day for that. Today is. It has to be today. That's why I'm here. And I'm going to do whatever it takes to make it up to you. I'll check PC every day. I'll start using my MSN. I'll make an account on Smogon so we can talk there. Hell, I'll even fly out to meet you in person and shake your hand if that's what it takes. I know it sounds cliché but I really am determined to make this right, even if you think it already is. The past is the past and from now on I'm going to be the person I should have been. Because you deserve that guy.

ALSO: Congrats on four years. Here's to four more good ones. :)

Originally Posted by Vrai

I have suddenly found myself with an immense desire to write music.

Originally Posted by Vrai

...I owed you something. :x

Originally Posted by Vrai

I, for one, think your name looks absolutely ravishing in that shade of blue.

Originally Posted by Vrai

One day I'm going to shake your hand.

Originally Posted by Vrai

It's also been over two months since you logged in last. Maybe not since we talked last, but I'm hoping that changes soon. :)

Originally Posted by Vrai

I hate how you're on the second page of my friends list. Makes it harder to check and see if you came back!

Originally Posted by Vrai

:(

Originally Posted by Vrai

I don't know if I've ever flat-out told you how much you're important to me. We met over the stupidest of all things -- I had some funny animation thing in my signature. And then we talked, talked about hacking, talked about noobs, talked about our intelligence, talked about friendship, talked about life. We talked. We were both the biggest grammar Nazis in the world (although I've definitely eased up on that). "Me either"... XD

I found that log of my favorite quotes from our conversation, btw. Remind me to send that to you sometime... has your PM box expanded? I might try to PM it to you in a few minutes. Or maybe I'll just VM it. Or maybe I'll blog it. I dunno. You were the original inspiration for that first blog that I posted - the one with me thanking everyone for their impact on me. Wahey! You've been a bigger inspiration to me than you have ever thought, probably. You kept me here, you kept me sane, you kept me enjoying life. You told me a secret, once, and I swore I'd keep it. Maybe it's just me, but I still sort of view that secret as the means that glued us together. You've been with me for all this time, and I really miss the days that we used to spend entire days hanging out and just chatting over whatever. We talk sometimes, but damn I miss the old days.

This page has had 41,041 visits... Reminds me of rep and when we sort of had an unannounced competition to get more posts and page visits than the other, and I sort of pulled away as soon as I got my mods. And I'm really not sure why I ever got mods instead of you, especially since you were MUCH more qualified and everything. You were an excellent mod, imo. But really, more than that... you've been an excellent friend, and still one I'd trust with anything and everything. I really just want to quote from one of those "thanks for everything" blogs that I had posted:

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I've been thinking about it, and I realized that it's really important for me to be able to believe in someone or something, and trust that they are going to be there whether I'm down or up or drunk or dead, that I will get an honest and from-the-heart response from them, that they'll catch me if I fall. And this one goes to perhaps my best friend that I've ever had whether in real life or internet, colcolstyles. There's no one more important for me to put in this list, honestly. I hope that I've been able to be there like you have for me, pal. You and your crazy statistics and lists and comic-searching skills. Stay awesome forever, bro.
And also this:

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It's really no secret that colcolstyles is probably the best friend I have on PC, if not one of the best ones I've ever had in real life, too. I dunno what it is, but it's like we're two sides of the same coin - we're the same, but we're the opposite at the same time. You're a science and math man, and I'm an English doof. You're calculating, logical, consistent, and perceptive, where I've got my head in the clouds, constantly being distracted by anything and everything, letting the wind take me where it blows. You've got those things you never change or hardly do (your avatars, signatures, "Yours truly", etc) while I'm stupidly sporadic and constantly change everything I can all the time. But I guess opposites attract, right?
I really hope we get to catch up sometime. See you later!