Duty calls, I know how it is.

Except I have those moments every day. XD;

Awwwwww. Don't worry about it - we all have those moments.

You are like the billionth (read: third) person to tell me that.

And tbh the first person that did I was like "wait what's wrong with my post" D: I AM SO DUMB.

A poor choice of wording, me thinks :p

I haven't read Lord of the Rings in many years. Maybe I should re-read them again someday. I own Harry Potter and sometimes re-read the series. It's weird to remember that the series has been finished for four years now.

Well then, that should be a good enough motivation to get your plans finished sooner. :p

I should read through that series again, because it truly was a great read. I used to read a lot of books when I was younger. I read through the Lord of the Rings trilogy twice - each book separately and the 3 in 1 version. Been through the Harry Potter series and I'm sure there are others but I cannot remember right now.

It all depends on perspective. If I do live till 50, then I've already expended over 40% of my life span. That gives me under 60% to achieve my ambitions and should my goals bear fruit, what time will I have left to actually embrace my success?

I am doing what I can to try and prolong the life of this body of mine. I eat healthily and I do exercise (though I could probably exercise more).

Ah, I see. At least you're delaying graduation for a building full of awesome history and not some random place. I guess. :p

Oooh, I loved His Dark Materials as a kid! I still have the trilogy in my house somewhere.

You have a very interesting story. Hopefully everything will work out for you in the end.

Also, it might seem a bit weird to say, but I think 50 is still a pretty long time to live. It's not the longest, but that's still plenty of time to live, I think. Just have to spend those years wisely!

I think it's more of a tradition than anything to be honest. Coventry city was bombed during a war (can't remember which one) but the cathedral miraculously survived the bombings - only taking minor damage.

Don't worry about it. 2007 is a long time ago.

It's working out really well for me. You know, when I was younger I used to get bullied a lot. Long story short, I moved country and did my secondary education in the UK. So I was already different from the get go. I had no friends and ended up spending my lunch time in one of the history rooms, reading through a series of books known collectively as "His Dark Materials".

I eventually found some friends but the bullying didn't stop. I am too passive for my liking so I never really fought back except in one or two extreme circumstances.

In the end, I accepted everything. I understood that I was weak and needed power to overcome my enemies and the biggest one of all, was myself. The solution was surprisingly simple. It pinned on embracing the despair that was dominant in the deepest, darkest, depths of my heart.

"A man is most deadly, when he has nothing left to lose"

This transformation was slow. The seeds of Darkness took numerous years to fully bloom. I eventually noticed the changes - both physical and mental. My outlook roughened up - The soft and innocent appearance I once had manifested into something far more intimidating and threatening. My demeanour warped into something truly nightmarish. I could feel the power pulsing through my veins and it felt (and still feels) bloody good. The bullying slowly stopped. They knew something about me had changed and the frequency of attacks continuously decreased until they bothered me no more.

Such power comes with a price however. I was on the verge of completely losing my sanity. If it continued, I would have lost my mind and hell; I don’t even know what would have happened. Fortunately, there is one major aspect which prevents me from going completely bonkers. The power of logic stabilizes my mind and while I do think I’m pretty insane, I haven’t completely lost all reason. As long as I continue to do Mathematics, I should be able to keep my mind fairly balanced.

More recently, I’ve noticed another cost to using this power. It’s beginning to affect my heart and I haven’t yet devised a solution to this issue yet. As long as I don’t overuse my power, I think it will be OK. Regardless, I need to sort this out quickly before the problem develops too much. I get the feeling I won’t live very long to be honest. I’ll probably cap at about 50.

I think that’s enough for one post. Despite my change, my true nature is a kind hearted person and while most of that has submerged under the depths of Darkness, some of it still remains.

Well, I guess it makes sense, kind of. They can't find another place to graduate? Or do people just not care that they have to wait forever?

Sadly I wish I could remember. Stuff from 2007 is very fuzzy now. @____@

Darkness, huh? How's that working for you?