colcolstyles

Originally Posted by colcolstyles

Remember the days when I would write massive walls of text and you would always say that you didn't know what to say? I remember those days.

Originally Posted by colcolstyles

I guess these things just tend to happen. As much I resist change, I can't stay stagnant forever. After coming back home from school this year, I noticed how so many little things had changed. The kind of changes that you don't notice from day to day. It's only when you step back and look at things in the grand scale that you really see how different you used to be. I don't know what point I'm trying to make, other than that change is inevitable and that we can't stay here forever.

Originally Posted by colcolstyles

If you say so. But I'm paying. I owe you that much. :)
I guess it might be a litter easier now that you're all grown up and in college. Although it will be tricky if you'll be playing a sport... will you?

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Yeah... oh, and speaking of milestones I have something for your birthday but it's not quite ready yet. Just give me a little more time.

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Oh, what operating system is your computer running?

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What type of music?

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Right back atcha. ;)
Now we can be blues brothers! (great movie, by the by (which, by the by, I realized is an actual, legitimate saying :O))

Originally Posted by colcolstyles

The sad thing is that you have told me how much I mean to you before. But what's even more sad is that I don't think I've ever reciprocated. I meant to respond to this a while back and it's been sitting in my Reminders list for a long time but I only got around to it today after seeing some motivational post on 4chan about how "the time is now" and all that kind of stuff. I feel like I take your friendship for granted. I just assume you'll be there when I need you but I'm not there when you need me. I mean, I've been gone for four and a half months. That's a really long time. True, I had a lot of **** going on that I needed to take care of. But it kills me that you probably had even more problems, it being your senior year and all, and I wasn't even here. I'm really ashamed of that. And that's why when you say "it's really important for me to be able to believe in someone" I feel a real, tangible pain in my chest. I feel like I've let you down. Part of me tells me that I haven't because if I had, you would have left me long ago. But the other part of me just can't get past my selfish behavior.

I came back here to respond to your messages and I envisioned it would be a happy thing. But I guess, in coming back, I realized that I don't have much to be happy about here. So with the motivation that that stupid post gave me, I'm going to make a promise. I promise that I'm going to be a good friend from here on out. I keep telling myself, "tomorrow's the day that I'll change everything and become the person that I want to be". But I've realized that tomorrow's not a good day for that. Today is. It has to be today. That's why I'm here. And I'm going to do whatever it takes to make it up to you. I'll check PC every day. I'll start using my MSN. I'll make an account on Smogon so we can talk there. Hell, I'll even fly out to meet you in person and shake your hand if that's what it takes. I know it sounds cliché but I really am determined to make this right, even if you think it already is. The past is the past and from now on I'm going to be the person I should have been. Because you deserve that guy.

ALSO: Congrats on four years. Here's to four more good ones. :)