Bottom line: if you didn't want feedback, you shouldn't have posted the thread. It's not our fault if you don't like what we're saying, but if you give us hardly anything, we'll pick it apart mercilessly. Give us lots to go on, and we're more likely to find things we like.
As for your place on a team, you can develop other skills like sprites, which you seem to be doing already. Not being able to afford programs isn't an excuse, though. The vast majority of us have found ways around that.