You're my best friend. I love you for being there for me. But sometimes, I feel like you try to control me, and the group. I see threads of the things you do to to manipulate people, and I wonder if you're really that person I trust most other things to. I wonder if I'm just paranoid and imagining things, but then you do something to make me think otherwise.
I'm finding it harder and harder to trust you. When you weren't here this week, I actually felt the most relaxed I have in a while. I'm starting to think it'll be easy to pull away, when the time comes.