So I finally got the full truth out from her. I don't care about what she does with her boyfriend. Let me get that out of the way. If I seemed like I did, then that would be because this was the same girl who I let get away. Sorry. But that's not my point, really.
As for the situation with this "thing" that my friend might tell her sister, apparently it's just the very fact that she's in a relationship. Brown problems. Apparently, she's legit afraid that if her mother finds out (and according to her, she was there with her sister when my friend talked to her [and said some really... harsh stuff]). All of that is paranoia on her part, and it's something I've convinced her to not worry about. That being said, I told her to talk with the guy just in case, and she's made steps to do just that. None of that really has anything to do with my problem, though.
My issue here is the fact that I know about her showering with her boyfriend (assuming they did. Rumors for ya). It's not a "holy ****, she did that" sort of issue. Cause her life isn't my problem. The only reason I said I was disappointed is because before the relationship, she made a huge deal about "no dating" and that she wasn't that kind of girl, yet she caved despite what she said. And I guess my disappointment also comes from the fact that the same girl who I figured to be so... innocent? ended up just being... well, who she is. If I'm honest with myself, I might as well add that I never made my move because I thought she was sure of her ways. Again, tangent, and not what I'm trying to focus on.
The main issue that I had (had) wasn't the rumor, but the origination of it. It seems to who have stemmed from this friend of hers who I'd always imagined to be her brother. That's it. In the end, I just decided to shut my trap cause, hey, not my problem.
Yeah, pointless post was pointless. Too much ****ing drama.
this is also the same girl i cried over on the last day of school. so give me a break if i sound jealous or whatever
People shower with each other all the time. Drakow constantly asks me to shower with him but I am yet to take the opportunity.
Okay serious point now, if she showered with a guy that was considered her boyfriend then you hypothetically expect the worst in your mind that they made of done something more than "just showering." You're probably hurt that she didn't have a shower with you and that's okay, I wish hot girls would shower with me all the time..even though I'm more of a bath kinda of guy. I dunno usually in a shower my legs never get warmed up but in a bath they sure do and that just feels great for me especially after a good work out when my legs are aching.
Girls may normally lie if they don't like you and say stuff like "oh I'm a ****, you're better off without me" or "I'm not ready" or my personal favourite that I have experienced "I don't like guys, I'm a lesbian" and then 2 months later she is dating a guy again !
If you can't trust her because of this and how she acts, then that's fair enough but you should move on and find a girl who likes you for who you are and you like her for who she is etc.
If she's a good friend then keep her but if her friendship is just causing you drama and unnecessary pain then loosing her friendship and not seeing her as often would help you get over her completely.
You'll feel free and a new man !
Now on the subject of colleges I have no idea where you should study or what you should study, just be prepared to be in debt and make sure you're ready to work your ass off.