I believe I'm going crazy. I have words stuck in my head that don't exist, and it's making it very difficult and annoying to write. One such word is "extrelcium." I thought at first that it might be Latin, but a quick check of my favorite online translation service provided evidence to the contrary. It is in fact not a word in any language, and if it can be imagined this is very concerning.
So here I am, at my computer, typing my latest chapter, and my mind is saying "extrelcium, extrelcium, extrelcium." Needless to say, I feel like smacking my forehead against something very hard and equally unforgiving. I am assuming that this issue is stemming at least partly from my half-attempts at creating a new language for my fic, which adds some reason to it, but it's annoying nonetheless.
The worst part is that I sometimes think of saying it to people, such as using it like a retort in a verbal dispute, because it sounds somewhat epic and may therefore be taken at face value as a viable argument. Here's what I imagine:
Other person: "I would have a battle of wits with you, but I never fight someone unarmed."
Me: "Oh yeah? Well...extrelcium."
Other person (contrite): "I'm not worthy!" *bows*
I am sure, however, that the scenario would actually end rather differently, with me ending up looking like a fool in front of everyone. So you see my problem, or are currently nodding politely with a faux smile plastered on your face if you do not.
Luckily, I believe I have come up with a solution, and one only: to assign a meaning to this meaningless word. Therefore, and henceforth, "extrelcium" shall be depicted as a metal in my fics, comparable to the fantastical element "mythril" of LotR lore or "adamantium" from the beloved Marvel universe.
That is all. Forgive me my derange'd state, my obvious need of sleep, and my waste of space. Feel free to continue about your lives acting as though you have never read this, or to take a moment of silence and wish that my mental state takes a turn for the better.