Dear Anonymous,
Life's weird. We met really late in our senior year, and that's probably the only thing I regret about you. You're simply an amazing person, a great friend and a loving sister. It's crazy, how close you and I and the rest of the gang got in the last few months of school and summer vacation as well. The memories we've been able to make are a few that I will never ever forget. Bowling and giving you Patrick? The smile that went on your face was enough to brighten up the darkest of places. I wish I could replay days like those over and over until the end of time, but I guess life doesn't work that way, huh? I guess I should admit to you that ever since we started hanging out, I sorta grew attached to you. I mean, let's be honest, it's impossible for someone not to like you, you're quite a person. You've got the characteristics of someone who'll go far in life, break barriers and rise above the rest of the crowd. But you're also humble, kind, sweet. Everything I think makes you amazing. I don't even know what life is going to be like when you leave in just over a month. I don't mind change, but you leaving is something so drastic. Things are going to change so much with you gone.
Look at me being selfish though. This is probably so much harder for you. It's bad enough that you're leaving us, but to leave your twin sister as well? THAT, I can't begin to imagine. I don't know what's going on in your head when you think about college. You told me your excited, and I believe you. But I wouldn't blame you if you were scared or nervous too. Let me tell you this, though. It won't be easy, but I just know that you're going to have a brilliant time in Miami. You spread joy everywhere you go, with your upbeat attitude and smile. It's not going to be hard for you to find a group of friends in U Miami that you'll love. Make sure you do make college a blast, go on adventures, and be yourself. But don't forget about your friends back at home. Don't forget about me, as selfish as that probably sounds.
I wish I had the guts to say this to your face. But I like you. I have for a while, I guess. But with so little time left before you have to go, I don't dare risk finding out if those feelings are reciprocated. Our friendship means so much more to me than a stupid little crush I have. And on the off chance you do feel the same way, I feel like I waited too long for it to mean anything. I don't want to sit around with you for a month and then watch you leave me for months at a time. I don't think I could handle something like that.
Is it the right move? I guess that answer will vary from person to person. Personally, I feel it's best for you. I want you to be able to enjoy your last month with your friends and NOT have to worry about me liking you and what that does to me. Haha, I guess I'm used to not getting what I want. MY feelings don't matter a damn, though, right now, what matters to me more is that the next 33 days are some of the best days you'll ever have in your entire life.
Things are going to be so different with you gone. I'm not even going to bother lying, I just know I'm going to break down into tears when it's time for us to say goodbye. For someone I only met, what, 3 or 4 months ago, you've gotten so close to my heart. Is that corny? I hope it's not. If it is, whatever, it's true. We've danced, we've walked in the park, we've gone bowling, we've texted each other until ridiculously late hours (dad finding me awake at 4 in the morning wasn't so good on me hehe), and hopefully we'll do so much more in the coming days. And when you finally do leave, I hope you'll be able to keep these memories with you until you come back. I know I will. And when you do come back, it'll probably be one of the best days of the year. You mean that much to me.
Things are going to be so different without you. I love you Anon. I love you so much. Be amazing, and follow your dreams.
Be the star I know you can be.
<3
