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So in case you're wondering

Posted March 17th, 2011 at 5:00 PM by seeker

I've handed in my resignation as staff member on PC. There's a possibility I may come back in the summer as a member aspiring to be a moderator again, but I need to finish senior year.

I guess I'll leave you with something I said in the thread.

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Genuinely, I have a tear in my eye reading back (at the replies to the leaving thread). I hope that some day, I can come back, if you would have it. I'd do my best to earn my place again. But between now and Summer, I wont be active. I'd take a DLoA if it made sense, but I couldn't do that to the members.

I'm here if I'm needed. All that anyone needs to do is send me a PM, I wont soon forget the friends I made here. But a time comes where every one of us has to look at what needs to be done. Had I been in a position where others could pick up my slack, I wouldn't have quit. But as a mod, and the only staff member with influence on my sections at this point, I can't let them rot for my sake. A good staff member knows when they'll do more harm taking up slots.

I by no means think that this is the end, some day I may wish to be on staff again, but I'll start over. Forever is for good, but now isn't it. Some day, I may very well be back. But, for now, this is the end of my term. I'll miss you all, I wish circumstances could have been different. But remember, just because I wont be staff, it doesn't mean you guys cant come to me with anything, at any time. I'll always get back to you if you need me.

To do what is best for others, in disregard of what is best for you. That is the true meaning of Abnegation.
In case this is in fact, the end, I want to say thank you to everyone on PC who's ever read my posts. I'm sorry I can no longer be here to help everyone I can, learn from others, and have fun. It's been a monumental year and a half, and I'll not soon forget any of you. But I must pass the torch for now. I would also appreciate it if the blog comments did not speculate who will be my replacement, as someone rudely asked when I first said I was leaving. I want people to stop giving staff members such a hard time too. Seriously, you guys don't know what you're talking about when you insult them or generalize them. I promise you that each and every one of them is an individual, and each one are amazing, and are perfectly nice and genuine people. They do their best for their sections along with trying to juggle their own lives too. Also Pachy, stop whining kid, no one cares. Anyway, whether or not this is the last you will see of me, I wish you all the best.

And remember, conformity is boring, but inspiration is endless.
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    Sydian's Avatar
    Your inspiration and view of the world is beautiful, Gavin. I don't think I ever mentioned that to you, because I couldn't really gather the right words. They're simple words, but they'll suffice. I'll miss you so much. Show up on MSN sometimes, please.

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    I want people to stop giving staff members such a hard time too. Seriously, you guys don't know what you're talking about when you insult them or generalize them. I promise you that each and every one of them is an individual, and each one are amazing, and are perfectly nice and genuine people.
    <3

    Quote:
    Also Pachy, stop whining kid, no one cares.
    Quoted for truth.
    Posted March 17th, 2011 at 5:25 PM by Sydian Sydian is offline
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    Riku's Avatar
    To be honest, we've not actually spoken outright, I don't believe. Maybe in a few G/C's and whatnot, but.... to be honest, I've always liked you. You are talented and seem confident, but you have also always seemed to be one of the coolest, most down to Earth people I've ever seen. Believe it or not, you are someone I have looked up to from a distance.

    I really wish you the best of luck and I know you'll do very well not just finishing school, but for life in general. You will be missed greatly around here. Good luck, and remember to try and have fun and keep strong to who you are and what makes you happiest.
    Posted March 17th, 2011 at 5:27 PM by Riku Riku is offline
    Updated March 17th, 2011 at 5:34 PM by Riku
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    derozio's Avatar
    You may already be well aware of this fact but..you're one of the people whom I always looked up to, Gav. You are really awesome and you made whatever you did look cool. Most people who know that they are good tend to have an air of 'the elite' around them which kinda prevents them from being down to earth. But no, that has never been the case with you. Without your guidance and encouragement, I don't even know how crappy I would have been at gfx. You've been a source of inspiration. A great one, at that.

    I'll really miss you, Gav. If I have been annoying or had done something which pissed you off..I'm genuinely sorry. You know, I never do anything bad intentionally. It just happens by chance. Anyway, I know you have a bright future ahead for you. Hope to see you back again, Mr. Fabnegation.
    Posted March 17th, 2011 at 5:38 PM by derozio derozio is offline
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    I've seen you all over PC being a kind and helpful member to those who need it. And there are also many people like that too. I hope you return to PC sometime soon, I'll miss seeing your username with that moderator bar underneath it. And I hope you do well in your senior year. Good luck, and I hope to see you again. :)
    Posted March 17th, 2011 at 6:47 PM by
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    Meganium's Avatar
    I'll miss you. I understand senior year right now, it's getting as hectic as ever. You take the time you need, since it's highly important. I'll be honest, even though we only talked... once... you seem like a very helpful person, and you seem amazing. Like I said in your other blog, good luck in your last three months as a senior. Cherish every moment, and every last minute/hour/second of it, because I'm pretty sure you will enjoy it!
    Posted March 17th, 2011 at 6:51 PM by Meganium Meganium is offline
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    moments.'s Avatar
    Gav.
    Seriously, the closest friend I had on PC and the only one I spoke to about my real life stuffs. You were an amazing moderator and an even more amazing friend. Just because you aren't going to be locking threads and all that jazz, you will still be as valuable a member to this community as ever before!

    I will miss you while you are not here, but I will cherish the moments you are even more.

    All the best luck for the future and for everything, and may inspiration constantly buffer your life!
    Posted March 17th, 2011 at 7:06 PM by moments. moments. is offline
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    Livewire's Avatar
    Goddamnit, you're awesome. Best wishes for you along the way bud. You'll always have a place here.
    Posted March 17th, 2011 at 7:16 PM by Livewire Livewire is offline
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    Livewire's Avatar
    Quote:
    Originally Posted by Pachy View Comment
    Bahahaha.

    What I decide to object to openly and such is seldom that minor. Maybe you should stop complaining about me voicing my opinion and ignore me more if it annoys you, it really makes you look no better when you try to take me on, and most people on PC know better. They know how stubborn I am. :3
    Or maybe you should come to realize that you are the biggest hypocrite that frequents this site. You have no problem voicing your own opinion when it isn't wanted, yet you never allow others to voice theirs, and pretty much all of PC knows that.


    EDIT:

    I don't want to take away from your moment Gavin, but I had to say it. I still wish you the best of luck for the future. You'll do well. And you'll always have a place among us here at PC.
    Posted March 17th, 2011 at 8:36 PM by Livewire Livewire is offline
    Updated March 17th, 2011 at 9:06 PM by Livewire
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    champagnepapi's Avatar
    Well, see you around. I better say it now, you were always an inspiration to me, and the effect you have on others is amazing. You were an asset to the community and you evidently cared a lot about the sections under you. I'm glad that I was able to make amends with you before you left.
    Posted March 17th, 2011 at 9:54 PM by champagnepapi champagnepapi is offline
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    Zet's Avatar
    Good luck with your senior year and I hope to hear from you again soon.
    Posted March 18th, 2011 at 3:44 AM by Zet Zet is offline
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    moon's Avatar
    I wish you the best of luck, mah Gav. When you come back fresh and fun, they'll be begging you to take back your position ;) Or else, you'll still have a good time around here.

    But for now, I'm glad you're sensible enough to know when PC has to be put aside. One day, I hope to learn it as well...

    Be seeing you. <3
    Posted March 18th, 2011 at 4:03 AM by moon moon is offline
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    marcc5m's Avatar
    Aww :(
    Bye Gav, you will be missed by me and many others.
    Posted March 18th, 2011 at 8:19 AM by marcc5m marcc5m is offline
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    Belinda's Avatar
    Ah, I feel bad for not getting to know you more, but good luck with everything. You're very awesome, and I'm sure everyone can agree.
    Posted March 18th, 2011 at 3:10 PM by Belinda Belinda is offline
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    Aquacorde's Avatar
    I don't know you very well, but I can truly say I've always respected you and liked how you treated others. You're a great influence, and I bet you don't have to have someone tell you that to know so.

    Best of luck to you.
    Posted March 18th, 2011 at 6:32 PM by Aquacorde Aquacorde is offline
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    [quote]I want people to stop giving staff members such a hard time too. Seriously, you guys don't know what you're talking about when you insult them or generalize them. I promise you that each and every one of them is an individual, and each one are amazing, and are perfectly nice and genuine people.[/quote]

    [quote]Also Pachy, stop whining kid, no one cares.[/quote]

    [quote]Quoted for truth.[/quote]

    *deletes pachy's and tater tot's posts*

    [quote]Or maybe you should come to realize that you are the biggest hypocrite that frequents this site.[/quote]

    But I mean see you later and stuff. Hope everything goes well for you!
    Posted March 20th, 2011 at 4:35 PM by Capris Capris is offline
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    seeker's Avatar
    Gosh Capris, I never said they didn't have the right to dislike people! Also "Capris", you're not fooling anyone :<

    At any rate, nice to see those who stopped by to add a little fire to a perfectly calm send off. Maybe some time in the future, you'll learn a little more about who I am before you go calling me a hypocrite. That's fair game though, you're entitled to your opinion. But you may as well be judging someone you've never talked to, ever.

    And I will admit that both Livewire and Syd didn't exactly make things look good on the part I said about staff, but I didn't say the staff was perfect, but neither is any group of people, no matter how many compliments they get, I just think that there are some people (without naming anyone) who see staff members as one big elitest group rather than seeing the individuals behind them.

    I give anyone a chance, regardless of backgrounds, because people gave me one. If that makes me a hypocrite, so be it. But you know what, this isn't what this blog is about, if you want to tell me what you think of me, send me a private message, no matter how insulting, and I will take it with grace and it shall be kept that way. Never did I intend on befriending everyone, I'm a bit of a social butterfly, one of which has people who dislike him, probably in his droves. But you know what, I'm a successful, happy, confident guy who does his best to reach his goals, and takes life as it comes. And I've probably made a lot of people envious in their time, on PC or off it, many members would kill to have been a moderator, to be good at graphics, to know the CSS I know, to be as good as I am in game development, to have amazing friends like I do, to be in love, to have a bright future, to wish to hope to dream and to acheive like I do. But you know what? These are just some of the reasons that prove, I couldn't give a **** about what is said, I'm gonna keep on going in life, and I'm never gonna stop until I acheive eternal happiness, why don't you guys do your best to stop me, or maybe, just maybe, you could go on with your lives, like I do mine, and do something with the body and mind you were born with.

    This is my blog, so I'll have the final words, best of luck to all of you, and I hope that I can fall into full activity some day and start enjoying PC once more. See you guys officially in another few months. <3
    Posted March 21st, 2011 at 11:15 AM by seeker seeker is offline