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Dear Anonymous,

Posted June 24th, 2011 at 4:25 PM by インフェルノの津波
Updated June 25th, 2011 at 12:35 AM by インフェルノの津波

(since that thread will most likely not sprout back to life, thanks to a few people...)

We've been friends for perhaps a year, maybe more. Unfortunately, you had the joy of knowing me. I'm sorry I'm probably not the best of friends, since I'm trying to 'blend' in, but I can't take it anymore. I've been trying to live up to everyone's, but my own's expectations. Every time you sigh, roll your eyes, or dismiss me I feel a little left-out, or think even more lowly of myself.

So I tried to go up-down to your level. I've seen it. And you know what? It disgusts me. Since this is going to a variety of people, some of you may not apply to this, but for the ones that do, my god what were you/I thinking at the time?!

So, I'm going to stop. Even if it means I'm going to be alone for a while/forever, I'll at least be myself. If you don't care, that's okay. If you do care, then respect my wishes. And for the bystanders, you'll probably brush this off. That's okay! I don't want you to care. I just want living proof that I've written this, just so whenever I think of doing that again, I look at this and remind myself I have higher standards. I deserve better.


My internet friends, I honestly don't know what to say to you guys. Some of you have been awesome, no all of you have been awesome. But sometimes, I wonder if our friendship can last. Maybe I'm just an illusion of what you see, and maybe I'm causing that illusion. And for that, I apologize. If you never want to see me again, I understand.

But what concerns me is the future. What'll happen there? Will we grow closer (more than either of us want), or farther? Or will we just ignore each other? I don't know. I'm probably overthinking things again...


Wish I could say more, but I'll go off on a rant. Oh well.
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    Shining Raichu's Avatar
    I'm still bitter about that thread closing too. I have some of the same concerns regarding internet friends. I don't want to lose touch with anybody.
    Posted June 24th, 2011 at 7:23 PM by Shining Raichu Shining Raichu is offline
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    Meganium's Avatar
    I don't know you, and I don't hate you either. To be honest, this isn't going to bring those internet "haters" to you. The Internet is a crazy, yet mysterious world. They'll read this and think "Oh, whatever. I'm not gonna say anything to this jerk". You will have secret rivals and/or enemies. All you need to do is to stand by what you think it's right. If people have a problem with what you do, keep it simple...just keep swimming. :3
    Posted June 24th, 2011 at 10:30 PM by Meganium Meganium is offline
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    インフェルノの津波's Avatar
    Well I just want everyone, haters or whatever to share there opionions on myself, because tbh I've never had someone give an indepth opinion on me, so I'm usually alone with my thoughts. Yeah I'll edit that little bit, cause I'm beginning to go a little insane.
    Posted June 25th, 2011 at 12:34 AM by インフェルノの津波 インフェルノの津波 is offline
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    Aquacorde's Avatar
    *raises eyebrow* I still believe that my behaviour was warranted.
    Posted June 25th, 2011 at 9:14 AM by Aquacorde Aquacorde is offline

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