If you want to know the real me, just turn the page in my dirt road diary.
It’s right there for you to see, every kiss, every beer, every cotton field memory.
Tan legs & some Dixie Land delight, ridin’ round, windows down on a summer night.
I was there, and that was me. It's right here in my dirt road diary.

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small life update i guess

Posted May 17th, 2013 at 11:43 AM by Meganium
Updated July 17th, 2014 at 6:00 PM by Meganium

I *said* I was going to be super active after I finished the semester, but that didn't really happen.

I've been feeling somewhat down the past couple of weeks, to be honest. I didn't want to show off that I was, I pretended I was happy and having a great day, but I was told that I can't hold on. After my doctors diagnosed me with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, things started to change for me. I've been going to therapy every week, taking an antidepressant that gives me random mood swings, and been dealing with more family issues.

Why GAD? First of all, I'm grateful that it's not a severe disorder, and GAD can be cured by therapy and antidepressants. For the past year, I've dealt with severe anxiety. I get scared of literally everything, my sleep has been extremely bad, and my eating habits got worse. I also get scared of meeting new people, being so extremely shy myself. It doesn't seem like it when I'm online, but this is just a heads up. At first I never thought this would be such a mental illness.

I'm on my first week of antidepressants and I've only gone through random bits of demotivation and depression, but my psychiatrist says those are normal for the first week. I should be okay by next week when I head over to San Diego.

Speaking of *that*, I am spending next week at San Diego, as part of my summer plans. I signed up for Summer School in late June, so I have no rush for that! :3
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    Maybe try reading "The Worry Cure"? It's helped a few people I know and may help you/ give you some good exercises/ reassurance like any good self-help book! (Also continute to see your doctors/ psychiatrist.)

    Hope you feel better soon!!
    Posted May 17th, 2013 at 2:47 PM by Kura Kura is offline

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