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Stress + Friendship

Posted October 17th, 2013 at 9:46 AM by Meganium
Updated October 17th, 2013 at 9:53 AM by Meganium

I really need to stop relying on caffeine these days. My workload was increased up to the max with the majority of them due in two weeks. The past 2-3 weeks I've only had 4-5 hours of sleep, with last night I only had three. My emotional health is not doing well again, and I don't get to see my psychologist until next weekend. I'm not the typical studious self that I have always been this time. I've been slacking off on my schoolwork lately, and here I am telling people to not slack off. Jokes on me, I guess? I'm halfway done with a medical terminology paper I have to do, which is 5 pages & single spaced, but I have to do another which is due in mid-November thankfully. Then there's the Abortion debate I have to do on Monday, been exercising my arguments as well, and then there's yet another college algebra exam which I have yet to start studying for, and I can already feel the smell of bombing it.

I also really need to stop being the clingy friend as well, because that's what set off an irl friend of mine last night...and that's what set off my best best friend as well. I'm losing my friends because I cared too much about them, and I thought caring was a good thing. All I wanted was all my friends to be well, and to be happy, and I'm there just taken advantage of. I don't even know what to do now. I go online and it's a whole different story than the one I just told you. I have amazing friends to talk to even though I'm just too shy to speak, or to join the conversation. I welcome members as if I'm meeting the person irl, I talk to peeps on the server or on skype as if they all go to my school or something. Sometimes I wish all that...just happens irl, where we meet every day at someplace and just...talk and be funny about things, or even play Pokemon if it was possible. I'm pretty sure everyone has wished for that for our PC friends, right?

I'm emotionally distraught right now, you guys. I'm sorry for spilling all this nonsense here, but it just needs to come out. All I'm asking is a hug from you all. Is that too much to ask?
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    derozio's Avatar
    God no, that's the least we could do. -hugs- I'm having a ****** time too. Have been slacking off on studies and just got shouted on by my landlord today. Pretty much threatened me to leave the place and I ummm....I was scared. If I have to leave now after being so accustomed to this place then it'll take me some time to settle down in another place and by then my studies will get affected a lot. Which is crappy. :[

    buut yeah i see where you coming from. Friends are sometimes like that. Makes me really depressed when something like it happens.
    Posted October 17th, 2013 at 11:13 AM by derozio derozio is offline
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    derozio's Avatar
    Hey where did half of my comment disappear?!

    Anyway, friends do that some times. Its crappy but...you gotta deal with it. Just life.
    Posted October 17th, 2013 at 11:15 AM by derozio derozio is offline
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    Kanzler's Avatar
    Thanks for the heads up. I'm put my head down to work now.
    Posted October 17th, 2013 at 11:48 AM by Kanzler Kanzler is offline
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    Meganium's Avatar
    @Dero:Thank you. I'm doing a biiit better now but now I just need to find a way to obtain a good night's rest. It's the main reason I'm like... ack. I already said nooooo to caffeine all weekend, which is prooonbably why I'm feeling this way. Hope that works. :P

    @bis: good boy :)
    Posted October 17th, 2013 at 6:05 PM by Meganium Meganium is offline

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