
&Your effort was valueless, sorry, princess~.
Hmm.
Posted December 18th, 2015 at 12:13 AM by Palamon
Need to vent in public because it's late, and well, someone is inching his way into my thoughts. His thoughts.
Hmm.
Who do you see in the mirror?
Yes, you freaking heard me.
WHO DO YOU SEE IN THE MIRROR?
I'm not asking, it's a rhetorical question. What do I see in the mirror... a stranger. A literal stranger. I can't look in it without wondering, "who is that? Who is that in the mirror?" I haven't done any drastic changes to my appearance, but that's all I see in it. A stranger. Someone I don't know. Something to consider, I suppose, is that my reflection stares at me, but maybe it's not me.
On another note, since I let myself get that off my chest... I have more.
Many moons ago, I talked about having vitamin d deficiency. Well...
That's gotten severe. Apparently, it's at seven. I don't know what that means... last year, it was eight, and (uh, they used the word "treated") and I suppose after they put me on medicine for it, it went back up, but now it's worse than before. ...They make it sound like it's an illness at the doctor's office. I mean, I'm not exactly 100% healthy. Dizziness has been pretty bad lately, as has been my nausea. Suppose chest pain and breathing have been okay, but I suppose once I'm put on supplements/the medicine mom has to go pick up for me, I'll be okay.
Uh, I have to take this medicine for three months. And if anyone who knows me well enough would know i'm terrified of medicine. Straight up terrified. I'm afraid of it because side effects, of course supplements can't do that, but I'm still afraid.
I mean, I want to get better... I'm just afraid of medicine.
I've been in pain for a little more than a year or two now. Well, two years on its own is pretty bad. Hopefully, the medicine will work this time, and I'll start getting better.
I... hope.
Hmm.
Who do you see in the mirror?
Yes, you freaking heard me.
WHO DO YOU SEE IN THE MIRROR?
I'm not asking, it's a rhetorical question. What do I see in the mirror... a stranger. A literal stranger. I can't look in it without wondering, "who is that? Who is that in the mirror?" I haven't done any drastic changes to my appearance, but that's all I see in it. A stranger. Someone I don't know. Something to consider, I suppose, is that my reflection stares at me, but maybe it's not me.
On another note, since I let myself get that off my chest... I have more.
Many moons ago, I talked about having vitamin d deficiency. Well...
That's gotten severe. Apparently, it's at seven. I don't know what that means... last year, it was eight, and (uh, they used the word "treated") and I suppose after they put me on medicine for it, it went back up, but now it's worse than before. ...They make it sound like it's an illness at the doctor's office. I mean, I'm not exactly 100% healthy. Dizziness has been pretty bad lately, as has been my nausea. Suppose chest pain and breathing have been okay, but I suppose once I'm put on supplements/the medicine mom has to go pick up for me, I'll be okay.
Uh, I have to take this medicine for three months. And if anyone who knows me well enough would know i'm terrified of medicine. Straight up terrified. I'm afraid of it because side effects, of course supplements can't do that, but I'm still afraid.
I mean, I want to get better... I'm just afraid of medicine.
I've been in pain for a little more than a year or two now. Well, two years on its own is pretty bad. Hopefully, the medicine will work this time, and I'll start getting better.
I... hope.
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