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Posted April 1st, 2016 at 10:36 PM by Palamon

"Kory's at it with their annoying muk again." Internally, I refer to myself as he, btw. Unneeded commentary aside.

Lately, I've felt like my life has been at a dead end lately. I'm... not really doing anything that makes me happy and wanna figure out what will, in the slim chance I could, anyway. Work program turned out to be full of people who are in their late forties in some kind of dead end, who can't work (as in, getting paid, work) and are far slower than me... but I have no right to complain, so I go every day until I'm ready to get a regular job. I hate how people try and pressure me every ten seconds to get a job. I'm nineteen. I only graduated high school ten months ago. College isn't something I can do or afford, either. Not to mention, how often I feel my parents will try and get rid of me when I'm still immature, what have you, about a lot of things. Can't drive, still have "raging hormones" (lol), and have zero idea the value of money. I still have ways to go before I can "move out" like people are trying to make me do. I'm practically a child, yet, legally, I'm this "adult".

Everything feels like a dead end in my life right now. Maybe it's the depression/ mood disorder, I don't know, or maybe it's because I feel like nothing matters to me right now. I don't know. I guess I have some thinking to do about my future.
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    You'd be amazed how common this is with people who are just out of school. Very few people know exactly what they want to do with their life upon graduation and yet we're expected to essentially plan our entire futures from the time we're like 15/16. Don't feel like this is your fault, this is a failure of the system not of your own.

    Still I would advise looking into some cheaper online courses or trying to find a temporary job just so you have something to do whilst you try to find your feet and get used to life as an adult. Plus you could start saving some money away then.

    Best of luck with your future, regardless of what it may hold!
    Posted April 5th, 2016 at 6:25 AM by gimmepie gimmepie is offline