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An end to another day in my pothetic existince.

Posted July 28th, 2009 at 7:27 PM by Buoysel

Well, today has probably one of the worst days in my life. I got lied to at work and was denied a position that I was promised, not only that but my boss lied and said that it was because customers did not like me. When I questioned about these “customers” he refused to say anything, other than along he lines of he doesn’t remember the details. >.> What ever dude.

So now I put in my two weeks notice, I still have to put up with his sorry ass for 14 more days, but after that, what do I do?

I don’t really have anything; I have no job, no place of my own, Everything I’ve been working for in the last year has come up to nothing; Failure. That’s all I seem to be capable of. I look at my life and see how ****y it is, and how much worse it could be, but can’t think of anything I can do to stop it.

Every timeI turn around I get negativity, where is the Positive? I keep looking up for that silver lining everyone keeps talking about, but I all I get is **** on my face.

I have even thought of suicide, but I’d probably fail at that too, leaving myself in a wheel chair for the rest of my life or something like that.

So I sit here typing away about my miserable existence while I’m sure there are people sleeping outside tonight because they have no home. They have it so much worse. So maybe they do, bite me.
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  1. Old Comment
    Percy Thrillington's Avatar
    [QUOTE]I keep looking up for that silver lining[/QUOTE]

    You can't just find it; you gotta make it for yourself.
    Posted July 28th, 2009 at 7:43 PM by Percy Thrillington Percy Thrillington is offline
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    bgt's Avatar
    Just a hint.

    One thing I would advise. Do not post public comments about your thoughts on previous employment.

    Could easily become something to haunt you in the future.

    i.e. Your next employer finds you are talking negatively about your previous employer.

    You didn't name a specific employer's name so it's not very bad however it's just my two cents.
    Posted July 28th, 2009 at 7:46 PM by bgt bgt is offline
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    Buoysel's Avatar
    Quote:
    Originally Posted by The Jack of Hearts View Comment
    You can't just find it; you gotta make it for yourself.
    Maybe that's my problem. And as far as I know no one here knows me out side of this site. So it don't matter what I say here, how are they going to figure out its me? I keep my name, and city very private for that reason. Though I have said where I worked. I liked the job and that is something else that is making this hard on me. I just don't like liares. As for my depression, well this is not helping, but is not the only cause.
    Posted July 28th, 2009 at 8:20 PM by Buoysel Buoysel is offline