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I need to get this off my chest...(venting post)

Posted September 3rd, 2009 at 10:52 PM by Timbjerr
Tags advice , life , parents , prison , sucks

Despite the jovial facade I put forth in my PC postings, I've been rather stressed out lately due in part to my bout of unemployment. Yeah, I escaped the crappy door-to-door salesmen job that I denounced in my last blog posting, but I've been having next to no luck with finding anything willing to hire me. As such, I've been forced to skip yet another semester of college (this makes five semesters of missed classes since I graduated high school), and I sold all my old crap and scraped the bottom of my bank savings just to pay the rent this month.

To make matters worse, earlier this week, I received a letter from my father (who's been in prison for the past year-and-a-half) telling me that he was denied parole. For one thing, he's serving time for a crime he didn't commit (he was charged with aggravated sexual assault when, from my understanding of the case, it was simply solicitation of a minor), and the State of Texas judiciary is so full of arrogant conservative judges that want to demonize sex offenders irregardless of the severity of their crime or the needs of people that were dependent on them. With my father locked away for at least another six months, the man I turned to my whole life for advice on everything is going to continue to be absent from my life until the arrogant *******s that put him there get some sense knocked into them....

...I just got off the phone with my mother (who is, in fact living 3,000 miles away working hard to save up enough money to afford to travel back home, sparing any money she can whenever I ask for it), and she told me something that bothered me. She told me that there's a sense of depression and despair in my voice lately and that she's worried for my mental state.

All I wanted was a ****ing normal life. Everything normal about my life has been stripped away from me, and I feel like there's no hope left, but I really don't want to think that way because I've watched enough movies and played enough games to know that the people that think like that are the ones that snap and go on a killing spree...a stark contrast to the legacy I want to be remembered for. I'm at my wit's end, and I don't know what to do. Perhaps some encouraging words, or maybe even some good job leads would be nice...of course, I'm really willing to leave the Houston area to find a job. XD

I feel a bit better knowing that I found a way to vent all this. :P
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    processr's Avatar
    Damn, sounds rough. I hope the situation improves for you soon. :[
    Posted September 4th, 2009 at 1:40 AM by processr processr is offline
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    Shadow's Avatar
    I've been having the same lackluster luck finding a job. I had to quit one college to move home with my parents, due to an inability to find work.

    The world just sucks. Especially so at the moment. Such a shame I didn't know you lived in Texas when I lived in Texas; but my family managed to escape that hell-on-earth a few months back.
    Posted September 4th, 2009 at 2:12 PM by Shadow Shadow is offline
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    @shadow: I'm definitely directing my rage towards Texas. Despite how corrupt our government is in manipulating the state's ultraconservative population, I can't fathom leaving my family. :P

    Funny how I was chased out of PC for my relatively conservative views a few years ago, and now this. XD
    Posted September 4th, 2009 at 3:08 PM by Timbjerr Timbjerr is offline

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