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Posted June 1st, 2014 at 1:18 PM by Nick

I don't really know how it happened, but in the past, when I logged onto PC, I would quickly become angry because I just had a hard time dealing with a lot of people here because I just read what they had to say and my eyes would roll out of my head. But ever since that night where I was all kinds of messed up because drugs and alcohol, things are different when I come on here. I'm not so much bothered by anybody anymore like I used to be and I can come on here and just post without getting annoyed. I'm not sure why.

Speaking of that night, I'm not sure why I logged on here when I was so messed up, but I did. I already told a few people what happened when it happened, but I just wanted to blog about the experience. Okay so my cousin was over and we went out to eat at Millers Ale House. I had chicken parm and I wanted to try Samuel Adams beer, so I got that as well. That wasn't as good as I was hoping it would be, so I asked for a raspberry iced tea and tried some of the beer my dad was drinking, which was Coors. And then we went home and on the way home we picked up some alcohol from the grocery store and then we got home and we drank. My dad didn't, but my brothers and my cousin and I did. So I drank, and decided that my favorite beer was Rolling Rock and my second favorite beer was Belgian White Shocktop, which was my favorite until that night. And then I got tipsy. I didn't actually get drunk. I tried to explain that to my family, but they wouldn't hear that. When I get drunk drunk, I sing and I hug people and I wasn't at that stage yet. But I absolutely wasn't sober and had problems walking and talking and all that good stuff.

And then my brothers and my cousin went out and I was alone, and that's when I came on PC and posted in the DCC and all was fine at that point. They came back after a little while with some rolls for the weed that they were about to smoke and I was like oh well I guess I'll smoke too, so I went out front and smoked with them. I never smoked from a blunt before - I smoked from a bowl and from a vaporizer in the past - so I wasn't really sure how to do it, so my cousin guided me through it. I took a hit, passed it. It came back around to me. I took another hit. Then I passed it. And then it came back to me, and I took two hits after each other. They were long and they were deep and all that. They were good hits, apparently. According to what my brother and my cousin said. And then a few seconds passed and I was out. Like I was done.

I started laughing hysterically and suddenly, I became very impressionable. It was as if I was hypnotized. I never experienced that when I was high before. The most that would happen is I would be really weird and be full of energy and run around and just have word vomit. I had all those things, but I didn't really have complete control of my actions. I had to be told to do something in order for me to do something. It was all so strange. I could feel my body tingling with strange sensations. I heard someone say it was cold. I suddenly felt really cold - like I was shivering, and then my cousin told me I was hot and then I was so ♥♥♥♥ing hot. It was so incredibly strange. And then I started laughing and I remember my cousin saying to me "That's hilarious, isn't it?" and I just laughed harder and harder and harder. When I'm high, I can't lie. When I'm high, I have word vomit. Literally everything I think, I say. So I remember talking a lot.

There were a lot of things that happened that night that I remember very clearly, but I'm having a bit of trouble recollecting them. I remember losing complete sense of time. I would look at the clock and it would be like 3:46 and then I would look at it again and it would be 3:15 and I was like tripping out. I remember having to go to the bathroom a few times during the night and I was so scared to go because I wasn't aware of the time and then they would find me just standing there thinking I'm still going to the bathroom when I finished like two hours ago. Thankfully that didn't happen, but I remember being very frightened that it would happen.

And then I couldn't fall asleep so I had to tell my brother to tell me to go to sleep, and he did and I would go to sleep. It was as if my conscious mind and my subconscious mind were at war with each other. I remember asking my brother what the time was a lot during the night.

I was high for 14 hours. 14 hours. And for most of my high, I was in a state where I could think for myself, but I don't really do anything without suggestions to do something from other people. But I was able to feed those suggestions to other people to feed back to me for me to do the things that I wanted to do. My limbs were moving so slowly and I felt like a puppet because my brainwaves weren't aligned with my body. I had trouble typing, I had trouble moving, and everything just felt so strange. I remember constantly going on the computer and then moving it and then wondering where it went. I remember losing my phone every now and then and it was next to me the entire time. I remember seriously jamming out to music like a lunatic and my brother walking in on me dancing like a crazy person and I just didn't care so I just kept going.

You know that's the only thing that I think I like about drugs and alcohol. You just don't care if someone sees you doing something you would normally be embarrassed about.

And what was really strange was every now and then my regular self would come back and I would be super uptight. I would say completely convincingly that I wasn't stoned or drunk "What are you doing in my room? Get out." in such a stern tone. And then I would slip back into a state of hypnosis, which is what I tried to explain to a few people. Basically, if you want to know what I was like, just watch a stage hypnosis show on YouTube, and you'll see. There's a video that I'm thinking of right now that one of the people involved were just like me.

I remember I had like these anchors. My brother getting mad at me would bring me back into a state of consciousness temporarily. My dad being his normal self did that as well. I don't think I'll ever experience something like that again. It was cool for a few hours, but after so long it really got old and I remember praying desperately that it would go away. And when it finally did, I was just so relieved.

Anyway, I just wanted to blog about it because I came on here and posted some things and I know some people saw the things I posted.
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    antemortem's Avatar
    Did you have fun at least? :]
    Posted June 1st, 2014 at 3:23 PM by antemortem antemortem is offline
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    Crux's Avatar
    Ahah, that's awesome, surreal, and admittedly pretty frightening. I might actually have to use that sort of scenario for some writing, at some point.

    Well, I'm just glad you're okay. I don't really know you too well, but you seem like a nice guy. And, hey, everybody deserves to just let loose every once in a while.
    Posted June 1st, 2014 at 3:44 PM by Crux Crux is offline
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    Alexander Nicholi's Avatar
    Hmmm, I'd probably smash my face in out of some of the embarrassing things I'd imagine doing while high. :x
    Posted June 1st, 2014 at 4:10 PM by Alexander Nicholi Alexander Nicholi is offline
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    Akiba's Avatar
    Well, I've decided. I'm never going to touch a beer. Ever.

    Looks like you had fun, though. :)

    Also I got really scared while reading this because I was just reading about Solitary Hide-and-Seek
    Posted June 1st, 2014 at 5:58 PM by Akiba Akiba is offline
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    Nick's Avatar
    Quote:
    Originally Posted by Synchronous View Comment
    Well, I've decided. I'm never going to touch a beer. Ever.

    Looks like you had fun, though. :)

    Also I got really scared while reading this because I was just reading about Solitary Hide-and-Seek
    It wasn't the beer it was the drugs.
    Posted June 1st, 2014 at 5:59 PM by Nick Nick is offline
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    Fairy's Avatar
    I'm just glad you're okay
    Posted June 1st, 2014 at 8:55 PM by Fairy Fairy is offline
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    Rogue planet's Avatar
    Sounds like you got some good bud
    Posted June 1st, 2014 at 10:01 PM by Rogue planet Rogue planet is offline
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    derozio's Avatar
    ...that definitely isn't something I'd like seeing myself experience. Meh, I'm staying away from alchohol and drugs for life anyway so it doesn't really matter. But I hope you keep good care of yourself. You were very vulnerable in that state. Its good you're alright and nothing happened.
    Posted June 2nd, 2014 at 12:11 PM by derozio derozio is offline