Pretty sure we've all been there. It's nothing to be ashamed of. Hell, that's the story of my life- minus the working out.

So long as you recognize it and try to do something about it, there's nothing to be disappointed about.

dero dero you should consider transfering that amount of words to your college work instead

I looked in the thread today not expecting a big smack bang in the face filled with words xD Tbh I thought it was the results post and I got confused cause it wasn't the end of the month yet haha

This is a sign that you need to come on over and join the Roleplay forum, already.

I write college level papers with less content than that post.

....that may be the longest post I have ever seen

holy **** man

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vdb4XGVTHkE

For you.
Love is in many places. If you tell yourself things wont change, then things won't change. Tell yourself you're open and receptive to the new and exciting. To the good. To more love. Don't idealize love. Don't compare love. Be open and it will come. It's time to focus on you, not to "finding something." You will find fulfillment there, and slowly, but it will better you in the end.

Spino is right. The relationship you're imagining is the most difficult part to move on from, not the girl herself. It's hard to let go, especially when it means moving on from something that you've been so emotionally invested in - good or bad - for five years. Change isn't easy.

But you can't live your life in "what ifs" and "if onlys". They're just going to subtract from your present experiences. The new loves you could be finding, the happiness you could be sharing with another girl. Stay strong, Dero. You're an amazing young man, don't lose hope. Time will heal this. <3

Definitely I've been in the place that you and Spinosaurus has been. It's a hard place to be, and love can be especially heart-wrenching when you try to ignore or displace it. Just do your best, everything heals given time, even if you're still raw now. You definitely may need to put your foot down and de-link yourself from her online, but I'm not going to tell you to do that, that's your choice.

I just wish you the best Dero!

You're experiencing infatuation. You're putting too much value into a fantasy relationship with that person, and the pain you're feeling is the result of that projection you have in your mind.

Getting over it is a lot easier said than done. Focus on having other priorities and find anything that could take your mind off her, little by little. Center all your thoughts on yourself, not her. It's a slow process, but it ultimately pays off.

I'm going through the same situation. It's destructive, but I'm getting better. A lot better.

It's understandable that you feel this way since this girl had such a long lasting effect on you. However, I do feel there is something to be said about looking back at the past too much especially while you're still young and have the entire world ahead of you to experience. I know it sounds a tad cliché to be saying any of this, but new experiences you're going to have over time will hopefully be able to numb that pain a lot better. If things didn't work out, then you've got to understand that this will help arm you with a better understanding of what kind of woman you would want in your life ahead.

Though more importantly, you would need to find distractions that can allow you to focus more on other things. Your love life is something that can hold many surprises, but events can happen so spontaneously and at any time at all. I personally wouldn't advise putting it at the forefront of your mind. Focus on continuing to find different ways of strengthening yourself as a person, that way you not only have a better awareness of yourself but also of what you truly want.

I would only want one if it had front facing stereo speakers and a micro sd card slot.

jfc i lost mine in the metro

now every time i see someone with one of these i get super jelly

Dang, that's a really good deal. The resolution comparison at the bottom is candy to my eyes. My LG G2 has been serving me well, but the small battery life is slightly problematic.

And your hands are beautiful, dero.

Pretty neat-lookin' phone ☺ I just got an iPhone 5c 8GB. Really wanted 16GB, but they don't make those anymore... I like its pretty blueness, though.