Blog #15 - "Spared from the Death Date"

Awhile back I posted a entry about how I was dreading to hang out with "a friend" because she didn't want to date me. Hurt, I never wanted to see her because it hurt me. Anyway, our mutual friend has a young daughter (who is adorable) and she has periodic dance and musical recitals.

I go for her and her mother. Hanging with the female who hurt me makes it hard to hang out with the other friend.

Anyway, I was scheduled to have to go to the daughters Tarzan play. But because I had to see the woman. It was destroying my week. Making me feel like there was no tomorrow. She affects me that much.

Anyway, on the brink of depression, my mother suggested that I fake being sick. A little hesitant, I realize that lying was the only way to help me feel better. I had to lie to everyone for my own sanity. Lol. So I texted them both telling them that I was getting the bug that was going around (which was the only true thing about the lie, haha.)

I apologized to our mutual friend and offered to reimburse her for my ticket.

Ultimately, I feel as if a great weight has been taken off my shoulders.

And despite lying, it was the only option to make me feel better.

I love our mutual friend, but I can't be with the other girl it hurts far to much.

Just had to get this off my chest. Call me a coward, but it was what I needed to do.

PREVIOUS DEATH DATE ENTRY: "Entry #9 - The Day of Death (5/19/2013)"

She didn't want to date you? Alright, you mean she gave you permission to date other girls.. so.. cool! ;3

Sadly in life we will have to face people we don't like, whether it be working with someone you hate on a project at work, to having to be polite to family friends to keep the peace in the family. It's part of growing up and even though it is difficult, you will mature a lot from facing it.

So like I said.. she didn't want to date you. She's completely entitled to that decision and you shouldn't take it so personally. All the members from 1direction could ask me out but I wouldn't say yes because I'm not interested in any of them. It doesn't mean they're not cool or attractive, they're just for me. Don't let her personal opinion of what she wants in her life and her personal relationship choices get you down. Go out and find someone who will choose you fr you and because you took the courage to move on instead of holding onto negativity and hurt unnecessarily. Good luck.