See You, Space Cowboys

On PC people come and go, and for many those, they people become friends. But for them to suddenly stop coming is also disheartening not knowing if your friend is safe or not. I've had many people I could call "friend" and they just disappeared without a word, I wonder if they're safe... I wonder if they found what they wanted to do in life, or found love and spend everyday with that person experiencing all kinds of emotions. It makes me wonder if I'll ever find that someone on the internet or even in real life... would they be a close friend or a person I just met? All these thoughts come to my head and I'm confused on what I should do, but one thing is for sure... I would say if I was leaving PC to do what I want to do in life or spend that time with friends/someone I love; even if I was dying I would say I'm leaving.

However the internet is changing for the good or for the worse, I do not know. As for how long we have left together if PIPA or any other internet bill that passes, I want to cherish every moment I can with the friends I have made. If this is our last moment together, I want you all to know that I've thoroughly enjoyed our time together.. the times we've laughed, debated, argued and made amendments for the things we said. If I were to list all of my friends cons, I wouldn't list a thing; I've looked passed that and know that it is apart of them and makes them who they are. As for myself, I can be emotionally needy and afraid of being left behind/alone. It scares me knowing that one day we won't get to talk a lot like we do now, whether because it's work, relationships or even being a parent. I still want to talk to you like I do now.

I have no intention of leaving PC right now, I just wanted to get my feelings off my chest. And if this is our last time together because of any internet bill all I have to say is...

See You, Space Cowboys *bang*

I had this song on repeat while writing this blog.

I blame you and twocows for sending me on a major nostalgia trip tonight.

Aaaaah! I love See You, Space Cowboys!

I would think if you're really that close with a friend you'd ask for their phone number to keep in touch.. : | Or mailing address.. I love sending handwritten letters to my OL friends.. it takes the friendship from being "I'm your friend because it's convenient to talk to you" to "I'm your friend because I genuinely care about you." That's just what I think.

Kura;bt74668 said:

I would think if you're really that close with a friend you'd ask for their phone number to keep in touch.. : | Or mailing address.. I love sending handwritten letters to my OL friends.. it takes the friendship from being "I'm your friend because it's convenient to talk to you" to "I'm your friend because I genuinely care about you." That's just what I think.

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This is rude. Just so you're aware.

@blog: I'm usually the disappearing person haha. x_x;

NO TOUJOURS YOU CANNOT DISAPPEAR
GIVE ME YOUR ADDRESS JFWJAFL;AWJKF

Toujours - No no, Kura has a point. owo At one point, when I was going to lose internet access a few years ago, I was able to grab the phone numbers of the people online that I was closest to. I even have the address of a couple of my friends, and we send each other little letters on occasion. xD;

I'd love to do that with some of the people here, provided that something "bad" were happen to the internet. Because like this entire blog entry was saying, I hate leaving without a word, and I care about the people that I've met on here. The entire time I was reading I was going " ... :c " because I can relate.

Oh and, glad you're not leaving PC, Zet. I really thought that's what this was until I saw the end. xD;

The implication was "you're not that close with them otherwise you'd have a way to contact them outside of the internet", or "it's your fault for not getting their phone numbers or address". I didn't say her point was invalid, I said she was being rude.

Although to be fair before I turned 18 I refused to give out any personal information like that even to people I adored online, haha. Doesn't mean I was less sad if they disappeared. xD;

The heck? Toujours in all seriousness.. there have been people I know that I've lost contact with online, but I still call once in a while. (Like an example is Pokejungle who used to come here to PC) And because of that, friendships never feel lost. If someone's just gonna disappear on you without telling you or giving you a way to contact them then I don't believe they're that close to you to begin with or they would make an effort to be with you. Dunno why you took offense to that but that's how I see things so I stated it. There should be no problem here.

I would appreciate it if you please stop thinking that I'm implying things when I am not. It's getting increasingly frustrating and I don't know why you're reading deeper into things that aren't there. I feel like you're trying to find the "rudeness" in my posts rather than just letting my posts be what they are. So I'm asking you kindly, and if you still have an issue with one of my posts or find that more people do as well, then I'm totally open to talking to you about it through PM. Thanks for understanding!

The implication was "you're not that close with them otherwise you'd have a way to contact them outside of the internet", or "it's your fault for not getting their phone numbers or address". I didn't say her point was invalid, I said she was being rude.

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lol so valid points are rude unless you sugarcoat it until it's "aww poor baby you're gonna miss all your online friends so much even though you put no effort into contacting them outside of the net :(((("
YEAH RUDE AS **** KURA WHY CANT YOU BE MORE UNDERSTANDING?

No.. the way she was saying it, brought it like she thought that 'if he is not seeking for their contact offline, that must mean he is not so close with them after all'. Might not have been meant that way but that's what "you/I would think that --" implies, globally. Toujours also wasn't saying how wanting offline contact with your online friends is wrong.

Anyways I have never really wanted to share personal information with people online until maybe a month or two ago, where I got close with some people and I didn't mind anymore at that point. I've even seen someone from here irl already and that's gonna be two in a while (if all goes well!).

Guys can you just drop it? Seriously why are we fighting about this?
If anything just take it as a suggestion to get a P.O. box or extra email address where you can keep in touch with all your friends. Stop reading between the lines! That's just how I am with my OL friends and if you're not that way then that's ok! Just please stop trying to make it sound like I'm dictating how you should act within your own relationships. I wouldn't do that and this is getting really silly!

Had that happen to me before. It's one of the most difficult things to go through when you're on the net and grow to care about someone. Knowing that they can disappear at any moment, without any notice. It's disheartening. I always hope that they didn't die, and I always worry the worst.

When I'm angry of things like PC in general, I always think that I'm going to end up leaving without saying anything to anyone, and I'll drop from the internet completely so they can't even contact me. Part of that's because I'm angry, and part of that's because it leaves a shocking last impression that always has the "what ifs" attached and comes across as mysterious and fascinating. That's probably horrible of me to admit, but oh well.

Bringing the conversation offline is more reassuring than relying on online interactions. I try my best to ensure that I have other ways of contacting the people I care about the most online! Unfortunately, not all of them are as comfortable with giving out their address or phone number as others! 8(

If I don't answer my email and I'm not on Steam for more than a month, you can be pretty sure I'm dead.