I really haven't posted that many blog entries in a really long time because I don't really have a lot to say. I usually don't, anyway. But, for some reason, sometimes I feel the need to look in here, and try to write something. Well...

While, perhaps, I might be exaggerating, or overthinking this, but I feel like I've come a long way since I've started coming online. I feel like I'm a far better person now than when I first joined internet forums. While, some part of me are pretty...

This has nothing to do w/the recent PC drama.

If you know me well (you don't, probably), you'd know I'm a very paranoid person, have extremely low trust and am literally always suspicious of everything. I don't know why my paranoia is so damn bad, but it just is. So...sorry if I ever come off as angry, upset or scared. I probably am. It's my fault, and no one else's under any circumstance.

I just get upset very easily. And it's my fault, so.

I don't...

Nothing to see here.

You could say there's a lot of things I have trouble putting into words. My health, my mood swings, and even the fact I identify as a trans masculine.

I really don't know to put any of these kind of things into words. I've gotten as far as saying: "I like to dress masculine, I prefer to be seen as masculine" when it comes to being in the closet about being trans. I'm always too scared of being demeaned irl about it.

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While I don't actively act like someone I'm not, I wanted to talk about something a bit...just really quickly.

Back between when I was super active in Pokemon anime and then super inactive after well, incidents, I guess, I changed my username from Euphonium to this one to rebrand myself, I suppose. Well... that didn't really work out for me. I don't feel like me with this username at all. I'm waiting for the 22nd to roll around so I can be done with this one forever.

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& No, I don't hold a piece of your soul. A bit of... an update, I suppose? As I've pretty much mostly disappeared from forum existence (again). I've basically, what you'd call--hibernating, so to speak, and mostly on social media, I guess. My forum energy has been very low as of recent. So, I've mostly been lurking and not really posting.

Still playing a million Japanese idol/band/actor games. Since last time I was here I added Bang Dream! Band Girls Party, a3, YumeIro Cast,...