Welcome to Hell, Me.

Hey, it's just a class. Not sure what grade you're in, but at the very least you're aware you need to do better. Now you can take the next step and practice! Focus on what the issue is and work on it. For math, I'd just reread the examples on process on how to do whatever it is you're doing. As in what math class you're taking. Earth Science can be even easier to work on if you figure out what the issue is. Since you say the whole class is failing, I assume you have a really bad or really hard teacher? If it's the former, just study yourself from the textbook. Put PC aside for or three hours a day and study. If it's the latter, it'd be more difficult. Take extensive notes and see if you can talk to your teacher about it. It helps more often than you'd think.

So yeah, don't knock yourself down. Accepting your fault's is halfway to recovery. Blood, sweat, and a few tears are the next fifty percent. Expressing yourself in a blog like this also helps, cause you get to vent your emotions. That being said, you've got a very interesting rhetoric. I don't want to say you're overreacting, but the whole failing scenario seems to have given you an epiphany or something. :c

So yeah, you got this Yuki. I believe in you, as does many others, I'm sure. Hang in there girl, we're all supporting you! Besides, I'm sure people here are even willing to help. I took Earth Science four years ago, but I aced my Regents, so maybe I can help you there. I'm usually a pro at math too, so yeah. You don't have to go through this alone! ;D

I always never fitted in with any class I had. I was always picked on and isolated.

I ended up quitting college last year after six months due to a horrible bully in my class.

Hey Yuki.

With regard to your problem with mathematics, I can be your liberator. Me and Maths go hand in hand pretty much so whatever difficulty you're having, come to me and I will enlighten your mind. Seriously, just drop me a VM / PM and I'll be more than happy to guide you.

As for the Earth Science stuff, I can try and help you there but that's not quite my forte. All the best with everything anyway.

But really, what's normal? Pride yourself in your uniqueness and embrace it. Work on the things you want to work on to feel better about yourself. Make progress and you wont dwell. If you find that your depression is overwhelming you, put the pride aside and ask for help. Therapists aren't as taboo as you may think, and they offer great advice for you to start helping yourself. Maybe one might not work for you, but if it starts getting tough, it really doesn't hurt to try.

Poetry is nice and all, and a great outlet, but with it, you tend to label yourself and your situation; the sooner you stop labelling yourself, the easier it will be to move on. Once you label yourself, you start believing in the negative words you've associated with yourself. Time to stop that, dear.

Also, I went to summer school to get ahead. It's a bit slower paced because you get more one-to-one teacher time. Yeah there may be troublemakers in there that don't give a crap.. but who cares? You're there for you. Worst case scenario isn't too bad; you'll survive. You just gotta take things in stride.

You don't help yourself when you start saying "I'm a teenager therefore I should be expected to do X, Y, and Z and don't need to work on anything". :/