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So I had a few people ask me why I haven't been that active the last year or so. And I've given some excuses to people. But I just got back from my doctor and I decided to give the real reason.

About a year ago, they found a tumor on my pancreas. I went to the doctor originally thinking I was getting diabetes like the rest of my family. My insurance was going to expire soon so I wanted to get it over with. And instead they found a tumor. So I had surgery and got that removed. I told my friends about this irl but not on PC. It wasn't serious enough for me to take a DLoA or anything.

Three months later I went to the doctor for a checkup and it turns out they didn't get to the tumor in time and it had spread to the rest of my body. Well, specifically my chest. I had a huge lump on my chest: breast cancer. I found this all out on my birthday by the way so I wasn't a happy camper.

So in secret, without telling anyone outside of my immediate family, I started undergoing treatment. I was living in an apartment at the time with some friends so I was doing this behind their backs. My flakiness and constant tiredness ruined my friendships with these guys for a while. I was too scared to tell them I was really sick so I decided to look like an ass instead.

But recently I was told the chemotherapy was going to be done soon and I realized it was time to come clean.

So in lieu of having cancer and realizing how precious my life was, the trivial problems of running a Pokemon forum fell on the wayside. I love PC so I didn't want to give it up. But all the stupid, mundane **** people care about here really didn't matter to me anymore.

But I'm back in full force practically (except I started school again so that + work will still keep me busy.) I love you all and hopefully I won't delete this soon out of embarrassment.

xoxo
Luke

Awww Luke. :( I don't know what to say...I know we're not close or anything, but that's still some story. And you're so young. Wow.

Much love bb. <3

Sydian;bt55350 said:

Awww Luke. :( I don't know what to say...I know we're not close or anything, but that's still some story. And you're so young. Wow.

Much love bb. <3

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I would like to be closer to you all. I miss being close to people on PC lol

Then you gotta hit me up sometime bb. And we can sing together.

I know first hand exactly what you're going through. Its horrible to see someone suffer with cancer and especially that you're so young too. I was in total shock when you told me this the other day and it really got to me lol. Im really glad your treatment is almost done though man and that it has gone away. <3

Dark Azelf;bt55353 said:

I know first hand exactly what you're going through. Its horrible to see someone suffer with cancer and especially that you're so young too. I was in total shock when you told me this the other day and it really got to me lol. Im really glad your treatment is almost done though man and that it has gone away. <3

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Love you my big burly British bodyguard <3 xoxo

Hey Luke, I'm sorry you went through such suffering and also conflict.. but I'm glad to know that the chemo is almost over! I'll be thinking of you!

:3 Stay safe, man~

Thanks Kura~ :D

It's an experimental chemo treatment that doesn't go after "good" cells like hair follicles and your stomach lining but I still get sick sometimes. I don't have much hair to lose either so I've been good. I appreciate the positive thoughts. :3

/hug hug hug ♥

;_; I can't even imagine what you've been going through and I'm so glad chemo went well & is almost over! That must be such a relief.

We're rooting for you. :3

Lightning;bt55358 said:

/hug hug hug ♥

;_; I can't even imagine what you've been going through and I'm so glad chemo went well & is almost over! That must be such a relief.

We're rooting for you. :3

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It made me really appreciate all of the stupid medical **** you've been going through the last few years too. <3

That sounds so scary. :( glad you're okay though.

luuuuuuuke ;~; gotta say I wasn't expecting this at first when I read the blog title. :(

I honestly don't know anyone with cancer or anything remotely close to a potentially deadly disease (except for like my grandparents who I'm fairly sure have enough diseases and medication to make a normal person die a hundred times over). But seriously man, I hope you know that I'm hoping for everything to come out alright. It's really kinda amazing how trivial everything here seems when something that difficult to get through happens to you.

No matter how hard things get, there's always going to be people here at PC in your corner, rooting for you to get through everything.

keep strong <33

Welcome back Luke. I'm glad you recovered...I miss you a lot..I...I really hope you feel better...because despite whether we've talked a lot or not, I still do care about you a lot, y'know. Idc if this sounds creepy, I consider you a close friend to me. n_n; ♥

Agh, cancer? Sorry you had to go through that. I'll actualyl look forward to your iron fist again around here~

Hiroshi Sotomura;bt55362 said:

You… didn't tell me that much. I knew about the first tumor though, but damn. Best wishes, Lucas! Glad you got that out of your chest. (Pun unintended.)

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No >____>

I wish there was multiquote in blogs.

It was scary Nica but I'm used to it by now.

VRAI BB I LOVE YOU THNX A LOT

Jake I already shared my feelings with you on IRC :)

And Derrick I appreciate the sentiments no matter how creepy they are.

I failed the last time I tried to say something to you so I'll try again IN FULL FORCE

I could never, ever go through what you went through and what you're going through now. Too painful, too weak etc. So for that alone, you're amazing/fabulous etc. But for being able to tell people about it and to not be scared is..it's great, really. We're all really proud of you. I wish i could buy you something when you're done with the whole cleansing process, but I don't have a credit card so I suppose you'll have to deal with me being affectionate on IRC, lol. So yeah, I love you and hugs and hugs <33333

oh w0w you better be as pink as i am right now

Hmm...

This does explain some things. Olive branch?

Don't think we've ever talked, so this comment is probably going to suck. Anyhow, you're beyond strong for going through what you've already gone through, and I really hope that everything in the future goes well. It's great to see people with such a passion for PC.