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My biggest secret.

Posted December 11th, 2012 at 12:18 PM by droomph

I feel worse and worse mentally by the day.

I found that hair is produced by a hormone called dihydrotestosterone which is made by 5-alpha reductase...if I could find a source of that 5-alpha reductase I could potentially do some awful things to people. This isn't as worrying as much as self image issues but still worrisome to me.

I also have vivid fantasies of strapping a police officer to a flagpole, supergluing him in place, and humiliating him like he did me.

The most worrisome example in the recent past is that I've been thinking, and I feel that the worst way to torture someone is to inject them with heroin for two or three doses as to sustain an addiction, and then let them go. I almost feel like doing that to somebody - trap them in a basement and feed them heroin for a day. It's worrying to the sane part of me.

It's only a couple more incidents before I just lose myself completely, and I don't want to leave the world I'm in now. One with peace, cooperation, and reality.
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    pokewalker's Avatar
    'A world with peace'
    There is no peace. There will never be peace. There are always people ruining things - on a big scale and on a small scale. And you're becoming one of them, sorry if it sounds harsh.
    The thing about criminals is that they either don't know better or that they're confused. I'll give you an advice: tell this to your closest friend. They will accept you for it and mostly, by telling it to others the pressure in your head weakens, so they may not even have to help you search for help. I wish you the best of luck. Never give up!
    Posted December 11th, 2012 at 12:57 PM by pokewalker pokewalker is offline
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    Agreed with what pokewalker said. You already know there's always a difference between thoughts and action, too. Play it smart and don't lose yourself to being poetic; it's not really worth it.
    Posted December 11th, 2012 at 1:09 PM by Kura Kura is offline
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    droomph's Avatar
    in my head, guys. in my head.
    Posted December 11th, 2012 at 8:40 PM by droomph droomph is offline
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    Posted December 11th, 2012 at 8:42 PM by Her Her is online now
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    pokewalker's Avatar
    What do you mean with in your head? Let me tell you this. There is no secret that is world shocking (apart from government plans). You are the only one making a big deal of it. Tell it to your closest friend and believe me, he will act kind and helpful towoards you.
    Posted December 12th, 2012 at 10:28 AM by pokewalker pokewalker is offline
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    Originally Posted by Harlequin View Comment
    no he doesnt
    droomph this is nothing to worry about lol, all adults have this!! though they're able to surpress it which makes them adults so congratulations when you can surpress it, that means you've grown to adulthood!!!
    Posted December 12th, 2012 at 10:41 AM by Yoshikko Yoshikko is offline

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