Timbjerr
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Despite the jovial facade I put forth in my PC postings, I've been rather stressed out lately due in part to my bout of unemployment. Yeah, I escaped the crappy door-to-door salesmen job that I denounced in my last blog posting, but I've been having next to no luck with finding anything willing to hire me. As such, I've been forced to skip yet another semester of college (this makes five semesters of missed classes since I graduated high school), and I sold all my old crap and scraped the bottom of my bank savings just to pay the rent this month.
To make matters worse, earlier this week, I received a letter from my father (who's been in prison for the past year-and-a-half) telling me that he was denied parole. For one thing, he's serving time for a crime he didn't commit (he was charged with aggravated sexual assault when, from my understanding of the case, it was simply solicitation of a minor), and the State of Texas judiciary is so full of arrogant conservative judges that want to demonize sex offenders irregardless of the severity of their crime or the needs of people that were dependent on them. With my father locked away for at least another six months, the man I turned to my whole life for advice on everything is going to continue to be absent from my life until the arrogant *******s that put him there get some sense knocked into them....
...I just got off the phone with my mother (who is, in fact living 3,000 miles away working hard to save up enough money to afford to travel back home, sparing any money she can whenever I ask for it), and she told me something that bothered me. She told me that there's a sense of depression and despair in my voice lately and that she's worried for my mental state.
All I wanted was a ****ing normal life. Everything normal about my life has been stripped away from me, and I feel like there's no hope left, but I really don't want to think that way because I've watched enough movies and played enough games to know that the people that think like that are the ones that snap and go on a killing spree...a stark contrast to the legacy I want to be remembered for. I'm at my wit's end, and I don't know what to do. Perhaps some encouraging words, or maybe even some good job leads would be nice...of course, I'm really willing to leave the Houston area to find a job. XD
I feel a bit better knowing that I found a way to vent all this. :P
To make matters worse, earlier this week, I received a letter from my father (who's been in prison for the past year-and-a-half) telling me that he was denied parole. For one thing, he's serving time for a crime he didn't commit (he was charged with aggravated sexual assault when, from my understanding of the case, it was simply solicitation of a minor), and the State of Texas judiciary is so full of arrogant conservative judges that want to demonize sex offenders irregardless of the severity of their crime or the needs of people that were dependent on them. With my father locked away for at least another six months, the man I turned to my whole life for advice on everything is going to continue to be absent from my life until the arrogant *******s that put him there get some sense knocked into them....
...I just got off the phone with my mother (who is, in fact living 3,000 miles away working hard to save up enough money to afford to travel back home, sparing any money she can whenever I ask for it), and she told me something that bothered me. She told me that there's a sense of depression and despair in my voice lately and that she's worried for my mental state.
All I wanted was a ****ing normal life. Everything normal about my life has been stripped away from me, and I feel like there's no hope left, but I really don't want to think that way because I've watched enough movies and played enough games to know that the people that think like that are the ones that snap and go on a killing spree...a stark contrast to the legacy I want to be remembered for. I'm at my wit's end, and I don't know what to do. Perhaps some encouraging words, or maybe even some good job leads would be nice...of course, I'm really willing to leave the Houston area to find a job. XD
I feel a bit better knowing that I found a way to vent all this. :P
