I feel like a dumbass.

Sooo....this month, in my warped brain, I decided to confess to the two girls I really liked.

First one was Jadrian. She's really awesome, athletic, extremely tall (like 2nd tallest in our school, towers over all of our teachers because of a disorder I forgot the name off...It gave her male genes...I think...), rarely comes to school do to a mental illness.

I confessed to her. It went...semi-fine. She honestly didn't know what to say, and I just saw her today. All she said was hi and leave. I don't think I'll be having a relationship with her any time soon.

So I moved on to Cheyenne. Cheyenne also rarely comes to school, into Yaoi and other weird **** (I'll leave it at Yaoi), she RPs, and is perhaps the strongest person I know. She has muscles like a dude. No...like a workout profession. Yeah.

Anyway so I was planning on telling her how I felt earlier, but as it turns out one of my friends, JP, decides to kiss her while they were alone and had a relationship for about 2 months. (he was apparently scared of her dad, who wanted to buy a shotgun...for hunting.)

Now, today is technically the last day of school. After Jadrian's behavior, I decided to tell Cheyenne my feelings, no matter what.

So I was in my coordinator's room, and after our friends clear out (she was drawing a dragon, fantastic artist btw), before I left, I told her.

Or how I wanted it to be.

I'll just put how it went here.

Craige (me): Hey, can I tell you something?
Cheyenne (love interest): Yeah?
Craige: Uh...

Awkward silence for about 1 minute.

Craige: Uh...give me a minute.
Cheyenne: Can I guess?
Craige: ...Yeah.
Cheyenne: You like me.
Craige: Yeah...I do. Well...I guess that was pretty obvious!
Cheyenne: Yeah, I've had my guy friends do this while I was in Middle School.
Craige: I just wanted to tell you how I felt since this might be the last time I see you.
Cheyenne: Okay.
Craige: Bye.
Cheyenne: See you next year.

Typing that out makes me feel like a dumbass. Oh, and did I mention I asked her if she was in a relationship before this even happened? Her boyfriend is gay, so she's like a guy in the relationship (in other words, I should've stopped thinking about it right there. She likes Yaoi. She has a gay boyfriend. SHE CONSIDERS HERSELF A GUY. YOU DUMBASS. HOW COULD YOU NOT NOTICE THE SIGNS?!)

But...I feel pretty good about what I did. It got a load off my back. I thought a lot about this on the way back home...

The funny thing is...I really like those two. They were really close friends of mine, so...yeah. I'll see what happens next year.

Though...what if Cheyenne breaks up with...whatever his name was. Or Jadrian takes interest? What do I do then? (Though Cheyenne liking me is very, very unlikely. Mainly because she doesn't know a lot about me, whereas Jadrian does not care.)


Masuda Update: 270+ eggs, no signs of Shiny Mienfoo. This is going to take a while. I think Sydian cursed me.

Hey, I'm proud of you man. You've got more courage than me. I can't remember the last time I told someone I liked them...out of my own free will anyway, haha. That second girl though, wth? I'm sooo confused. She's a she, okay. Girl. She's dating a gay guy? ...Wouldn't that make him...not gay? And then to kick that all off, she thinks she's a guy? I am...so lost. Well uhhh...guess it...makes...some sense...I just...okay, going now.

I did curse you. Want more curses? Soon you'll be crazy like me and do MM in one game, and start checking the grass in another game. YEAH. I have gone to the extreme that is dual-hunting.

Well she's more of a girl with a boyish attitude/personality/whatever, yeah I honestly don't get it either.

You do Double Grass?

I commend you for having the guts to confess your feels. At least it's better then setting back doing nothing. Maybe Jadrian was embarrassed and didn't know what to say at the time. Cheyenne didn't sound me better. Both of them seemed to brush you off with out being to "let you down easy" I don't know if they were not caring about it or didn't take it seriously but that's what it seemed like from their responses. Maybe you should try moving on from both of them. I mean you could always get to know Cheyenne more, and if Jardrian doesn't care not then when will she ever? Personally if I were you I would move on.

Thanks Kenshin. Yeah I'm starting to feel neither is going to pay any attention to me, they're both Juniors now as well and I'm a Sophomore so they'll be busy and stuff, getting ready to leave my High School.

I'll try to move on, after all I have all summer.

Judging from their reaction, they're not worth wasting time on.

Woah, well... that was an interesting read. But at least you pucked up the courage and asked them, which I would never be able to do.

They both seem a little too complicated anyway.