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Writing this entry was actually a spontaneous decision, but sometimes a small thought pops into your head and rapidly grows until it possesses you. When that happens you tend to feel a burning desire to talk about it. Interestingly enough, it's desires that I want to talk about.
I feel like all of us have hidden desires - goals and aspirations that we rarely make mention of, if ever. More often than not, these relate to things we're passionate about and just as often the likelihood of ever achieving these goals or obtaining these dreams is negligible, so they're relegated to our fantasies. Perhaps though, it's this mindset that limits them to that?
Personally, I find that I have a strong desire to contribute to culture. I want to leave something meaningful behind when my time comes, some sort of creative legacy. When people ask me what I want to do for a living, I always say that I want to be a teacher - and I do, I love working with kids - but for years dance has been my passion. The reality of the matter is that it's the former goal that is the most likely to happen. I'm not the greatest of dancers (although I don't think I'm half bad) and the chances of being a success story in the industry are probably lower than the odds of being struck twice by lightning in the exact same place three days in a row. Yet I can't help but fantasise about meeting that dream. In my mind, I often find success as a choreographer and/or coach (which is where my talents truly lie). In my fantasies, I make it just through sheer work, or I win a competition or perhaps I just hit the jackpot in the lottery that I never enter and use money to make it.
It's fun to retreat into such fantasies, but it's a hollow fun. Whilst your dreaming you feel content but sooner or later you have to return to reality and that leaves you feeling empty and unfulfilled. Yet I always do return to my fantasies, because in my imagination I can make all my wildest desires come true. It makes me wonder though, what do other people desperately desire? Am I being selfish thinking only about my own success when the world is falling apart? Does it even matter? More importantly though it makes me wonder how I can make my dreams a reality, how I can finally quench such desires. I hope that in my lifetime I can reach a point where I feel complete and can finally feel satisfaction in my accomplishments so when my time does come I can depart fulfilled and without regret. I hope that each and every one of you can do the same. The truth of it all though, is that our wildest desires will probably never come to fruition outside of our minds and that's quite the sad thought.
I apparently get deeper the closer it is to midnight, thanks to anyone who reads these ramblings.
-gimmepie
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Desires
Writing this entry was actually a spontaneous decision, but sometimes a small thought pops into your head and rapidly grows until it possesses you. When that happens you tend to feel a burning desire to talk about it. Interestingly enough, it's desires that I want to talk about.
I feel like all of us have hidden desires - goals and aspirations that we rarely make mention of, if ever. More often than not, these relate to things we're passionate about and just as often the likelihood of ever achieving these goals or obtaining these dreams is negligible, so they're relegated to our fantasies. Perhaps though, it's this mindset that limits them to that?
Personally, I find that I have a strong desire to contribute to culture. I want to leave something meaningful behind when my time comes, some sort of creative legacy. When people ask me what I want to do for a living, I always say that I want to be a teacher - and I do, I love working with kids - but for years dance has been my passion. The reality of the matter is that it's the former goal that is the most likely to happen. I'm not the greatest of dancers (although I don't think I'm half bad) and the chances of being a success story in the industry are probably lower than the odds of being struck twice by lightning in the exact same place three days in a row. Yet I can't help but fantasise about meeting that dream. In my mind, I often find success as a choreographer and/or coach (which is where my talents truly lie). In my fantasies, I make it just through sheer work, or I win a competition or perhaps I just hit the jackpot in the lottery that I never enter and use money to make it.
It's fun to retreat into such fantasies, but it's a hollow fun. Whilst your dreaming you feel content but sooner or later you have to return to reality and that leaves you feeling empty and unfulfilled. Yet I always do return to my fantasies, because in my imagination I can make all my wildest desires come true. It makes me wonder though, what do other people desperately desire? Am I being selfish thinking only about my own success when the world is falling apart? Does it even matter? More importantly though it makes me wonder how I can make my dreams a reality, how I can finally quench such desires. I hope that in my lifetime I can reach a point where I feel complete and can finally feel satisfaction in my accomplishments so when my time does come I can depart fulfilled and without regret. I hope that each and every one of you can do the same. The truth of it all though, is that our wildest desires will probably never come to fruition outside of our minds and that's quite the sad thought.
I apparently get deeper the closer it is to midnight, thanks to anyone who reads these ramblings.
-gimmepie
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