Conversation Between ZeoStar and VisionofMilotic
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  1. ZeoStar
    2 Days Ago 3:35 PM
    ZeoStar
    Anne Frank is a story I have trouble getting through. Maybe it's something to do with children, but I haven't been able to finish the diary. It's also knowing that her story ends in a concentration camp. I don't even need to describe those places. Even worse knowing that it took place in the 1940's. That's not even ancient history.

    I don't know much about the Salem Witch trials. It could be something to read up on. I have some WW2 movies I could recommend, but maybe you've seen them.

    History is interesting. I take extra non credit courses related to history just because it's fun to learn. Although my interests come and go. I get into many things for a short period of time and lose my fascination abruptly. Even with forums and websites, pokecommunity is one of the very few that has held my interest for over a year.
  2. VisionofMilotic
    3 Days Ago 7:38 PM
    VisionofMilotic
    This is an interesting discovery truly, and it makes Anne Frank's story I think even sadder and that much more complex, if her family's whereabouts were revealed this way, by a desperate man in a lose-lose situation, either you and your family go to a concentration camp, or betray others--who will be condemned to death in your place. I think most people would save themselves, but I think you would probably never be alright after doing something like that. In some of Anne's diary entries she talks about how she feels bad that her friends and neighbors are vanishing, suffering in dehumanizing conditions and being killed, and expresses anger at herself that she has a safe hiding place while this is going on. She feels guilt just for surviving, though she's not causing anyone's suffering, and shouldn't feel that way. I think if you gave the Nazis the names of people to persecute, including a family with children, even if you did it under threat, then you would probably be haunted by what you did. The situation reminds me of the Salem Witch trials, and how people would get accused of witchcraft, and the only way to not get executed was if you gave a false confession to being a witch, and then told the authorities the name of someone new to investigate for witchcraft.

    That was a good read, and different from what I was expecting. Thank you for sharing. I know that you enjoy history, is WWII an era that you are find of reading about?
  3. ZeoStar
    1 Week Ago 1:55 PM
    ZeoStar
    I found this very interesting piece of news. https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-60024228

    I'll share it personally, but I don't feel like making a thread over it.
  4. ZeoStar
    4 Weeks Ago 6:12 PM
    ZeoStar
    I returned from New York.

    It was a good trip. A mix of amazing things and a negative experience.

    Overall a nice trip. I came home and surprised my mother with a minnie mouse pillow.
  5. VisionofMilotic
    4 Weeks Ago 5:39 AM
    VisionofMilotic
    Thank you for this lovely seasons greetings! Your winter holiday card has made my Christmas Eve that much more merry. I hope you have a wonderful trip! Looking forward to catching up with you when you get back. Have yourself some great holiday fun my friend, and let me know what antics you and your family get up too. All great things your way! Sending you a Cyndaquil for a warm and bright Christmas.



    Take some puppy love too for good measure!

  6. ZeoStar
    4 Weeks Ago 8:32 PM
    ZeoStar
    Hello. I will be leaving soon for a brief trip. I would like to wish you a Merry Christmas and a safe new years.

    Here is a small card: https://www.greetingsisland.com/ecard/ppctjo4rmtzc/en
  7. ZeoStar
    November 24th, 2021 3:25 PM
    ZeoStar
    Happy Thanksgiving

    Sending this early because i probably won't be online tomorrow.
  8. ZeoStar
    November 21st, 2021 5:48 PM
    ZeoStar
    It's been a while. I remember taking one of those and scoring an exactly 50%-50% for both introvert and extrovert. If you would like to link a reliable test, I wouldn't mind taking it again and sharing the results.

    I don't speak with many people anymore. I regularly chat with my siblings through messenger and one friend from highschool. To a certain extent it can be lonely. I'm rather close with my younger cousins. My purchase of Brilliant Diamond was more for my younger cousin with Autism. There's a certain enjoyment of watching him comfortably being here getting the chance to play the new pokemon game. It's special and can't be replicated. I'll still enjoy the new game too of course.

    I'm now eligible for a covid booster so at some point this week I'll be calling for an appointment. I can gradually overcome the fear but anxiety never leaves. I always feel a bit paralyzed from these sorts of things. I have thought of trying to practice mindfulness, as my anxiety seems to be constantly focused towards future events.

    When I mentioned feeling like a spoke on a wheel, that's not necessarily a negative thing. I like hanging out under the radar. I stepped out of my shell for a while and had a mediocre run on the social media team. It's likely been forgotten but I feel honored that I was picked. I love being a normal user so my chances of ever sending another application are slim. I do like making threads. They don't gain much traction anymore but it's a fun way to contribute. I'm likely a stranger to most people on here and that's okay too. I like keeping my online presence small, and I can respond to these kinds of messages quicker. I'm aware that I do much better in one on one more intimate conversation. I felt so awkward when I tried to use the discord. As participating would require me to meld myself into someone I'm not.

    It's your choice to drink. I have no hard feelings against anybody who does. I think as people we sometimes mix feeling against something as if it means we must absolutely hate all associated with it. I notice this with religion. There's a strange notion with attacking homosexuality, however christiainity teaches not to cast judgement and to love all. So I've never understood why people appoint themselves into position of "judge and executioner".

    It's always nice talking to you of course. I enjoyed writing this message out.
  9. VisionofMilotic
    November 21st, 2021 5:01 AM
    VisionofMilotic
    And I am excited to accept your request! No worries about any delay my friend. I'm more of the introspective type myself. Do you know your Meyers Briggs personality type? I am infp, for introverted, intuitive, feeling and perceptive. I have a reply to your pm coming, so look out for me. <3

    Relationships with cousins can be very special, my cousins and Erin and Sonya are like the sisters I never had. I'm glad that you and your cousin were able to develop such a warm bond in the time that you were together.

    And cudos that you are gradually overcoming that dislike of needles to just take care of you. It sounds like you have gotten all the shots from flu to covid vaccine, and should have some very solid protection. Nice that you also did manage to get a thank you through to your doc on Facebook.

    That's an interesting way of describing yourself, a spoke in an ever-turning wheel. I wouldn't say your posts are "merely one of many" though, while there may be many people here, the things you write are still posts that get my notice despite others talking too, because you still write personal things that seem honest, from the heart, and I like hearing your perspective because you also sound sober and level-headed even during heavy discussions while others might start coming across as flustered, you feel grounded and I think say things that are wiser than you know, and ask good questions. I can dig though how the dynamics of the forum make it easier to relate than in a large public space, still think those are things about you worth mentioning though.

    Alcohol is kinda neutral to me. I don't go out of my way to buy alcoholic drinks, because there are plenty of other beverages to drink that don't contain alcohol and often taste better and are more affordable. It's not that interesting to me, but if there like a New Year's Eve party and glasses with champagne are being passed around, I can sip it. It's fine, if it's my choice though I would probably get something like apple cider or grape juice. Don't do anything that makes you feel of uncomfortable ever, and if you don't like the taste and how society romanticises drinking and are worried about the long-term effects of drinking too much, especially since you have loved ones who had troubled history with substances, then I think you are making the right choice not to drink, those are all very important reasons to do what you're doing.

    I'm happy to hear about your early Christmas present, that does sound like a delightful little retreat, taking a trip to Sinnoh. I hope you enjoy playing Brilliant Diamond, let me know how your adventure goes!
    -Sam
  10. ZeoStar
    November 20th, 2021 6:58 PM
    ZeoStar
    I sent a request. Sorry for the delay. I went offline for a few days. It's always nice to introspect.
  11. ZeoStar
    November 7th, 2021 8:38 PM
    ZeoStar
    He was one of the warmest souls. I knew him my entire life. Silly me for not mentioning it, but he was a cousin.

    I'm slowly depleting the dislike of needles. I requested a flu shot at my doctors office during the appointment. I did end up sending a thank you through Facebook. I would hope you get a flu shot if available. It's never worth the risk, so please do get one if you have not.

    I don't find expression on here too difficult. I'm a spoke on an ever-turning wheel. My posts are merely one of many among those who are not hesitant in sharing personal things. I would find it courageous standing in front of a crowd and speaking feelings, however on the occasion I come on here and voice an emotion, it's sounded in a noisy choir.

    I'm beginning to hate alcohol and it's glorification. I've tried the slightest amount out of curiosity, but my disdain for it wins over any enjoyment. My mother doesn't drink either. I'm getting Brilliant Diamond as an early Christmas present for myself. It looks like a nice getaway.
  12. VisionofMilotic
    November 6th, 2021 7:22 AM
    VisionofMilotic
    That is so sweet! He sounds like a very warm soul, still remembering to give a hug, even in times like these, where we have become accustomed to maintaining such reserve with one another to be extra safe, but it's still important not to close off our hearts and still find ways of showing spontaneous affection like that sometimes. I like what you have to say about him.

    I should congratulate you too on your driver's permit, that is good news indeed. Did you two meet when you were getting your vaccine and get to know each other on that fateful day, or where you two already close, and decided to take the journey together because both of you disliked needles to support one another. Either way it's cool that both of you, even though neither of you like needles, got vaccinated anyway. I knew you had gotten the shot, but didn't know that needles were something that rubbed you the wrong way, so that was brave I think to go anyway.

    That's also a wonderful and thoughtful thing for him to say to your mother, and I think he's right, offering to make him a plate of food is a considerate thing to do. I would appreciate it if someone did that for me.

    I agree that it's probably best to not be overly familiar with your doctor and give a Facebook friend request, at least at this point, but just dropping them a simple message saying something like, thank you for all your help, you made my doctor's visit a lot easier, would I think be fine, and appreciated if they get to see it. If they they don't catch it, then you still made the effort, but I think they very well might see it :) who knows?

    Yes, I have heard before death described as not seeming real sometimes, especially when it happens unexpectedly like this, sometimes I can even feel numb, and some part of me even feels like they haven't truly left. It definitely isn't fair. I was wondering if you had bought a present for him and never got to give it to him what do you think he might like you do with it if he could see you know? Is there someone else close to him that he might enjoy having his gift? Maybe he would even want you to keep it because of your closeness and to remind you of him? Also there could be a good cause that may be able to use the Christmas present like maybe donating it to program for people like him dealing with alcoholism? Just a few ideas.

    Well I appreciate your willingness to have an intimate conversation like this one with this me, and your openness on this forum. Not everyone would be comfortable talking about a subject this sensitive online, and think it takes courage to express your feelings and share your mind. I'm posting pictures of all your favorite pokémon to stand in solidarity with you.
  13. ZeoStar
    November 5th, 2021 2:25 PM
    ZeoStar
    We always hugged when seeing each-other. He was also the first person to congratulate me when I received my driving permit. We went together for our covid vaccines and bonded over a dislike of needles. He had told my mother she raised a 'kind son'. I think because I simply offered to make him a plate of food.

    I searched my doctor on Facebook and sent a thanks. It'll probably go unseen because it'll get filtered into spam/message requests. I'm not going to friend my doctor because it doesn't seem appropriate for patient/doctor relations. It's off my chest. If my message is seen or not, I felt a quick 'thanks' was necessary.

    It's quite unreal and unfair how quickly somebody can be taken. I didn't even get to give him his special Chirstmas present. It's quite alright. I appreciate the sincerity and thoughtfulness of the message. This grief has bought an odd and strong loneliness. Such is normal for someone we felt connected with.
  14. VisionofMilotic
    November 5th, 2021 11:59 AM
    VisionofMilotic
    It's human to feel such sadness right now to lose someone you loved so suddenly, it's okay to grieve and let all the pain out. Remember also that it isn't your fault, the emotions you feel right now are testament to how much you do care about him. I'm so sorry to hear thay he felt unloved, especially hearing how much you tried to make him feel valued and supported. If it's uncomfortable you don't have to answer this, but it might be nice right to think of some of the wonderful things about your loved one. What are some of the best memories you have of him?

    Your doctor sounds very good, sensitive, helpful, nice and like a pro who knows how to handle difficult situations. Maybe they could continue to be someone you could confide in? I don't think there's a special way to say thank you to a doctor, other than just simply letting them know how much appreciated them, and saying thanks for being there.

    If there's any way that I can help you feel a little better just let me know okay. I'm here now. Sending love your way.
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  15. ZeoStar
    November 4th, 2021 2:20 PM
    ZeoStar
    Hello,

    It's awful. It's like a dark cloud hanging over my head. I can't recall ever feeling this stark sadness. He didn't feel loved. I tried to make him feel loved.

    Random thought but I wish I knew the proper way to say thanks to my doctor. I got the news right before walking into a personal appointment. I told them what happened, and they were both so incredibly understanding and accommodating.