Conversation Between Squirtlenator and Fairy
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  1. Fairy
    March 16th, 2021 4:29 PM
    that's most certainly true! i've got a lot to be proud of and a lot of live for so I know that going back to drugs will never be an option for me -- especially when I have such a great support system with friends, family, and PC. Thanks for the pep talk. <33
  2. Squirtlenator
    March 16th, 2021 4:27 PM
    I think that you're A LOT stronger than you realize. You know first hand what the alternative is, you lived it but, you have things in your life now to keep you looking and moving forward. I believe in you Jo and I know that the temptations will always be there but, you can beat them!
  3. Fairy
    March 16th, 2021 4:08 PM
    haha, blank canvas, I see what you did there :p

    addiction is.. a more complex beast than "normal" mistakes; like getting a speeding ticket or accidentally telling a secret you were supposed to keep. And even though I made a fresh start for myself years ago now, I will forever exist on this plane where I know I could just get high and make my problems go away. It's changed the chemistry of my brain permanently and in no uncertain terms. I dunno, I'm probably not telling you anything you don't already know.. it's just still a struggle and the moment I let my guard down is the moment that "well, maybe one drink would be okay" or "I haven't had a cigarette in 11 years! i'll just get one pack" is the moment I've already begun the cycle all over again. The only rush I get that's nearly as close is being able to help others and spread positivity.

    oof i made this a downer didn't I? ahhh sorry ;w;
  4. Squirtlenator
    March 16th, 2021 3:48 PM
    What's really helped me to get over some of my past faults, mistakes, regrets is remembering that the past is the past. It's done. There's nothing that I can do to change what happened. I can learn from it, so I don't make the same mistakes but, I can't change it. Knowing that is the first step and it puts so much into perspective. The future, on the other hand - and you'll appreciate this - is a blank canvas yet to be determined. It's a fresh start. A clean slate. Learn from the past and apply that knowledge to create a future that you're happy with.
  5. Fairy
    March 16th, 2021 3:34 PM
    Truthfully, my nature is to be humble and wave off your compliments if I'm being honest.. but thank you. It makes me so glad that I could make anyone's day just a little bit better. Not to get all wrapped up in psychology.. but I think it's kinda tough for me to accept positive things about myself when in my head I still feel so close to that young drug addict who brought nothing but negativity to the world rather than enriched it, you know? But doing small favors for people (especially when it involves my art!) and just being pleasant makes my heart full again and that's worth its weight in gold to me. Thank you for your kind words.. it really does mean a lot to me.
  6. Squirtlenator
    March 16th, 2021 3:25 PM
    Not just me. I'm confident that you make a positive impact on every single person that you come into contact with. You ARE a beautiful human being and this world is SO fortunate to have you in it. Much love to you Jo <<<333
  7. Fairy
    March 16th, 2021 3:00 PM
    omg omg omg your gonna make me emotional stooooopppp ;W;

    i'm so glad i could make a positive impact on you though, you don't know how happy that makes me :)
  8. Squirtlenator
    March 16th, 2021 2:58 PM
    I did. It fits so well with the theme that I have going.

    Thank you for welcoming me and being so friendly to me. Thank you for all of your hard work and everything that you do. Thank you for being a beautiful, wonderful, incredible person. Your light and love touch so many lives. Every time I see your name along the bottom, a smile immediately appears on my face. You are synonymous with joy because you bring it where ever you go. Much love and appreciation for you <3
  9. Fairy
    March 16th, 2021 2:47 PM
    not a problem! i figured you'd get a kick out of it n_n; thanks for being such an awesome friend since joining the forum <3
  10. Squirtlenator
    March 16th, 2021 2:46 PM
    That's AWESOME Jo! Thanks SO much. I love it!
  11. Fairy
    March 16th, 2021 2:44 PM
    haha true that!

    hey, I made you something. add this:
    cursor:url(""), auto;
    to the first main block of your flair
  12. Squirtlenator
    March 16th, 2021 2:43 PM
    It doesn't matter to me that you take longer to reach your half post count. I'm just happy that we're tag teaming another VPP together :) <3

    who knows, you may beat me this time ;)
  13. Fairy
    March 16th, 2021 2:33 PM
    haha, well, right up until the point that it takes me like x4 times longer to finish it! but hey, it's not my fault you're a hyper poster!

    i suppose i'll just up my game, hehe
  14. Squirtlenator
    March 16th, 2021 2:13 PM
    :) I really enjoyed raising Pikablu with you and wanted to raise another mon with you. You're a GREAT partner! <3
  15. Fairy
    March 16th, 2021 2:11 PM
    eeeee yay!!! thank you so much! you really know how to pull on my fairy heart strings lmao