Hi Hoshiko!
Hope you are having a good new year. I have seen you around a lot, and always wanted to talk to you. You seem cool.
I just wanted to mention after reading this post here that what you wrote made a lot of sense to me.
https://www.pokecommunity.com/showpost.php?p=9966926&postcount=59
I have anxiety medically. For me sometimes even seeing people I have known for years can make me jittery, even family. Its rare for me to not have any tension. I hate webcams! In the past I have had trouble with friendships and romantic relationships because others didn't understand how I could be friendly one day then avoidant the next. My mom and boyfriend are pretty chill about it though, both of them are so nice. So I'm super fortunate. I'm glad that you also have someone in your life who is patient, understanding and doesn't mind your quirks at all. You and your boyfriend sound like you have something great together!
I hope you are having an awesome weekend and get to relax. I'm here if you ever feeling like shooting me a vm or pm about anything. Mostly everybody calls me Sam!