Conversation Between Commander Saturn and Fairy
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  1. Fairy
    July 11th, 2020 2:18 PM
    Ah, thank you! I'm promise it's not *that* bad but I'd rather not push myself.
  2. Commander Saturn
    July 11th, 2020 1:23 PM
    Commander Saturn
    Sending positive thoughts your way in hopes that you feel better soon!
  3. Commander Saturn
    July 3rd, 2020 8:17 AM
    Commander Saturn
    I'll consider forgiving you, maybe.

    I was in a plethora of those groups but at the point where I would never show my animals, not because they were being mistreated just because it was no one else's business other than my own but I suppose that is with the majority of aspects of my life. I would ask a question here and there, casually, to see other points of views and leave it at that. I believe the only herpers that I kept in contact with were the breeders I had purchased from; most won't say so but I do realise that they enjoy seeing how their projects turned out.

    That sounds quite awful, the severity of your fear. I am glad as well as impressed that you were able to overcome such a mental obstacle. I never had that type of fear towards any animal aside from a Great White Shark, and more specifically the shark from Jaws. Actually, the biggest fear I have now and I know that I will never overcome is animatronics. I believe that is the closest that I can relate to you; I have fainted from something Five Night's at Freddy's related and I will scream like a little girl if I see Freddy, and I full blown tear up as well.

    I hope that you can secure your dream herps one day, as they truly are such fascinating creatures. Though, I think for me personally my favourite part about these animals is that if i were to suddenly not be, they wouldn't be heartbroken about it like a dog might be. Their lack of emotional attachment is ideal for me, so I couldn't imagine a better fit as far as pets go.

    That is such a kind statement; I appreciate that sentiment and I hope so. Wolf Spiders still frighten me, I won't touch one willingly, but I won't ever harm one again if I can help it.
  4. Fairy
    July 2nd, 2020 5:51 PM
    Oh god what an essay I'm so sorry ahhhh
  5. Fairy
    July 2nd, 2020 5:51 PM
    I appreciate you bring patient and understanding with me. Likewise, it's not personal! I just tend to.. not prioritize things appropriately and personal conversations slip away.

    But as for your previous message, I completely agree about your assessment of the herping community! Damn if some of the people aren't the most elitist, 'holier than thou' group of individuals out there. Endless criticisms about "that enclosure is too big/small", "there's not enough/too much humidity", "You're not allowed to handle that!!". It can be very tedious involving oneself in these circles! I personally just love these misunderstood creatures and believe that providing an adequate living arrangement can come in many, many forms. There is no right or wrong answer as long as you and the animal are happy. <3

    I also relate to your passion for arachnids. I was so terrified of them that I wasn't able to walk between two solid, vertical structures outside. Entering doorways, walking between trees, parked cars, all over fear or their webs -- not even the spiders themselves. When confronted with an actual spider, I'd lapse into an irrational panic and not be able to take my eyes off of it. I believed that the only thing worse than a spider you can see is a spider you know is there and can't see. your story about that wolf spider would have had me hyperventilating and passing out at my computer. ..My phobia actually controlled a large portion of my life and kept me from doing things I wanted to do. It got to the point that going outside was a challenge so I decided to try exposure therapy. I educated myself. I learned. And my perception changed entirely! It was the humble jumping spider that first converted me -- I was so charmed by their big eyes and petite bodies! Once I became aware of their behaviors, habitats, and ecology I found my fear was replaced with curiosity. It took about a year but I was able to work myself up to where I am now; loving spiders and bugs, keeping them, admiring them, and generally doing my part to make my home a little nicer for spiders. :)

    It was through the T hobby that i was introduced to the invert community since the two tend to go hand in hand. Again, it was hard for me not to be charmed by reptiles and amphibians despite my fear (though, I was less afraid of snakes). When you pay attention and begin to decode their behavior, you really learn how expressive they can be! And I just love that.. I feel like I'm connecting with something so ancient and primal, you know? I dunno, maybe that doesn't make sense, lol.

    I'm sure that mama wolf spider would forgive you knowing you've come around to being compassionate towards them. <3
  6. Commander Saturn
    July 1st, 2020 7:43 PM
    Commander Saturn
    That suits me fine then actually as I am not a very loquacious person by nature and I will always appreciate a break, with nothing personal towards you or anyone else of course. Take your time, even if you were to respond to me at the earliest next year, then I wouldn't question you at all.
  7. Fairy
    July 1st, 2020 5:34 PM
    Just letting you know that I did read this and I will write a proper response when I have the time to give it the attention it deserves!

    One thing you will learn about me is that I am terrible at getting back to people in a timely manor. Please forgive me!
  8. Commander Saturn
    June 29th, 2020 10:28 PM
    Commander Saturn
    I do not think that you would regret it, if you ended up with a herd of blue tarantulas, to be fair. I actually don't dabble in the breeding scene; that is a bit more responsibility than I am up for. Many talents? Mayhaps though, I just really do not see a reason to waste such pleasant skills and I would not kill an animal just for it's skin alone. I wouldn't go so far to say I am a proper handler though, experienced yes, but I do a lot of things different than most herp snoots would care to agree with. I have one snake that travels with me wherever I go, to give an instance. I actually do not associate with herp or invert groups because of how judgmental and triggered most can become. It's rare for me to see a group, aside from canine circles, that are so focused on telling others what to do with their own purchases. I would understand if someone were putting their animals in danger, but some of the things that they choose to nitpick are nigh on ridiculous.

    I may try to make an animal folder on here tomorrow though I usually do not show photos of my animals. I don't have any recent photos of the spiders, mainly because they do not fancy being handled and I prefer to give them space. The snakes on the other hand are always ready to come out of their enclosures.

    I have seen that morph actually, and they are such impressive creatures. I now wonder if the person I was in contact a few years back managed to breed such a creature. Corn snakes are his forte, but Hognose were his passion.

    I believe what inspired my interest in snakes was the same notion that I had with the spiders, fear. I am a person that enjoys intense feelings, no matter what they are, and fear has raw potency in such a regard. I was always quite curious of things that frighten me, and I am fortunate that the list of is quite lengthy. I also remember being quite young, and seeing a wolf spider that was enormous run across our bare floor. I had company over, and wanted to show off so of course I grabbed the largest book I could find and tossed it on top of the creature. After picking up the book and to my, and everyone else's, horror hundreds of spiderlings ran off in every direction. There were so many that our white marble flooring looked black for an unreasonable amount of time. That incident stuck with me, and I was embarrassed because of it. I didn't know why or when I had decided that a living creature should die to my incompetence and petty fears; it was one of the most ignorant actions I have taken to this day.

    And yourself then? What ignited your passion for these misunderstood creatures?
  9. Fairy
    June 29th, 2020 9:16 PM
    Haha, that’s precisely the motivation I need to end up with more blue tarantulas than I can count! But really, that is the coolest thing I’ve heard all day. I’m genuinely impressed, I didn’t expect to find a proper snake handler on PC lol. Do you do any breeding with your pythons? It’s great to hear that you do something with the skins too — you’re really a man of many talents, huh?

    They sound like a gorgeous bunch! I’d love to see pictures some day. Gaboon Vipers (and any hot really) are way out of my league but damn if they’re not some of the most wicked awesome little beasties! I love their attitude, I love their disposition, and they’ve got some of the most amazing scale patterns I’ve seen next to the eastern Diamondback. Do send some love to your dear pets on my behalf!

    Lmao, wow, you hit the nail on the head! Hognose are a personal favorite of mine and I ADORE their little faces and how they’ll flatten to look like tiny cobras! (´▽`ʃƪ)♡ In fact, if I wasn’t getting ready to move in the very near future, I’d already have one. Have you seen the Arctic Superconda morph? An absolutely stellar specimen of a snake!

    What inspired you to get into snakes? Were you motivated to overcome a fear like with T’s or did you always like them?
  10. Commander Saturn
    June 29th, 2020 6:22 AM
    Commander Saturn
    Likewise! Looking back, I probably purchased the Irminia because I did anticipate it to bite me. I do remember thinking that I would never cease my fear of spiders unless I was bitten by one. As soon as I took the lid off, and this was a fully grown female mind you because I apparently go hard or go home, she darted out with lightning haste. I did eventually manage to secure her but not before she planted several wounds into my hand. Those are excellent species and, of course, I give awful advice but I feel you should just go with the one you want most. The worst that it will do is bite you. I am not sure actually, I am fond of vivid green spiders that enjoy plants so mayhaps a Theridion grallator. In reality I would probably just stick to Irminias; I enjoy difficult animals. A hunksman, am I correct? That would be truly a fine specimen to own.

    I specialise in larger species and own several reticulated, Burmese and Blood pythons. I used to deal with Boas but I moved away from them to focus on pythons. Then, I adopted several hots, a few Monocled Cobra and a Gaboon Viper, from a shoddy pet store that went out of business and abandoned them. Those four hots were quite temperamental when I first secured them but after ridding them of their mite infection, they have calmed down significantly. I do not really focus on morphs too much but my pride and joy are my Granite Burmese Pythons; I absolutely adore their pattern and once they pass I shall utilise their skin for boots.

    That is quite an admirable thing to wish to do and I recommend that highly, adopting such a snake. I feel like a Hognose would fit you well, specifically an Anaconda morph.
  11. Fairy
    June 29th, 2020 5:28 AM
    So glad I found someone who appreciate inverts. <3 The Suntiger is such a gorgeous T! They can definitely be quite spicy, I hear. :) Those are pretty intermediate/advanced species -- I'm really impressed! I have my heart set on a few different species but the Brachypelma emilia, Poecilotheria regalis, and the GBB are some personal favorites. Though truthfully I'm probably gonna end up with a G. rosea like all first-time owners lol. If you were to own a true spider, what kind would you get? I don't think I'd be able to turn away a Huntsman if I found one, haha.

    Gasp! What kind of snakes do you have? Any neat morphs? Tell me everything! I'm currently not raising any snakes but I've done my share of raising Corn snakes in the past. I'd love to rescue a Spider ball python or one with some kind of disability some day, give it a proper loving home. <3 Would be thrilled to add a Leopard Gecko to the family too!
  12. Commander Saturn
    June 29th, 2020 2:10 AM
    Commander Saturn
    No bother at all. I have the original P. irminia (Suntiger) I purchased, the one that I dubbed as an aggressive lady. I also now own a Grammostola pulchra (Brazilian Black). I am not certain if I will purchase another, as I am now over my fear of and that was my reason for purchasing them to begin with. I am more of a snake keeper. Though, if I did, I would purchase another P. Irminia as I find their tense disposition and colour quite charming. I absolutely adore jumpers though, and I always have to hold myself back from attempting to capture one when I do see them.
  13. Fairy
    June 29th, 2020 1:59 AM

    What kind of spiders do you own? Right now I have a little Zebra jumper that I’m keeping. Wild caught, unsexed, but I suspect male. Do you have plans on getting another tarantula? If so, what species?

    Sorry to bombard you with questions but it’s not common to find Pokémon fans in the hobby lol.