I am not trying to form a relationship. I am not indeed "strong" and don't see myself as it.
Internet is not a way to form a relationship in any way for me, I prefer the real world for that.
So I don't really know how to answer to your last question.
Hmm... what do you mean (about "just the way you are") ? I'd take it so that you're talking about acting "demure" (I wonder if that word even makes sense here..) when you're trying to get in touch with people you don't know yet?
That's more than natural I think, especially if you don't see yourself as a strong person. I don't see myself being strong either although I'm pretty good at forming new relationships these days.
Sure, I understand. And you not being present hasn't disturbed me at all actually. As a matter of fact, I don't remember if I should be "annoyed" (or maybe a better word is "surprised") about you being gone since I don't remember what I had been discussing with you the last time. I guess it had something to do with Dark Energy in the thread? I don't know.
Anyway, I used to listen to people more than I do today, and wanted to please everybody which can especially be seen in DE. However, I have gotten rid off being like that and have started to be more selfish. Not in a bad way though!
So far, you probably didn't see why this would have anything to do with you (and I had to re-think myself "Why am I typing this?"), but I was actually referring to what you said about you being away and "hope you haven't disturbed me" or something similar.
There are lots of things in life I find more important than Dark Energy which is only a game, and nothing more. Sometimes I find myself thinking "I should really stop slacking off and continue this. Everybody is counting on me." while on the other hand (and more often), I just think "Why should I care about others' feelings... I have my own life to live."
So you being away hasn't disturbed me at all. (And as you can see, my life definitely doesn't revolve around DE. It did around two years ago or so, but I have changed a lot since then. I guess that has slowed the progress as well..)
Well, about my connection to the Net, let's just say I had economical and technical difficulties. Also, like you, I had some other priorities in life, so it also made the situation as it is. But well, at least I wanted you to know. I am still in inconsistancy right there, so I hope it won't disturb you if I don't appear in a long time.
What's been going on that makes it so difficult to access Internet?
Anyway, I haven't been doing much with DE due to having lots of schoolwork and other activities in real life. So the hack hasn't gotten far since beta 4 was released in the summer. I guess the only real update I have given out since was a video about a script that was re-made since beta 4.
I have some trouble getting a consistant way of connecting the Internet, so I couldn't read or respond to you in a long time. If I am able to I am still following the developement process of Dark energy.
Just wanted to say that try to pick up something nice to say about Grape as well. I'm not saying your post was negative, rather informative and good. But I just heard of personal life issues related to 80C, he needs support rather than criticism right now.