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August 17th, 2009 10:59 AMVallanderchange is inevitable in any form of life. i sometimes regret that im not the same as i was. i guess i was forced to grow up faster and be strong.
yeah my teacher tried to recruit me for choir but i really just didnt want to do it :P
lol well what if you were your own debate team? ^_^.
...i have a feeling that you had a lot of stressful problems when you were younger?
do you mind if i ask why? (to that whole third paragraph)
nah im just a natural strategist. theres places in conquer that can be sat upon by a character where the monster cant hit it. so i sit my mage up there and macro spells on the monster and tank it with my warrior ^_^. simple but it works well. helps my teammates level up too when the monster will only attack me so my lvl 20 something friends can beat upa lvl 89 monster without much problem :)
i gotta agree about the quests. i enjoy taking them on and then finishing that day. unless of course its a time sensitive event that doesnt start for a day or two then lasts awhile lol.
and i also love flying lol.
self-justification unfortunately, dominates a lot of people's minds. they will do whatever they want or what they deem necessary as long as it serves their own purpose.
i cant personally justify ever taking a life. i think there could possibly be a circumstance where you would be forced to do something like that, in which case we would just have to live with the burden of our sin. i personally know that i could take the life of another if it was for protecting someone very important to me. and even then it would only be if i had no other choice for our survival.
and i agree with your science statement. people seem to think that science can prove everything. like how they think that homosexuality can be defined in a set of genes. now i mean really? has it REALLY come to that? i still dont understand why people have such trouble with accepting homosexual/bisexual/transgendered people. honestly if two men or two women want to get married i think they deserve the same chance to be as miserable as the rest of us ;) lol.
Quote:It seems pretty obvious that you believe it is entirely possible for there to be other worlds and such out there. So what's your veiw on ESP, psycic powers, that kind of thing? Just curious.
well... thats honestly something i havent discussed with alot of people, i guess you could say out of fear. hmm... i suppose i could send you a PM about it. lol lets just move this whole convo to PM because this is taking up lots of page space and PMs might be easier for this :P -
August 17th, 2009 10:20 AMKaylee Krysteenah FynchAnd, of course, I change slowly, over time, so by the time I would notice there was any progress on whatever "goals" I for some reason had, I'd have already given up on them due to boredom and lack of progress.
The only extra-curricular thing I did was choir, which was also a class, so I'm not sure I count it. All that other stuff, all it does is get you too busy to have time to think. All the debates I ever did were in Social Sudies/history classes. But it was good times. Besides, I wouldn't want to be on a team to debate, as you might imagine. ^_~
Well, when you're puninshed for failing when you try your hardest, and are often told by someone that they will do something only for them to continually forget... Well, that doesn't help build trust. Doesn't help when as a little kid you were often misunderstood... And I have at least two friends from when I was in elementary school who just deserted me for different reasons. One because everyone was playing tag, and I couldn't, and the other because two new younger kids moved in nearby, and they could run around outside with her. So yeah. I have trust issues.
^^ You must have a lot of time on your hands to learn to blay so well. Myself I just play to have a good time; there's a blend of serious and casual to how I play that I don't think most people would like. I am, for exemple, serious about finishing my quests; I like to finish the same day, so when I take it, it's because I plan on doing it. But I hate to feel rushed, too, and if you want something doen right sometimes you need to spend a little more time on it.
I don't really remember how I got Perfect World. Otherwise I'd tell you. I played another MMO for a while, but the graphics were cartoony and you were always on the ground. I was stunned by the graphics you can have in PWI, and I love being able to fly (I can't stress that one enough: I love flying). I'm on the only PvP server, because that's the server my brother was on, and he wanted me to play on it too. I don't play that often, though.
Well, it comes back to the balance again. I mean, say, when is it okay to kill someone, for example? My own belief being it is understandable (but still not exactly right) in defense of your own life, or the life of someone you love more than anything, but even at that, you should try to avoid it if it is possible - knocking them unconsious and then getting the heck out of there is preferable. Because otherwise, if you live by self-justification, we would probably all live like animals.
*nods* The past gives us a good idea of what is probable, but it can't prove anything. In essence, nothing can truly be proved, because it's all belief. It's my personal joke on the scientists, that their own method proves that they can have no proof - because, for something to be proven, there has to be only one variable (or whatever it was called again ^^") and the rest have to be constants. But, the human mind is not a constant, thus, there's always two variables in an experiment, thus, there is no proof.
Sorry. I just love showing that science is as much belief as anything else, because scientists have a tendency to overvalue their methods.
It seems pretty obvious that you believe it is entirely possible for there to be other worlds and such out there. So what's your veiw on ESP, psycic powers, that kind of thing? Just curious. -
August 17th, 2009 8:54 AMVallanderyes and speaking within technicalities, tomorrow never truly comes.
live in the present
remember the past
and fear not the future, for it doesnt exist and never shall;
there is only now...
yeah i love debates lol. i was thinking about joining my school's speech and debate team. my teacher for it mr. kintigh made a great quote about it in the year book:
"We do for fun, what most people fear more than death :P"
^^love that^^ :D
yeah for the trust thing i used to be like that. like i said before i was never really sure of what i was supposed to do or where i was supposed to go.
but now i realize there's nothing left but to take everyday with pride and give everything my all even if i think i might fail. because thats the good thing about this life, we usually get second chances ;)
and if you joined my group: lol dont worry i always make sure to go at the pace of my other members and tend to know how they are and what their general tendencies and capabilities are. (also i've gotten quite skilled at piloting two characters at once, my Warrior "Cress", and my fire tao (the offensive "wizards" of the game) "Genesis")
you play perfect world? i've been looking for a way to get it but i couldnt find a real way to download it even on the site (maybe im just stupid and missed something lol) because i need a new mmo to play since im bored and cant run conquer on this computer (of course then i might not be able to handle running PWI either but im willing to try lol)
well maybe if i can get on and level up, i can show you how good of a team leader i am ^_^.
(and for the record conquer is free2play lol it just runs off of special item purchases and donations )
and yeah we do think alot alike dont we ^_^. thats good...
its good having someone to connect to and share thoughts with :) (dont worry i mean that as innocently as possible ;))
Quote (again lol):You know, if reality is based on belief (which I think is what we're both getting at), then it's hard to say if things which are usually believed made up, aren't actually real somewhere, because someone, or someones, might believe in them. It's also hard to define the term "insane". That word, "insane", it seems to me is exactly like the word "abnormal". There is no normal, and there is no sane. It's all just averages: the average way of being, and the average way of thinking. It's true that some extreme ways of thinking can be harmful, but that's true whether the person thinking that way is considered insane or not.
^^finally someone else who gets it^^
yes that is absolutely true ^_^. the world operates on averages and statistics such as this, but is really based upon perception. how you perceive the world is the total difference between good and bad, etc.
for example someone could do something bad, but for what they consider to be the right reasons. and you cant blame them for it because they followed only what THEY thought was right. the opposite holds true if somebody does something good for the wrong reasons, does that make the action necessarily bad?
like if someone starts an important charity simply for recognition, is it really a bad thing? it benefits a group of people, but is a hit upon the moral psyche.
lol i actually did a long paper on "morality" for a psychology class. unfortunately i dont have the file anymore since my computer was wiped otherwise i'd show it to you :\
as for your supposed "insane" belief lol,
i believe in things sometimes because its ludicrous to believe so. based upon the premise that "stranger things have happened".
i also believe that we can never truly know if something can or cannot happen. Hume teaches us that no matter how many times you drop a stone and it falls to the floor, you can't truly know what will happen next. it may fall to the floor, but then again, it may float to the ceiling. Past experience can never prove the future.
we are all entitled to our own beliefs and to pursue them as WE see fit. and anyone who stands in the way of that should be ready to either stop us entirely or be prepared to move aside so we can continue.
as for the fire hehe yeah thats one of those times that the "hard headed southern boy" in me really comes out lol.
its always really good talking to you. it kinda puts my mind at ease to know im not alone in a sense ^_^. -
August 16th, 2009 11:13 PMKaylee Krysteenah FynchI see what you mean. Yes, that's how I think. It just doesn't work to worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will do whatever it wants to. So you just live with what you have, and try to be happy as long as you can. ^^
Well, speaking in front of people, is different than speaking to them. Just like speaking to one other person is different than speaking to five. I can make a speach, if I'm prepared and feeling confident about what I will say. (My favorite thing in fromt of a class, though, had to be debates... :D)
I'm not a leader, because I'm bad at making decisions. And you hit spot on; I have serious trust issues. Not only do I have issues trusting others, but also myself. I have issues working in groups because I feel either they will fail me, or I will fail them. I live in the moment, but when I do something, I give 110% to get it right.
Of course, that can get exhausting, and I have a tendency to work in fits and starts because of that. I'll work very hard, and then ignore what I was doing for a while, and do something else. The problem with that, is that sometimes when I come back, I've emotionally changed enough, or gotten so much better at whatever it was, that the thing I was making seems awful or poorly done, and I can't finish it at all.
Oh, gosh, here we go. This is my group paranoia in MMOs talking, so, erm... What I think would happen if I joined your group:
I wouldn't be able to keep up, or I'd miss a vital cast, or I'd pretty much just be carry-on luggage.
Anyways, I play a different MMO, and I only play free games online anyway. What I play is Perfect World International (which I like because you can fly ^w^) and I'm only level 20 (partially due to my extreme teamwork issues).
As for who I can trust, I might have you beat. I only have two. And one of them I'm only half sure of. The other... is far away from me right now.
It seems like you and I think a lot alike.
You know, if reality is based on belief (which I think is what we're both getting at), then it's hard to say if things which are usually believed made up, aren't actually real somewhere, because someone, or someones, might believe in them. It's also hard to define the term "insane". That word, "insane", it seems to me is exactly like the word "abnormal". There is no normal, and there is no sane. It's all just averages: the average way of being, and the average way of thinking. It's true that some extreme ways of thinking can be harmful, but that's true whether the person thinking that way is considered insane or not.
I'm rather flattered that you felt the need to quote me. I'm just stating what I've come to believe after the things I've been through and what I've learned. I actually believe in some things that others might term "insane" myself, though I keep them to myself, because it hurts no-one that I believe that way. I'm the type of person who will believe in what I can't see. I wasn't always. But that was because I got hurt.
It was a stupid little incident, when I found out that instead of seeing Santa Claus every year, it really was just my dad, just like the other kids said, even though I argued my cause so well. But it made me believe for a while that there was nothing else out there but God, and sometimes I half-doubted that.
But I always wanted to believe, and I sometimes got myself into some interesting situations because of it. Finally, I was convinced once again that there's more out there than what we can see - but this time, I'm older, I know more, and I know that just because those things might be out there, doesn't mean they're all good, or that life can be a fairytale again like I thought it was when I was a girl.
You got burned, and it still didn't teach you to be careful? That's the mentality I don't get. XD
Of course, I'm paranoid about getting hurt, too. I guess I'm just paranoid about a lot of things. -
August 16th, 2009 8:53 PMVallanderoh sorry lol forgot to specify :P my friend colleen. i met her in Conquer and actually was dating her for awhile (yes i risked meeting her in real life since we were both in florida at the time) and ill have to admit i was happy for once ^_^. even though she was 23 (i was 16 at the time lol) and she had a five yr old daughter. (i know it sounds like i've got some serious issues there but honestly it surprisingly worked for awhile) we both taught each other a lot about life. i used to be the kind who was always worrying about where i would be going or what was going to happen next...
one day i finally just said to her "How can i walk a path that i can't even see?..."
and bless her heart she just smiled and said "Then don't. Kick off your shoes and walk in the grass with me."
i know it sounds corny but from then on i had a newfound respect for life in general, instead of always worrying about my own future.
heh i never used to be much of a public speaker either.
of course i guess i had to take up a leadership role with some things in my life. even online i'm often the assistant guild master or the leader of my PKKers. we dont have an official guild yet because i dont have the money lol.i dont think i could abandon this now that i've started though. it feels good to help the newer players enjoy the world without worry of PKers taking away their hard-earned items and exp.
i guess that's what makes it worth it. i think there's only been a couple of times where i got too far out of hand and ended up in the game's jail, which was full of PKers that just sit and battle each other. so i got to fend for myself for a few hours until i could leave, and now i always leave my PK mode on "Capture" (wont let you PK unless someone nearby's name is flashing due to attacking a player)
well if you're the healer kind, we could team up in Conquer fairly easily, since i'm always watching out for my team mates ;) heck i'd probably even end up healing you a couple times :P
maybe trust is just something you have to work on with people?
honestly i'm not very trusting either. theres only 3 people in this world that i could say i trust to tell everything to and would trust my life with.
as for reality, unfortunately existence is, in itself, its own paradox.
for example, "I think therefore I am"
if we exist due to our own skepticism, how does a world exist?
we could go so far as to say that i feel the world, i am a part of it.
i am the world and the world is me, therefore you are the world as well, and we are all a part of each other.
Our desire, our strength of will, to be here is what justifies our existence i think.
Quote:Basically, if you like who you are, then you can't (reasonably) complain about the things that happen to you, no matter how bad they are. Yet, as a sensitive person, I still feel bad when bad things happen to people (especially those I love), which I guess is one of those unsolvable paradoxes. Because, after all, if you like who they are, you can't reasonably want to change their past; but if you love them, you want to keep them from being hurt.
i dont think i've ever seen anybody put it quite as well as you just did ^_^.
a desire to protect the ones we love is a natural instict based off of a powerful emotion that nobody can explain. it is that purpose that drives me to do some of the things i do (like when i learned multiple swordfighting styles years ago)
and its like i said, in order for us to learn and to feel things, we have to have this world with both negative, and positive emotions and feelings.
love, hate, despair, joy, friendship, betrayal, admiration, hope...
all the feelings that we have carved deep into this world are carried with us on our shoulders.
its what propels us to move forward along the path, or into the grass ;) wherever we choose.
fire is something that's always fascinated me. i've held my hand in fire, lit a fireball within my hand (its a neat trick i learned in chemistry lol) thrown said fireball lol xD
my face has felt the touch of flame when i was fighting once and the air from the staves blew one of the candles towards me and grazed my face :P not very pleasant i might add :) -
August 16th, 2009 11:25 AMKaylee Krysteenah Fyncho.O Another like... who? What? Huh? What's that supposed to mean? XD
Well, I'm a shy type of person who generally doesn't like fighting. But each person has their role in society, so it's good that we're all different. I actually admire what you took as an MMO job. Kind of like the MMO police, in a sence. A sad job, but I see it as kind of noble.
I don't really play MMOs very much. I've never been good at speaking up or working in groups, and when many people are speaking, I'm the one near the back who says nothing at all, just listens. But you need teamwork a lot in MMOs, especially if you have the personality and preference to be a healer, like me. But I don't trust the group to keep me safe, even if I managed to get in one. And I'm sure, with my luck and my reflexes, I'd manage to miss an important heal and be rounded on by the whole group. Not to mention I hate losing.
I rather play one-player games where I only have to rely on myself, and no-one else is relying on me. On Oblivion, I also hate missions where you have to fight with a partner or two, because it's hard to keep them alive, and still fight.
Yeah. I see each of these things as their own "world"; whether or not a world like it exists in reality (and one could argue, as to what is real and what "reality" is...) that each world is - if it is really only imaginary - still based on the reality we know, and the further you let yourself understand it, if you had an open mind, you would see a reality somewhat like our own. And yes, to the characters, it really is a real world. Authors especially need to remember that, but RPG creators should too. That's why I don't like it when games remind you that they are games. I like to let myself be absorbed into the story, and you can't do that when there's too much reminding you that you aren't there, and this isn't "real".
In Oblivion, I choose marketing because it's more or less peaceful. The money is very useful at first, and when it isn't, it's just because you've made so much that you've bought all the expensive stuff already. But when I play MMOs, I'm too shy to sell to player characters, so I always sell to NPCs even though I get less money that way.
As long as you don't go overboard with death and killing, yes, some can and maybe even should be in a good story. If nothing else, just because it does happen. And it causes a lot of drama for the story. But as a person who writes bits of stories as a hobby, I have to admit that once I've put in hours of characterization, I wouldn't really be able to kill the character 99-100% of the time. So maybe I'm just to nice to write stories, I don't know.
The balance, yes. Everything is a balance, and so few people take the time to actually think about their life and the things that happen and whatever else... XD
Basically, if you like who you are, then you can't (reasonably) complain about the things that happen to you, no matter how bad they are. Yet, as a sensitive person, I still feel bad when bad things happen to people (especially those I love), which I guess is one of those unsolvable paradoxes. Because, after all, if you like who they are, you can't reasonably want to change their past; but if you love them, you want to keep them from being hurt.
So many people these days, just live like animals. How can they live that way? I don't understand...
Anyway, I think I may have a phobia to fire. It's that bad. I can't light a lighter; I don't know about matches, but I wouldn't want to try. I don't even like those little flames to be within a foot of me. When I used to light one of the burners on our gas stove, I had to stand back because the thing that ignited it didn't always work right away, so I was afraid that more of the gas would catch fire at first and I'd get burned. Now I can't light it at all because I'd have to do it with a match or something - the thing that ignites it finally just gave out. I'm okay with candles - though I don't think I could light one - as long as the flame is about six inches or more away from me. I'm more scared of flames that someone is holding, or flames that are just being lit, than I am of flames that are contentedly just burning on something, not going anywhere.
I haven't been diagnosed or anything, but I definitely think I'm pyrophobic. ^_~ -
August 15th, 2009 2:21 PMVallanderwell i actually agree with that too. i think i was looking for more of a mature and slightly darker version of pokemon, like if it was the real world meets final fantasy perhaps? (not sure if that makes total sense but oh well)
huh. so there is another like her.
i learned the same way and now in conquer online (an mmorpg that i play)
i still feel bad when i'm forced to PK someone ( i dont do it senselessly im a PKK: a Player Killer Killer) i try to protect the newer players and make money at it as well, but i still feel bad when they go and drop their stuff and i take it while they float around as a ghost :(
basically what you're trying to say and the same thing i believe is that:
Virtual Reality is reality all the same. when you play an RPG or something, that world is real from your characters eyes. we live in the world as they do, so therefore it is, in a sense, real...
huh can't say im much of a marketer, i'm mostly just an information specialist, and a mercenary PKK
i provide information to guilds for example, on whats going on in our world.
and i explained above, but myself and my guild that follows are PKKers who take on jobs to take out PKs who have bounties out or protect newbie players while they level, or we help them level as well ^_^.
and yes, you're right, death is sad, no matter how you write it... but that doesnt necessarily mean it has to be the prevailing wind to our stories that we write, both online, and off..
and i suppose you're right. a sense of danger is what keeps it exciting. its kind of a balance factor, and if that factor isnt there, its not exciting. like life for example, if there weren't anybody "bad" committing crimes, killing, doing wrongs... life just wouldn't be interesting or worth living, y'know?
i prefer being in a world where you can be hurt, and fall down, because it makes it that much harder and that much more worthwhile to get back up and smile upon the past, both the good and the bad parts. i think we all need to live in a world like that. unfortunately not many people like respect the balance of the world or understand it. they just scurry about, making all sorts of mistakes, and cant face them, so they make more mistakes trying to correct it.
and i am fascinated by fire lol. -
August 14th, 2009 3:55 PMKaylee Krysteenah FynchBeing the sensitive and naive type I am, I do want to avoid any actual deaths, and that is one of the things I actually like about Pokémon. While they do make it clear that death happens, they don't actually make you have to watch it or anything.
After all, I'm the kind of person who will actually be upset if one of the charaters in a story dies, and maybe even cry about it. Even though it's "just a story" or "just a game", to me, in one sense or another, they're still people. Especially the more characterization they have.
For example, I actually feel bad on the game Oblivion for killing people who can actually talk to you. Everything else, I figure, is just battle-fodder. It's there for you to kill it. But if it can talk to you, I just can't think of it that way. (I'm actually the person who loves merchanting things much more than the bloodfest. My favorite trick is to be a merchant and alchemist, buying cheap ingredients, making them into potions, and then selling the potions for more than the ingredients cost...)
I don't play games to kill. I play games to collect things, level up, and feel a general sense of accomplishment. Death is sad, no matter how you write it.
Part of the problem with the Pokémon games is that you can't feel the sense of danger. Even if you know the main character's going to live, when you look at the way things are only now in the story, you should feel like the characters are in danger. It's a balance between your story being too grim and being too ridiculously fairy tale. That's how I see it.
I realize that that's just me, and that a lot of people are for some reason fascinated by death (just like some people are fascinated by fire - I'm paranoid about fire, myself...). But when I make my game, in the end, it's not umpteen fans that I'm making it for. I'm making it for me, and for my vision of how it should be. -
August 14th, 2009 6:32 AMVallanderyeah thats true :\
thats why i wanted to make a more mature game with my hack azure blaze. like maybe somebody ACTUALLY DIES lol. i know there was stuff in pokemon like the towers in lavender town, mt. pyre, etc., but it's not like you ever actually SEE anybody get ganked lol.
except in the very first movie where ash runs in between mew/two and gets killed (petrified but whatever) and gets brought back. thats about it i think? -
August 13th, 2009 8:43 PMKaylee Krysteenah FynchThe only childish thing about Pokémon is in how people choose to approach it - and, from what I hear, (at least in the first season) even the anime had guns and stuff, but they were cut out for the american release because the americans were aiming it at children. I wonder if they've realized that the people who are making them the most money are the diehard older fans... XD
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August 12th, 2009 8:17 PMVallanderlol didnt think about that :P
no it doesnt disappear! lol i just dont pay attention i guess :P
i never go to people's profiles anyway i just click on view convo from my page xD
hah thats cool that you still like pokemon ^_^. in my opinion the games arent childish, just the anime.
lol i know i was just making a statement of fact. ;) -
August 12th, 2009 10:34 AMKaylee Krysteenah FynchHow old am I? *cough* *points at the statistics in my profile*
Or does that suddenly disappear every time you load my profile (^_~)?
If so I'm 23. (Well, even if it doesn't, but whatever :P)
Actually I turn 24 on September 6th.
And I STILL like Pokémon. lolz
And whether you're snuggly or not, I figure that's none of my business. ^_~ -
August 11th, 2009 8:23 PMVallanderhaha lol. sorry about that didnt mean to be that flirty :P
didnt mean to make ya uncomfortable if i did *bows*
how old are you anyway? (if you dont mind my askin)
......and regardless im still awesomely snuggly :P -
August 11th, 2009 1:04 PMKaylee Krysteenah FynchWell, I am not sleeping on you! o_O
^^I"m taken. :D
Sorry, but I just had to say it... XD -
August 11th, 2009 10:55 AMVallanderyep i love the smell and sound of rain.
oh ya lol i forgot :P
oh the tempurpedic? i love those lol wish i had one :P of course my bed is pretty comfy too ^_^.
as for snuggly surfaces, i have it on good authority that im like a teddy bear lolz xD
^Random fact of the day lol^

