Yes, it is.
Looks like you lurv him. Does he feels the same? Don't use the term friends with "benefits" anymore. Someone may mistake the meaning.
Yes, rejection could kill you.
Eh? e3e I don't know..I just..don't know. I like it and I'm used to it with him we're like friends with 'benefits' and when we go camping together we always sleep next to eachother 'cause I get scared in the night and darkness <~>