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February 6th, 2019 1:58 AMHomeskulled KidSounds horrible. It's a shame that you had to go through all of that, but you're getting better, right? That's the main thing, as well as keeping out of the mental hospitals and all that. And I don't mind personal talks.
Sometimes I feel like there's something a bit wrong with me. A slice of psychosis under the skin. Like, I have the potential to do something horrible, because all it would take is one slip and then you've skidded down to the bottom and there's no light anymore, and chasing it is painful and traumatic because you'd be shamming normalcy to the ones you love, while all the time you're just shuddering into this void you've created. I get this feeling a lot at night. During the day, I'm perfectly fine. It must be vampiric paranoia or something.
I know! How about the war veteran's trauma has left a fracture in his mind, and all of these weird twisted personifications of his ordeals are escaping into the real world as twisted black beasts that eat/control/kill people? And the girl can help him stop them!
... but it's quite wacky and I'd understand if you'd rather go with something more tame, lmao. -
February 5th, 2019 4:01 PMstarseed galaxy auticornHm... I don't know what it would be called, but the whole thing does sound familiar. Meh... I take pills because it's the only thing that works for me. I mean, the only thing I've found to help my bouts of anxiety is Kellin Quinn/SWS. Sometimes hugging the plush I associate him with helps as well. My anxiety still has days, especially while I'm still on my meds and such. Without the aid of meds, I'd probably end up in a mental hospital for self-harm again (I've self-harmed in the past, but I've never been to a mental ward or anything because it was usually just minor tack scrapes). I've been clean for months, mind you. My anxiety gets so bad that on a daily basis, I have to take abilify... which is an anti-psychotic. My brain goes completely and utterly out of balance due to anxiety. It used to cause me to become severely depressed... and I had a habit of hitting my head a lot. Like, I would hit my hand against my head just to try and "stop" the bad thoughts and the constant disabling anxiety all the time. I take a lot of meds that have anti-anxiety components in them to improve it even just a little more.
Sorry... didn't mean to get personal there. D: Honestly, I'm not all that afraid to discuss my experiences anymore. It's nothing for me to feel ashamed of or anything. But yeah... anyway, I had an idea about writing an MC with Osteoarthritis (a bad right knee/bad left ankle) and autism. I don't know if I can find a story that would be able to fit those needs though, at least not the OA. I might just keep figuring out my story with my Iraq War veteran with a bad war injury (his leg) and the MC he falls for. It's a really sweet story, but I'm not really sure where I want to go with it. D: -
February 5th, 2019 8:43 AMHomeskulled KidAh, colouring books! They're so flipping excellent, and it makes a good change from having the hassle of doing the outlines yourself and worrying whether that eye is level with the other one, and blah blah blah. The only colouring book I've got is, ahem, of fairies, so I make do. It's so fun doing gradient effects with pencils and adding sheen in weird places.
And I'm jealous. Barely eaten a thing all day, and rice can't come soon enough. The joys of simple eating, aahh...
... but today I had a massive episode of something. I was in a car and suddenly my weird, surreal sensation trebled and I felt completely disconnected from reality. I think it's getting worse. When it happens, it feels like I can walk into a bonfire and nothing will come of it. It remember back in early 2016, I was trying to hold onto a tiny sliver of reality and it kept slipping away in my mind. Maybe I'll see a doctor about it, but no meds under any circumstances. Nopey-nopey-no. -
February 4th, 2019 1:39 PMstarseed galaxy auticornNot really? I don't think I've ever experienced that before. Anyway, I got a new coloring book. I find that it helps my stress levels and what not when I color. We also got fooooooood. <3 I'm so happy about this lol.
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February 4th, 2019 6:45 AMHomeskulled KidEddie makes a brilliant template. I should know, hur hur hur... yeah, but I've really gotten the most use out of Daisy Ridley. She's solid. Nowadays it's all topsy turvy and everyone experiences a transitory moment of fame and goodness and inspiration, only to get thrown in the rubbish bin.
Do you ever find an excellent template, though, but have no inspiration, so they're practically all burnt up by the time you do? -
February 4th, 2019 3:18 AMstarseed galaxy auticornNot for this one. The MC has two siblings that accompany her due to her needs. One is a brother played by Eddie (face claim) and her middle sibling is played by Anna Kendrick (face claim). I only use Kellin as my love interest characters because he's my bae (aside from being my hero).
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February 4th, 2019 3:16 AMHomeskulled KidRighto. Sometimes I hear about conditions shaping out people, and other times about utterly sunshiny people and seem okay with everything, despite a compendium of nasty ailments. I guess it all boils down to the determination to be happy.
Is Kellin still the other character? -
February 4th, 2019 3:09 AMstarseed galaxy auticornOf course not. I mean, her autism makes her who she is but... other than that, she doesn't really let her conditions make things too hard for her or anything like that. She wears a brace on her left ankle, and another brace around her right knee. These are actually her worser points for her OA. The braces help aide her in walking while trying to reduce as much pain as possible.
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February 4th, 2019 3:04 AMHomeskulled KidSounds brutal. Having all of that at once would be rubbish. Does it affect her personality, much?
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February 4th, 2019 2:56 AMstarseed galaxy auticornI think so... but I'm not sure. I'm trying to work on a new Disney park story. My current MC has autism, CP and osteoarthritis (which can occur earlier for her due to her CP) in her knees and ankles.
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February 4th, 2019 2:51 AMHomeskulled KidRighto, no worries.
Never heard of it, but have you ever seen Peter Pan (2003)? I grew up with it, and it's pretty great. The special effects didn't age too well, but it follows the book by millimetres and Jason Isaacs as Hook is like... brilliant. Dustin Hoffman slayed it too, yeah, but c'mon! This one has Richard Briers as Smee! -
February 4th, 2019 2:48 AMstarseed galaxy auticornSorry! My hero/bae posted things on IG, so I was checking things out. <3 I actually started watching Clockstoppers now. It's one of my favorite childhood movies!
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February 4th, 2019 2:38 AMHomeskulled KidNah, all cats are rubbish. Well, nearly all of them. But pigs are great - they can play computer games with their mind and lean against your leg. Sounds like the best companion someone can have.
Bloody plots, right? -
February 4th, 2019 2:31 AMstarseed galaxy auticornYep! That's the one. I usually like cats, but I hated the one that mistreated Babe... she was a real rattata. I feel like doing some writing... but idk.
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February 4th, 2019 2:24 AMHomeskulled KidOooh, Babe, as in little pig Babe with Farmer Hoggett and the horrible cat? I flipping grew up with that movie. It kick-started my bewitchment of carrying a tiny piglet toy everywhere. Weird days. It's an excellent film, though.
Errr, I'm waiting for pancakes and scouring for character templates. Going to get kicked off though, which is rubbish. But a good day in all. No complaints.


