Conversation Between World King and RivalGator
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  1. World King
    November 10th, 2010 5:26 PM
    World King
    Oh? What route was that...?

    Well, I said we shouldn't really talk to each other, yet you still keep going; though I may stop soon. And it's not just you, ok? It's what I've been through everywhere, specially irl. So it's because of people that I hate people; it's because of them that I don't live my life socially. And honestly, I'm starting to care less about my internet life, as well...
  2. RivalGator
    November 10th, 2010 5:13 PM
    RivalGator
    Well, you can only get over it. There is nothing more you can do unless you go down the route that my stupid friend chose to go. Which would make you a total moron.

    That's not true. I know you care whether I am here or not. You still Yahoo text messages to me and you speak with me through VM's. And that's not a bad thing. Just proves that you have a heart, even if it is broken.
    But you can't let what happened between the two of us determine whether you hate humanity or not. Thankfully, I am only one Eivana and there is no one else like me. You never know if something is going to happen though to someone over the internet. Enjoy having me around while you are lucky enough to have me around. That's all I can really say.
  3. World King
    November 10th, 2010 5:08 PM
    World King
    Se was someone I really cared about. That, I can say. And there's really only one choice then, huh...? (That'd be on my own)

    Honestly, were you here or not, now it's the same to me.
    I just... hate people, alright? So I don't expect much from anything...
  4. RivalGator
    November 10th, 2010 5:03 PM
    RivalGator
    Well, it sounds like something you need to deal with on your own, or someone you care about more than me. Which is fine, as long as it helps you cope.

    Why am I gone forever to you? I'm right here.
    And graduation opens up a whole new world! You haven't met even HALF the people you're going to meet in your life.
  5. World King
    November 10th, 2010 4:54 PM
    World King
    I'd rather not. It's something I really REALLY don't want anyone to know...
    (Hmm... right after we argued last, this happens...)

    It's not okay, and to me, you practically are. I did mess my life, ok? I've done a buttload of **** that has really messed me up. Not even graduation will change anything. (And it doesn't count for as much as it did, before...)
  6. RivalGator
    November 10th, 2010 4:39 PM
    RivalGator
    Well then that is something you need to work with, and I'll always talk it out with you if you want to talk to me privately about it. (None of my messengers work anymore. They all pop up as empty boxes)

    Karlos, hold your head up high and move on through your downfalls. This will be okay eventually, it's not like I'm gone forever. I won't be. You feel like you've messed your life up because you're trapped in high school and you're trapped at home. You need to graduate and see the world for yourself and then you'll understand what I mean. I care about you, if that counts for something.
  7. World King
    November 10th, 2010 4:34 PM
    World King
    Well, in reality, it seriously was. I could've avoided it all... I'm... damn, I hate myself a lot...

    Of course you won't be what I want you to. I got that already cleared up; that's why I stopped trying to make that happen. Besides... I've already messed up all my life as it is. I have nothing left... nothing.
  8. RivalGator
    November 10th, 2010 4:29 PM
    RivalGator
    I doubt it was all because of you.
    You probably lived the kind of life that wasn't worth it. But from the way you talk you have changed that style of life for the better... Even though you still get into trouble here and there. But the point is, you either need to really repent for it if it truly was your fault, or work with it and accept it if it wasn't. Don't blame yourself and hold yourself down if it was not really your fault.
    (I'm not incredibly sure what happened. If you would care to enlighten me.)

    I shouldn't be, Karlos. Honestly. I don't even know what is going to happen in my own future, I can't sit there and make promises to you that I am not sure I can keep. I won't do that to anybody. And you said the same thing when you were with Kate... But the truth is, you just need to meet someone better. The difference between Kate and I is the fact that I am willing to stay around and be there when she wasn't. And I know that I am not going to be what you want me to be. I can't. But Karlos, the thing you have to learn is, I CAN'T pretend, and I won't. It wouldn't be fair to you to make you think something is true that isn't. But you have to stop with the 'the way I want' stuff, because life isn't like that. The world will not revolve around you, and my world cannot. My world is upside down and I am trying to find my own way in life. I think you need to as well. But throwing out your friends and people who care about you is a good way to mess yourself up.
  9. World King
    November 10th, 2010 4:20 PM
    World King
    Well, it was my fault she died. Because of the life I lived, I caused her death. It's been tormenting me since that day... I wish my life wasn't spared, that day.

    Well, to me, you're more important. And c'mon now. I doubt I can find someone. I just... I'm done trying. And that is basically what we're talking about here; not being around, the way I want...
  10. RivalGator
    November 10th, 2010 4:15 PM
    RivalGator
    Having a friend accidentally killed and taking her own life because she's completely miserable and can not be helped are two totally different things. When my best friend T.J. killed himself and all I could do was sit there and watch because there was nothing I could do, there is just no getting over something like that. I would have rather he died by accident than suicide, as mean as that makes me sound.

    I know, but you can't let me get you down. I'm just a single human being, nothing makes me more important or less important than the next person. You will find someone so much better than me, that I can promise. I mean, I will always be around to help you no matter what. I just can't promise it will be the way you want me to, and I'm sorry.
  11. World King
    November 10th, 2010 4:05 PM
    World King
    I have, but she didn't kill herself; I witnessed an incident taking her life away. Such a good friend she was...

    I just... I'm sick of only having friends, you know. I just... I dunno, anymore...
  12. RivalGator
    November 10th, 2010 4:02 PM
    RivalGator
    When you see a friend kill themself in real life, then you'll understand losing all meaning of the word happy. Don't give me that.

    You're basing our relationship on a 'what if' thing. How many times have we tried? Probably 100 or more. And if you can't hate me, then why the hell not just be friends? That's what I don't understand. That makes no sense to me. I can't force you to be friends with me, and I won't try. But I know that you and I have had our most fun just being friends, because when we were together we constantly argued and bickered. Who the hell could be happy and want that?
  13. World King
    November 10th, 2010 3:57 PM
    World King
    Both happy? Stop kidding, now... I've lost all meaning of that word...

    Because if things will work out, that'd be awesome. That's why. And unfortunately, since I can't hate you, I can't do that. Hence, the best thing is to try not to talk to each other, often. That way, we're both better off...
  14. RivalGator
    November 10th, 2010 3:53 PM
    RivalGator
    Well, honestly, that you would stick by me no matter what. That we'd be friends no matter what decisions I made. I understand that you're hurt by what I chose, but you HAVE to at least understand that we're both happy. You have a whole world of girls to choose from now, I even told you that I would help you.
    And yes... Best friends. The person you trust the most and work on a friendly relationship with? What's the point in even having a relationship with someone to begin with if you're just going to ditch them because something you wanted didn't work out? Would you honestly be happy if I decided to get back with you just to please you and keep our friendship, but you knew that I wasn't happy? I mean, would you honestly be that selfish?
  15. World King
    November 10th, 2010 3:45 PM
    World King
    Promises... what promises aren't I keeping, huh? Oh, c'mon... BEST friends? You realize I've never had any of those in my life, right?