Conversation Between Kura and インフェルノの津波
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January 22nd, 2011 12:14 AMKuraHey, I know you didn't talk to me for wanting all your problems to go away, I know you're not naive like that or anything, but I'll admit to not expecting that you'd want to seek advice, but rather, just some consolation, or someone that can remind you that good things will always come.
I don't think you should feel like you're not worthy of others, because once you do that, you automatically put yourself on a lower category.. and.. why should you? You're human like all of us. We all have flaws, and we all have virtues. You're no better or lesser than anyone else because I believe we're all on this Earth to learn and have new experiences, and you need to view yourself that way so don't put yourself down.
And heck, psycho-analyze as much as you want, because only you choose who you want to trust. I agree with you that trust is a pretty sacred thing, and I'm glad you pay attention. (I know I did the same thing- not talking at lunch to see who'd actually talk to me stuff like that.. and it feels horrible if people go about their day- people who are supposed to be good friends, and yet not care if you hadn't spoken the entire day.. probably didn't notice.) So I share your pain there and I agree with you. Friendship and caring involves effort. But at the same time you can't wait around and expect people to only come to you (I'm not saying you do, I'm just speaking in general.)
I think that you should be happy you have as many as 10 people who really care for you, and I'm happy that these people are those that you love. It's always a good feeling knowing someone cares.
I don't think you can make a problem go away or hurt less. You either have to deal with it, or genuinely ignore it and stop caring. Though, if it's something to do with yourself, it's unwise to ignore it. Fate can always be disputed, and I think you should ALWAYS work towards your own goals. You can always change your feelings, outlooks, and expectations, so just remember that. Communication is key, and if people are blocking you from getting or feeling where or what you want.. then you need to let them know, and I am glad you are already on the right track and telling them. You don't need to be harsh, but you always need to be honest. Remember that talking will help but will no always solve everything because people can't be forced or guilted into acting or doing what you intended.
Just remember this and work towards your own goals and being happy. Other people caring about you is important, but also try to concentrate on achieving things that you can accomplish by yourself. It will make you feel more fulfilled. Even if it's something simple like writing a poem, having bigger postcounts, or landing a good grade at school, it's something positive and it's something that will keep you from slipping into feelings of "unworthiness" "ungoodness" and feelings of being "nothingness" or "unimportant." However, if you don't achieve it, don't think that you're a "failure" because that'll just make you fall into thoughts of negativity.. but rather.. I think you should just take it as a learning experience.. and a drive to work at something new next time.
It's like skipping stones.. you have to throw so many until you can actually get it right. You need to pick the right one, and learn how to do it the right way. Sooner or later you will be able to skip it farther and farther and more and more. And you'll be able to pick out the good ones much easier.
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January 21st, 2011 9:35 PMインフェルノの津波I agree with all you just said, smiled a bit, but I disagree with the people in my life. I pay attention to everything, and so far, only roughly 10 people have actually cared for me as myself, and my wellbeing, and seeing me as who I really am, and I love those people for that and I sometimes think I'm not worthy to those people. And you and Christina have so far really showed you cared for while I was browsing through loads of VMs, psycho-analyzing everyone (sorry but it's the only way to be sure, besides I do that a lot).
That's pretty much it, really. I'll try to make this problem go away or hurt less, I'm not going to let anything especially "fate" or whatever the hell it i get in my way. I make my own ****ing path. I'm tired of being sad. That's it, I'm calling a few people and letting them know something about themselves.
Also Kura I talked to you not because I thought all my problems would go away but that I would have some advice and wisdom on what to do, and I do. Really, thanks, though I can't say it the way I want to. -
January 21st, 2011 9:20 PMKuraHey, I'm not going to judge you for dealing with stuff that's more important than a website. I'll probably be gone, too, cause I have shiet to deal with too, so it's hella normal.
And I understand that it's other people. It's always other people.. and that's the issue. I personally think it's the people that are most important to you that are not responding to your needs, and you overlook the people who want to genuinely be there for you when it comes to being depressed over people. I think this way because it's happened to me, too, and that's why I said that you should realize the things you do have, too. I'm not saying "Oh hey well you can talk to me so all your problems go away" HELL NO. I know it doesn't work that way. But once in a while you can say that at least you DO have the internet as an outlet for your emotions.. so utilize it. Just realize the things that make you happy and do more to have that in your life more, you know?
Like I said, I don't know your situation, so I can't offer you any real insight (heck you probably don't want to hear my opinion) but I just want you to concentrate on what you NEED to do, what makes you happy, and what are some good ways to always be in that happy zone while still dealing with life and responsibilities.. you know?
I'm genuinely concerned because I can relate to you, and I know how hurtful it can feel and I hope that you'll be able to cope and end up feeling happy and listened to. -
January 21st, 2011 9:00 PMインフェルノの津波Naw, not you Kura, other people in my life that I mean.
Thanks Kura, for setting me straight, though I still have a lot to be thinking about. Don't be surprised if I'm gone for a month. -
January 21st, 2011 8:54 PMKuraAm I ignoring you? Man, I'm not saying that you don't have bad things. I'm not belittling your problems. I'm telling you to realize the good things you have, too, because it can be really empowering. I'm not telling you that you're whining, and I believe you that it is painful. I don't know your situation, but we're talking, aren't we? And I'm sure that must make you feel a bit better because you have the chance to verbalize your feelings- instead of being entirely "forgotten" as you might put it. I can't control your family, your Aspergers, or your name, but I can damn well make it so that you can have someone to chat with.
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January 21st, 2011 8:46 PMインフェルノの津波Wait, it is full of sadness, Kura. Believe me, between my name not supposed the way it is, my messed up family, my Asperger's, and the simple fact that people ignore is making me depressed. Even on the internet I am ignored. I know I sound like I'm a whining *****, but I'm really tired. I sometimes wished I was born some other time, anything other than this. It's very painful.
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January 21st, 2011 8:41 PMKuraWell your life doesn't have to be full of sadness, really. Sure there are always ups and downs but you gotta concentrate on the haves instead of the have-nots. Right? Like.. are you financially stable? You're not sick, are you? I think if you're physically fine, you should totally embrace that! I know how depression is hard though, I used to be depressed 4(ish) years ago, even had to go on Paxil.. soo.. I know how you feel :C But you can get better <3
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January 21st, 2011 4:54 PMインフェルノの津波Thanks. I don't know what I want to do, really. Just realized my entire life was full of sadness and it's hitting me hard.
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January 21st, 2011 4:45 PMKura:C Awh.. why depressed? ;_; Want to talk about it? Or would you rather not? ;_; *Hugs*
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January 21st, 2011 4:41 PMインフェルノの津波Depressed more than anything, but I'm physically fine.
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January 21st, 2011 4:06 PMKuraNot much! I'm okay, busy and hungry haha :3 How about you, dear?
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January 21st, 2011 3:59 PMインフェルノの津波What's up, how're you?
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January 21st, 2011 3:57 PMKuraHey dawg :3
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January 21st, 2011 3:39 AMインフェルノの津波Hey Kura.
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January 14th, 2011 11:30 PMKura


