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Thanks! Right now there's a lot of noise going on, so I'll have to listen to it when it quietens down a bit. But anything to do with personality disorders and I'm interested. I forgot what Tourette's is called in that instance. My memory is getting so awful.

And at night, it feels like I'm slipping away even more. In terms of memory, sensation and all that. Everything's so flipping distant, and consequences are inching away. There's officially a mile between everything. If life gets kickstarted and things start happening, maybe there'll be a degree of reality about the place. But it's just getting so bloody frustrating.

Ooh, so The Umbrella Academy, Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance, Stranger Things, Spider-man 2, Star Wars, Pokémon, Artemis Fowl, Avatar 2 and How To Train Your Dragon 3: The Hidden World! It's looking pretty exciting, eh? And yeah, Maleficent too and all that.

Never seen it. It's come recommended though, so it's just another thing to chalk up to the Must See List. And Elle Fanning was bloody pretty in Super 8. She looks a bit like a mouse. Mousy looks don't hold a candle to ratty looks, but yeah, she's cute.

I'm so excited to watch it! It's a while off yet, but whatever. And so far... Number 5 is my favourite character? Seance is great too, though.

Same. I don't know if my monologue will reach the finals. It's pretty much a car crash, with bits of material from the weirder side of my life. I'm going to call it The Land of Eggshells, 'cause that resonates a lot, really. I hope your writer's block clears, though.

Whoops! Late again. I've just rewritten my monologue, but it's only gonna work if Ben Mendelsohn does it, in all of his lanky Australianess.

And yeah. I'm a fan! Especially of his comic The Umbrella Academy - I started it last night and it's everything that I've been looking for. I mostly like good old Way because he diversified, and rules at both outlets. He also influenced a quadrillion youths into dying their hair and getting neckties, which is also epic. Ah, emo... I'm still in love with it. This bit of the 21st century is so devoid of culture and originality in the way we portray ourselves, save a precious few. Like, what are our descendants going to remember of us? iPhones, puerile fashion and no body hair. Good lord.

And, you know, thanks for confiding in me. I'm like, 120% disengaged from reality so I find it difficult to process half of the hardship that could come with it. And getting diagnosed sounds rotten because there's so... much... flipping... stigma. Even people with Tourette's have a low standard of living. So reporting yourself to be a schizo might not be the best way to get a job in acting, but hiding it is for wimps. Pervasive ignorance! The scourge of today! Let's kill it with a stick.

And cool! I was actually curious to watch that. Obi-Wan is a riot.

Sounds fun! And no worries. I've been pretty busy too. Monologue and stuff, and just found out that I've got like, nearly all the symptoms of schizophrenia. Whoa.

I just wanna party with Jude Law, man. Bring along Tom Holland, and Eddie Redmayne and Robert Downey Jr, discuss the layered psychology and motivations of human beings and then watch the new Spider-man or something. Ahhhhhhhhhhh. Doesn't that sound good?!

Oh, cool! It's a pretty good read, all in all. Very gritty, so a suitable companion for the movie. And wow, Felicity Jones... so pretty. Or beautiful? I'm finding it hard to tell, but her large teeth are excellent. And apparently she had a lot of trouble saying 'rebels' on set. She kept saying 'webels', lmao.

And yeah, I've been trying to read a Boba Fett book since December and its just too complicated. But the needless kind, without much style. Still, maybe I'll come back to it.

I saw the first Iron Man a long, long time ago, but I've always loved him. Used to watch IM cartoons all the time and he generally kicks ass. And yeah, Downey is epic! It's really cool how he pulled himself out of seedy habits and rebuilt his career. He always looks so sad and wry.

I love everything about her but I can't stand the series. I hate what they have done to the characters and I refuse to watch any more

So tired. My eyeballs just want to crawl into a corner and imitate Sleeping Beauty. Ahhhh. But yeah, some people are just excruciatingly perfect. Changing the placement of an eyelash would be a tragedy.

Nice! I'm out of real books, so I've got to reread Rogue One. It's brilliant, if only for Orson Krennic - played by Ben Mendelsohn in the movie. He's Australian, witty as hell and sheerly epic.

Mine too!!! I might be a little too obsessed with her to be honest

Looks a tad skeletal - could do with a nourishing meal, really, and some Horlicks. A rice and fish dinner... the meal of greatness! Now I want to go feed some actors.

Thanks! And I'll give it a bash. Never wrote a monologue before, but something inside me has been itching to make one for ages. Want to create something worthy of Alan Alder. That'd be great.

But yeah, it feels weird to make assumptions over compatibility and whatnot when it comes to people. Thoroughly alien. 'Shipping', in entirety, is not my thing. Still, though. Swift and Hiddleston. What a trip.

I passed my exam-thing! It was all very amicable. Very clean-cut. It was basically just talking to a person and saying everything that you'd done, and bombarding them with tea and bribes.
And from here, I've got to write another short story in the form of a play monologue! This time I won't be performing it, as far as I know - some actor will do it. I'm simultaneously relieved and disappointed...? I mean, I'm utterly sucky but if there was someone tutoring me, maybe something epic could come out of it. Again, wish me luck. I've only got two weeks to make it and half of that will be editing and making sure its compatible with actually being performed. But it'll have to win in order to be acted out - like, one of the finalists. Exciting. I'd be the youngest writer there, by far.

He dated Swift...? That's news. Very weird news. I always imagined him being married to a pretty, intelligent foreigner or something. Someone from France or Lebanon. Huh. And I have no idea who Gubler is, lmao. Have heard the name, sure enough, but without context.

Oh, what? I thought I replied to this! Sorry for the massive delay. Things have been a tad hectic.

Well, writing down notes for all of your ideas can help. It either makes you more excited or... less. It's a nifty way of finding out whether something will work or not. And a fairly good idea is to incorporate lots of content from past stories into your current one, if only to make it bulkier and more fleshed out. I'm going to try and do that from now on.

And Kimi, believe it or not, people were slagging off Eddie Redmayne, Rami Malek and Tom Hiddleston on Discord. Being very rude, too. If I didn't like people before, this has cemented it. Delicate incisions I can stand, but actual insults...!

I think I prefer the heat to the cold, really. Even in the form of humidity. It's bracing and nostalgic! The cold equates to sweating for me, anyway, as well as cramps, weather headaches, chilblains (sound gross and old man-y, are actually pretty normal) and the inability to exercise. What rubbishy bollocks.

Read Crimes of Grindelwald screenplay! Only took me about four months, but oh well. Finished it in two hours, and discovered 100 forgotten dollars in the binding, lmao. And now in hindsight, I really do like the movie, and the screenplay cleared up some of the confusion. Who would have guessed that ____ was a _____? Mindblowing. And Jude Law is so darn charming as Dumbledore, and himself and as everyone.

i understand o:

Feeling better, today. Even revitalised. It helps to vent the spleen somewhat, maybe attack a sister if you've got one handy.

Hrmm, but then I've never really liked most internet people. There's an absence of humour and an excess of self-pity, dull conversation, sycophancy and nepotism. That's another thing for writing, though - any character is going to be endearing if they're funny. If it's first person, they can really benefit from a few witty remarks inside their head. It especially lightens the doom-and-gloom aspect that can sometimes creep in.

When it comes to writing, I'm not all that adventurous. Very lazy, also. I sort of stick to what I know, but at least I'm still progressing with every story. I was thinking of doing present-tense third-person, which kinda sounds stupid. But it's new and like, never seen, so it might be worth trying out?

And writing is oxygen. Without it, one feels depleted and inane.